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My goal is to go ONE DAY without purging. You'd think that would be manageable.

I had to stop and go sit down twice because I started feeling sick. WEAK. :D but I'm going to keep going and continue suffering.

I'm going to the MMA place today! I'm resolved to do it! If I can find it, that is. :D Nervous because it will be hard and I know I'll be bad at it to start. But I'm determined to keep going.

If it makes you feel better, I once tried to make my sister speak more quietly by turning down the volume on my computer...

Oh no D:

Man, people are sensitive. HOW DARE YOU CALL OTHERS GOOFBALLS IN THE SPIRIT OF CAMARADERIE.

I didn't mean to imply that at all! She's a good person and I think we're going to be friends :) I'm just paranoid because of Russia lol.

Aww, you're so sweet. Thank you. Luckily my family are all heathen atheists too, so at home it's all good :D It's not too hard to hide since I'm not in a relationship at the moment... the hardest part is not making gay jokes any time anyone says the word "straight" in an unrelated context. (GPS: continue straight. Previous…

I've definitely done this before... as well as eating cubes of bouillon.

Another good day of eating! Including sake at dinner. I feel like I'm getting the hang of this (famous last words). Extremely stressed about registering for classes, though. Going to write some plaintive emails tonight and hope the professors take pity on me. I met my roommate and she's a really nice person. Also really…

Brilliant. We should all be taking notes from that lady.

Finally I have a day with an acceptable deficit (1000). And one spent in the car, no less! When I usually eat because there’s nothing else to do. Maybe I’m finally out of the binging phase and I’ll have better habits in college. I played my music for a few minutes for my mom, and she said it made her feel like there was…

I laughed out loud at this. Your poor dad! :D

I am just shy of overweight for the first time in my life. Nasty, nasty reality. I need to do something fast. Tomorrow I’m heading back to school, have to pack up all my stuff tonight. I’m getting nervous about registering for classes and stuff.

when I was a kid, people always said I looked like hermoine! I think it was probably the crazy amount of wavy hair. possibly also the fact that I walked around with my head in a book literally all the time.

In that case, can I be Eva Green? :D

My house flooded this morning -_- luckily the upstairs is fine but 6 inches of water downstairs and we spent the morning trying to push it out the door with brooms. FUN TIMES. I managed to eat like a semi-normal person yesterday, so trying for today too.

Idk, sounds like you're doing pretty well to me...

Today I am really *kitten* determined to ignore the urge to binge tonight. I'll write instead and eventually that will be my better habit. (I've been writing at least 500 words every day as a new year's resolution).

I know what you mean. I have the next year and a half at university already sort of planned out by default, but after that.... no clue.

Confession: ate many unplanned chocolate almonds. Still under calorie goal, so that's a win. Also drank more of the whiskey intended to be used for baking cupcakes. I'm keeping up my resolution to write every day so far, but we'll see how long that lasts...

That's such a good expression! Like gender non-specific mansplaining.

Day one of intuitive eating and not calorie counting. Mostly because I decided to try to take care of myself and pull myself out of this relapse because Religious Reasons or something like that. Also, it is -17 degrees F today so I am not exercising at all and staying in bed reading Neil Gaiman all day.

Ate/drank way more than I planned, (1600!) but I have a deficit for the first time in ages. Yaaaaaay. I got into a horrible, hours-long fight with my close high school friend today about social justice/antisemitism/communism/etc. etc. but managed to agree not to talk about it anymore and watch TV together. I really did…

Now there's a gym I would join...

Same. I think I’ll just stick with dogs...

Thank you :) I think I do know why but seem to be helpless to stop it anyway. Ah, well, I’m starting again today and feeling better, and I saved calories for two shots of whiskey with dinner because I just learned that we have whiskey in the house. Also, I feel you on the whole jars of peanut butter. I managed to have one…

I can’t stop binging. I’m fatter than I’ve ever been in my life. *whisper-screams* CUT IT OFFF

I’ve been binging nonstop BUT I have a new plan that starts today to get myself under control. And I’m buying a scale as soon as I go back to school. I hope everyone else had wonderful holidays! I got lots of books and now I have so much time to read <3

Thank you all for the welcome home wishes!