3X173 Member

lol, it's bad for you. It's not healthy doing it too much.

Yes, I agree that I am partially to blame, I did let her use me. I did put her on a pedestal. I definitely don't have those feelings for me. Like, if she wanted to get back to me, I would say no.

UPDATE: Okay, I went to talk to this girl yesterday. I told her that everyone is telling me to avoid talking to her and I feel that she is using me. I stated my arguments why I thought so. lol, she said that I didn't use you, and there are many other people who are waiting for me to use, but I don't. She later on started…

Thank you all. I REALLY DO APPRECIATE IT. It is definitely a hard step for me, but it must be done. I need to finally cut contacts with her. I deleted her contacts and our text convo twice before and willing to do it again once and for all. It's just getting pathetic now. It feels like I am her gay friend. I got a new job…

Thank you. Yea, I was wondering if she was oblivious to what it would mean to me when she makes these comments. I don't know about the deep connection though. No one would have spend that much time if they didn't enjoy it. Felt like we were a couple.

Yea, I actually confronted her about that. She just said that she didn't want it, but life gave it to her or some bs. I also asked her why did she say no to me. She basically that I had no attitude. Although she said that she has more fun time talking to me, and he's grumpy, that she would prefer him over me. I was just…

Yea, I realized that but I just can't say no to this girl. I've tried and already think that I will say no but when the time comes, yes comes out, lol.

She still lives in the same house but I don't see her daily. We still text and call daily though. I want to block her but she still has my money. Out of $350, $100 is still left.

I told her three times to stop talking to me. It always comes back to her texting me and I just caving in. I mean, when something is going on in your life, and she is the first one to ask you how it went, it's hard to ignore that. She also knows EVERYTHING about me. It feels like she and I have known each other for a long…

no care

Hug, Date, Dance, Spank and then marry.

Workout on my legs.

lost. Not in a bad way, but like she's trying to look to see where she belongs.

Go shopping with him to get some tips.

I want to lose weight with you.

cowlick hairstyle.

fake smile.

This is going to get complicated really fast. I like the top position. Just throwing it out there.

I was happy being alone. Now, since this girl, I don't want to stay home because I think about her. And also, I don't know, I have never been to a bar alone. Is it normal to go to a bar alone?

lol, I did that and I realized that I would just binge on food. I always regret it afterwards. Like, soo much calories.

I don't know why, I can't get myself to watch shows, movies nor play games. I think walking is a good idea. I don't know, I've never walked just for 'fun'. I just don't like staying at home. When I was in Uni, I purposely came home at 10pm despite my class ending at like 4pm because being at home is so boring. I definitely…

Thank you, Adw7677. I know that I need to do something else with my life. I can't let this depression get the best of me. I am better than this. I will definitely try MMA or even dancing. I love dancing even though I don't how to dance, lol.

I will wait it out myself and see if I feel any better myself. I do feel much better by just making this thread.

Yea, but it costs like a $100 an hour? Who has money for that?

lol, this is how us guys talk. I can tell that you ladies are kinda old (but young at heart). "Man up, you... is suppose to motivate them. If someone said that to me, it would show me that he cares. I am not trying to belittle anyone,

I don't think that I will hurt myself or anything. I'm also not a religious guy by any means. But I will go to the mosque tomorrow after work and talk to someone there. They are usually so busy with other things that I doubt that they will have anything for me but it never hurts to try. Also, I've passed the point where I…

hot but too young.

^ hell yea.

It's not the fact that I am sadden by the fact that I haven't reached my goals, it's the stagnation that kills me. Seeing no progress for literally months. Just last month, I was fasting during Ramadan and ate little as possible, but only lost water weight. My friend lost more 50lb in 6 months what I lost in a year,…

Thank you for the support. I realize that it's the hardest thing that I've done in my life so far and it's almost pitiful to admit defeat when it gets tougher. I always had the excuse that my mom cooks unhealthy meals and now I live alone, I control what I eat more autonomously than before. Seriously, wish me luck and best…