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Yes, it is the petite frame that makes weight gain feel a lot worse. I hate feeling too weak for my body also. If I gain weight I sometimes feel very heavy although I don't look that big - I know my skeleton was probably intending for something lighter haha. It is funny because a lot of people think I have a great body.…

That's totally right. I know the media has effected my self-esteem since childhood. Sadly, they tend to promote something I am not. Sounds like you are doing great! I think sometimes we forget to be grateful for how far we have come rather than thinking about what we have not achieved. I need to rebuild my spiritual health…

Thank you. Don't be too hard on yourself. 119 is light! Plenty of women would kill to be that after a baby. Becoming overweight during youth really does seem to trigger a lifetime of eating disorders and self-esteem problems. I know I can be like this. If I gain a couple of pounds I will feel like a fat kid all over again.…

Thank you. This is absolutely true. I guess I am seeking happiness in being smaller rather than accepting I have body issues. People around me do tell me I look fine but I am so self-critical I don't accept that as the truth. I suppose it is an psychological problem.

Thanks for the message! I guess it's the curvy figure that leads women to believe they are not thin enough... Which is a shame. I think we all are torn between loving our figures and hating them. Gaining muscle sounds like a great idea. You look amazing!

Yes. Sometimes I think I look the same even after weight loss because of my height and body shape. So I feel similar no matter what weight. Glad you feel the same! Well, not glad but at least it feels more normal now. Sometimes people forget they are not alone.

You are right. I guess I am presuming they are happy because they were lucky in that respect. Which doesn't make sense. Yes, it is time I let go of how I felt and started new.

Yes, absolutely. If I ever have children I will be very sensitive and aware of self-esteem issues. I don't want them to have problems like I do. I don't want them to be constantly dieting.

Thanks! Sounds very similar to my situation. Maybe I am just thinking about how bad I felt and that is becoming my reality. As if I'm no longer fat but I still carry the emotional burden of being fat. I envy people who have been able to be a consistent healthy weight throughout their lives. I think being big has made me…

I understand that what I say might seem unhealthy but I think my upbringing altered my perception of self-esteem and body image. Siblings constantly dieting and losing weight probably created a lot of my problems with confidence.

Thank you. Positivity is the key, you're right. I guess we should all be more grateful for our bodies. It is hard sometimes.

About two years ago I was heavier. Because I am not very tall I looked worse for the extra weight. I was heavier on and off throughout school and then eventually stayed big throughout college. Then lost the weight. I've been at this weight for about 2 years now give or take a few pounds. Yes. Sometimes I look quite good in…

Seems like you are using food to replace something. Maybe you eat out of boredom or to satisfy some emotional issue. I got like this with sugary foods at one point. I didn't eat lunch I would just eat a bag of sweets. It was weird. I used to skip breakfast and just drink coffee. I used to crave caffeine and sugar. I would…

I think it's long term but it fluctuates. Sometimes I feel okay and other times I get down on myself.

Thanks! It probably is a confidence issue. Unfortunately I can be negative about myself and cause myself a lot of problems.

I think it might be part of a look I want to have. I am conflicted between wanting to be skinny and finding it undesirable. I wanted to be slimmer originally but now I seem to want to take it the whole way. Being slim doesn't seem to be enough for me anymore. As if I have worked hard but still feel quite big.

I have considered this at times. But I thought maybe it was a normal feeling.

True! I think I'll take my last goal step by step. Probably set out to lose 2 pounds or so and see where it takes me. I want so bad to get to a certain number that I downplay my success.

Thanks a lot! Yeah, I am going to start thinking of this as a lifestyle change. I set out to do this but I got too carried away with the numbers on the scale and not the big picture. Thanks for reminding me :)

Perhaps that is what I am worrying about.

When I lost a stone people began to notice :) But some people are more observant and notice straight away and others need a more dramatic loss.

Yeah I think I'll gave to give it a try! I'm just worried about getting larger without dropping the weight! Haha. Thank you!

Hm. I have quite big thighs and quite muscular ham strings which = big legs. I don't know why as I've never done a squat in my life.

I am exactly the same!

I think people took my bulky comment too literally. I am not saying I am scared to make myself to look muscular but I'm scared I'll just make my problem areas bigger with the tone underneath. But hey, I'm probably wrong. Which is why I am here :tongue:

Just chill

Ok. I'll stick to a programme and hopefully see results.

Honestly I either wear a thong or no knickers. When I wear normal undies I get visible panty line really bad. I have quite a big bum too so it's very obvious and noticeable.

Yeah, I like dresses. They actually cater to a curvy form :)

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