SoulOfRusalka Member

When I was in high school, I was suicidally depressed and my mom didn't believe me so I couldn't see a psych. Not having medication caused me immense and unnecessary suffering and almost cost me my life on multiple occasions. And yes, I tried every "natural" fix that the *kitten* hippie-crunchy mom blogs suggested, and…

I find combining them with coffee and making a frappe-y drink helps mask that protein-powder taste for me. I'm vegan so I use the vega chocolate or vanilla blended with instant coffee (bc I'm cheap and lazy), and maybe mix in some crushed ice or almond milk to make the texture more interesting. It works just fine with…

Prometheus didn't give us fire for social media 'influencers' to preach raw food at us smh

Yeah, that's probably gonna make people feel like *kitten*, just saying. How would you feel if someone looked at your plate and went "wow, I don't know how anyone could eat that much! That's just me, though"? Probably *kitten*.

Just a little warning-- and I think everyone else has had good points-- just be very, very careful on the calorie and weight front, if you bring them into it at all. Best not to talk about calories, period, or assigning numerical values to food. Or measuring fitness/health by weight. Instead, maybe try to focus on the…

No, I mean that those-- the ones you enter in manually in the "added exercise"-- don't match the calories that MFP factors in automatically by syncing with my phone and counting my steps. Does that make sense? Thanks for responding.

I've never been able to get up early in the morning, and I don't especially want to :P I'd rather work out later.

I don't like the higher power model, either. I have trouble with that in ED treatment, too-- admitting that you're powerless over your addiction just seems really counterproductive to me. And I have a relationship with my higher power, but I believe she wants me to figure *kitten* out on my own. If all I had to do was ask…

Heyooo, I made it through the day without drinking! I actually went as far as pouring myself a drink (okay, it was 4 shots of tequila) but then I remembered that I *kitten* hate tequila. And I thought, I don't have to do this. I don't want to be dependent. Poured down the drain.

For July, (and probably August), I want to start drinking only on weekends, and only 6 drinks a day then. Friday and Saturday or Saturday and Sunday, all three if it's an especially rough week. :# I hope I'm not too late to join this thread, but I could use the support. I am... not so good at the moderation thing. For a…

No one knows I have a scale because that would be a little suspicious, what with the ED history and all. No one believes I'm actually sane (ish) now... wonder why. :# Whenever my psych or another medical professional asks if I've lost weight, I just say that I don't know and I don't weigh myself.

Everyone is acting like this is okay when it's one of the most imprisoning aspects of an eating disorder. Obsession is not a good sign. Sure, appreciation of food is good, but it sounds like you're not even appreciating the food you're eating because you're thinking about what to eat next, and you can't enjoy other…

Sent a request! Maintenance for me is something like 1800. It will be higher if I get my *kitten* together and start exercising properly. :D Also, not to be a creep (!), but your profile pic is really pretty :)

Same.

I don't know if there's a group on here, but there are definitely forums elsewhere on the internet for support.

What would either of those mean/why are they not good? Just out of curiosity.

*raises hand in shame* you are.... not alone...... I don't think it was cinnamon toast crunch but for sure an entire box of cereal.

That's really awesome that you're so secure. I mean that sincerely. That's the dream. It still sucks that other people are nervous, though :( I can never calm down when the people around me are stressed. (Although, your cat-rocking-chair metaphor is worth hanging onto. I would counter with "as nervous as a field of horses…

#mood I have just re-discovered Cheerios, and oh my god, I love Cheerios.

I hope things get easier soon <3

What's the connection to Patton Oswalt?! I didn't read about that. I always liked his comedy. :(

250 calories from ginger ale-- 250 calories from salad-- almost 800 calories from alcohol-- is this what they call a balanced diet? ... I'm trying my best!

I'm not sure of any. You can message me, though.

I'm almost 5'4 and 123.5, losing on 1600-1800. And I *kitten* up my metabolism with an eating disorder. So if it works for me, I'm pretty sure it will work for you. When you don't binge, it's surprising how much you can eat.

heyyyyy I finally went a day without purging for the first time in a literal eternity. I feel like I could punch the sun. I hope all you lovely people are doing well.

Breakfast: chocolate protein drink & oreos Lunch: chocolate almonds & strawberry licorice Dinner: probably vodka. Yeahhhhhh valentines dayyyy

Me, walking into the store 10 minutes before closing, in pajamas and untied sneakers, buying only vodka and gum: hello friends, as you can see, my life is, completely under control,,,,,,, *kitten*-ton of essays to write and I, predictably, am doing NOTHING! But I have been exercising and playing the violin, so I've got…

I think my scale is broken. Anyone know of a way to re-calibrate it?

Me too!

I went to the MMA place again! Yay! I have to get my money's worth so I'm just going to keep on showing up. I did *kitten* up and purge today (as is to be expected, really) and got drunk in the middle of the day. But past mistakes are past mistakes, and I did write and exercise which were my main goals for life…