Jennifer's Journal
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Thanks totaldetermination! I went to the gym yesterday but started feeling a little off and couldn’t give it my all so I left and went home. I think I had a little bug since I got nauseated on and off during the day yesterday. I still feel a little off this morning but today is grocery shopping day and I can’t skip it (we have no food!). I also eat with my daughter on Thursdays and I definitely won’t miss that. So, I put on my big girl panties, got some coffee and out the door I go for groceries!0
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Well, my internet went down for most of yesterday and today. I didn’t log my food yesterday and almost forgot to today when my internet finally came back up. I had subway for lunch yesterday so I didn’t do too bad there but my snacking almost got the best of me. I’m an emotional eater and my husband was unusually late and wasn’t answering my phone calls or texts. I was trying not to worry, but that part of my brain that tells me “worry now!” kept creeping up and I’d eat something to occupy myself. He finally called and all was well with my world. Lol
Today I did pretty good. Went back to the gym and got on the elliptical and treadmill. A friend of mine met me up there which made exercising more fun. Funny story... after the elliptical she wanted to use the weight machines and I went over to the treadmill. A little while later she came up to me telling me that she had to leave. I had about 15 minutes left on the treadmill so I asked if she’d bring my phone and keys to me since they were locked in her locker. When she was giving them to me, I turned just enough that my right foot went half way onto the side steps and I lost my balance.... I almost went down! If it weren’t for my friend pushing on my back, I would have totally fallen off that treadmill! I was laughing so hard that I didn’t even think about being embarrassed. Haha!! Probably one of my favorite days up there. I have a nice red mark on my shin from where I hit the moving conveyor belt part but it’s not bad.
Oh and to top off a crazy day, my husband locked his keys in his truck as he was getting ready to leave work and was stuck there for another hour or so trying to get it open with a clothes hanger. I offered to bring his spare key but he’s just stubborn enough to say “no, I’ll get in.” Haha Oh what a day.
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The weekend has come and gone again. We’ve had some amazingly, gorgeous days! Cool, crisp mornings and warm afternoons. My favorite type of days, but rain is supposed to come tomorrow and then it gets cold in the mornings and chilly in the afternoons. I’m not really a cold weather person and I think being from East Texas has a lot to do with that. My husband is from Southeastern Kentucky and thrives in the cold. He prefers it, actually.
Well, onto my weight loss journey, I’ve definitely noticed a difference in my energy level. I’m a stay-at-home mom and weekends are typically my days off from cleaning the house. However, today I have cleaned the kitchen and vacuumed the living room and kitchen.
Side note...if you are in the market for a bare floor and carpet/rug vacuum, Shark Rocket Ultra-Light Upright Stick Vacuum is the way to go. I love mine. I have laminate wood floors throughout the house with some area rugs and there’s no grit on the bare floor and the carpet attachment does awesome on my area rugs. Back to business....
I haven’t lost any weight yet as far as the scale goes but my energy change lets me know that I’m at least heading in the right direction. I’ve been really bad at forgetting to log my food. I need to be better with that. I also struggle with drinking enough water.0 -
I enjoy reading your post. I also am not a cold weather person. I'm actually not a hot weather person either. I like it right in the middle. haha That's great about the increase in energy!!! Can you send me some, you know if you find any that you can spare? =P haha I look forward to your next post!1
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Wifires, I wish I could! I would totally send you some. Although today after a hard workout on the elliptical and treadmill (I pushed myself hard) my energy has just kinda zapped.
My husband had another bad night and kept waking me up to hold my hand or cuddle. It seems really sweet, and it is don’t get me wrong, but I can’t sleep when I’m being touched. I won’t fully fall asleep until he turns over and I’m not being touched anymore. But, him feeling secure and loved is worth the missed sleep. My husband is a veteran and has PTSD from wartime. Nightmares and night terrors are common in fall/winter months.
After my hard exercise this morning, I’ve done laundry and wrapped more presents. I love Christmas time! Now I’m ready for a nap but instead it’s time to go get my girl from school!0 -
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I appreciate that you would totally share if you could! =P
I'm sorry to hear that your husband had a bad night, I relate to not being able to sleep when being touched - though for me it can depend on my mood - more often than not though, it's a no go especially because my husband is like a human furnace. Anyway, I hope you and your husband sleep better tonight!
Also, your Christmas tree and decorations are beautiful!
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Yes! My husband is a human furnace as well! We have 3 fans blowing in our room at night cause he gets too hot and the noise is soothing for him. Last night was a much better night. We both slept well. Thank you! I love Christmas time.
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Well, yesterday I managed to get 12,860 steps! Super proud of myself. I have a tendency to go workout and then come home and veg the majority of the day and I didnt allow myself to do that....well, at least not as long as usual. I sat down and watched a movie and ate lunch, but then I worked on this house some more. It’s really hard going from primarily sitting most of the day to being super active but I’m trying. I’ve got to keep trying. Now, I’m sure you’ve noticed, that I give myself pep talks. lol I do it for two reasons; one so I keep myself motivated because I have failed so many times, and two because one day I’ll wholeheartedly believe myself. There is nothing worse than self doubt and I’ve lived an entire life of self doubt, whether it’s regarding friendships, relationships, body image or pipe dreams that will never happen. I have doubted myself in some regard in all of them. I lack a self-confidence that has a tendency to hold me back. So, I give myself pep talks to allow myself the motivation and will to break through the self-doubt and prove to myself that I am worth the effort and that I can do this!
I woke up hungry this morning so I am downing a bottle of water before I eat anything so I don’t just scarf down everything in the fridge. Today I will go to the gym and do weight training and then a friend and I are going to go have some breakfast and then hang out for a bit. It’s been a while since our schedules have synced up so I’m super excited!0 -
I'm glad that you both had a better night sleep!
You aren't the only one that gives yourself pep talks. I find them useful too! You've definitely got this so keep doing what you're doing, I believe in you!
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My friend and I had a wonderful day working out, having breakfast at Cracker Barrel (only 380 calories consumed!!) and visiting over coffee. I was able to drink 78 oz of water today which is a whole lot for me. It’s a work in progress.
Well, today I felt super bad when I picked my daughter up from school today... They have these fitness runs at her school every Tuesday. They run the track as many times as they can in the allotted time that they are out there. If they run a certain number of miles by the end of the school year, they get a t-shirt. Well, it was in the low 50s today and the north wind was blowing. I told her to grab her jacket before she got out of the truck to go into school this morning and I didn’t realize she didn’t do that until after I was heading to pick her up. She told me (she’s in 2nd grade) that she cried as she walked around the track because she was cold. I felt awful but had she grabbed her jacket like I told her to..... I bet she won’t forget it next time, though.
By the end of the day, I ended up consuming more calories than I wanted to but I still didn’t go over my maximum amount of daily calories so I guess that will have to do. Tomorrow is back to cardio at the gym and I’m hoping my lower abdomen feels better. It’s been hurting me a little today. I don’t believe I have been officially diagnosed with pcos but I’m currently a day late on my period and the lower right side of my abdomen is hurting a little. It did this a few months back and it was a miserable cycle. I’m still convinced it was the mirena that caused the pcos even though every dr out there will tell you otherwise. I didn’t have any issues prior to having it inserted and there’s no family history of pcos either. I almost had to have surgery to get my mirena out last February. I’ll never have another one inserted. But anyway, let me step down off my soap box now.0 -
Well, I didn’t wake up in any pain but after being on the elliptical for 30 minutes at the gym, that spot started hurting again. Not so painful that I feel like I need to go to the dr just yet but enough that I can feel it. I started to not feel real good. I don’t know if they had the heater on in the gym or what but I was getting too hot and felt lightheaded so Im back home now. Im going to take it easy today and just do some light housework and wrap some more presents.0
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I hate days when emotional eating takes ahold of me and won’t let go....today was one of those days. I don’t feel like myself. I’m moody, my period’s late and one of my daughter’s presents is somewhere between Orlando, FL and here, and the other things I’ve ordered haven’t even shipped yet. Yes, I stress out about this kind of stuff, especially when my hormones are off track. I’ve consumed more than I should have today but hopefully tomorrow I can get my mind out of this stress fog and focus on what is most important right now. My health. I do myself no favors by turning to food for comfort and letting it take control over me. I had envisioned my day being full of getting things done and wrapping presents...none of that happened. I sat my keister down in my chair and hid under a blanket (it’s cold here right now). I’ve been so sleepy and almost took a nap, which probably would have been better cause you can’t eat while you’re sleeping. Well, unless you are a sleep walker and I am not. I can’t blame my weight on sleep eating. lol I’m fully awake and conscious of what is going on my mouth. Ugh! I am better than this. I can do this! I can tell that ugly stress monster to take a hike, but it’s easier to cuddle up with him. lol Tomorrow is a new day. A clean slate. A second chance. Tomorrow I will do better. Tomorrow I will work harder and eat better.0
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So glad you and your friend had a great time! I love Cracker Barrel! I always get the carrots and the marinated grilled chicken tenderloins! Awesome job on your water intake!
That sucks that your daughter didn't take her jacket and had to be miserable but sometimes they gotta learn the hard way and I think you're right, she'll remember it next time!
How are you feeling now? I'm worried that it keeps hurting you. I always err on the side of caution and suggest to make the doctor's appointment even if you think it doesn't warrant it. You never know and the fact that it keeps happening leads me to believe that it's something that probably shouldn't be ignored especially if it's not normal for you.
I had an emotional day of eating myself so we will both strive to have a better day together tomorrow! We've got this!
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I love this breakdown! Thanks for sharing!jcaldwell0331 wrote: »Goals!
1️⃣ My first goal is to be below 230 by Christmas. I’m at 235 right now so that’s only 6 lbs.
2️⃣ My second goal is to be under 220 by Valentine’s Day. 51 days to lose 10 lbs.
3️⃣ My third goal is to be under 210 by our anniversary. 46 days to lose 10 lbs.
4️⃣ My fourth goal is to be in the 190’s by the end of school. 61 days to lose 10 lbs.
5️⃣ My fifth goal is to be 180 by Maddie’s birthday. 32 days to lose 10 lbs.
6️⃣ My sixth goal is to be 170 by my birthday. 70 days to lose 10 lbs.
7️⃣ My seventh goal is to be 160 by Halloween. 48 days to lose 10 lbs.
8️⃣ My eighth goal is to be 155 by Thanksgiving. 22 days to lose 5 lbs.
9️⃣ My ninth and final goal is to be 150 by Christmas. 33 days to lose 5 lbs.
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Thanks, Jillian! Now if I can just stick to it!! lol
Wifires, I meant to update earlier but I kept getting distracted. It’s not hurting as much as just uncomfortable. My mom’s an RN and I’ve been discussing it with her. She doesn’t see any cause for alarm just yet since I’m not in bad pain. She’s given me the run down on appendix issues and the like. It doesn’t hurt constantly and today it was all the way across my abdomen like a normal mentrual cramp would be. I’m 3 days late and it could possibly be cramps from the upcoming Aunt Flo. I’m definitely keeping an eye on it and will go to direct care (urgent care side of the clinic here in town) if need be. I’ll definitely keep you up-to-date on what’s going on and if it starts getting worse.
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Well, today was a full day of grocery shopping, eating lunch with my daughter at her school and seeing snow flurries. Yes, snow flurries!! We don’t get snow very often so flurries are an exciting event. The last two years, we’ve been lucky to see a flurry much less any accumulation. I like seeing snow for one day. After, I’ve experienced it for that year, I’m good. I don’t need to see anymore after that. I certainly wouldn’t survive up north. Lol. I didn’t do too well in the eating dept but I could have done worse. I don’t believe I went over my calories and forgot to log today. I’m going to try and go back and log my food intake for today.0 -
Well, we had a freeze warning last night and my cold feet believe it. I’m about to get some fuzzy socks on. I haven’t had any pain at all today and I was able to do my cardio just fine. I’m currently at 9200 steps. I’m a little tired since it took me forever to fall asleep last night. I should sleep good tonight. I’m excited that my husband is off tomorrow so I don’t have to wake up at 5:30 am. *Doing happy dance* lol I get up with my husband every morning and while he’s getting ready for work, I get his breakfast ready and his lunch packed. It also gives me a few more minutes with him before I have to wake up our daughter for school. He’s going deer hunting in the morning but I don’t get up with him for those days....only work days. lol0
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I appreciate you updating me. Sorry I kinda went MIA after expressing my worry. Oh I just read the next entry, I'm glad that you haven't had any pain!
We had snow flurries here yesterday and the temperatures are definitely getting colder, I'm already over it. haha My husband wakes up early in the morning as well but I sleep through it (yay haha) but then he'll wake me up at 6 when he leaves to kiss me goodbye which I sometimes sleep through that too. haha
Did your husband get a deer? How have you been the last few days? Hope you're having a good weekend!0 -
Raspberry leaf is supposed to help with pcos (and just about any female menstrual issues)...if you are interested in herbal support, I know not everyone is into treating with plants. I take one every day since I'm peri-menopausal, it seems to help.0
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Well, he didn’t end up going yesterday but he’s out in the woods today. I haven’t gotten a phone call yet so I can safely assume he hasn’t gotten one yet. It’s been a rather lazy weekend with a couple spurts of busyness thrown into the mix. It’s been nice. However, with the lazy part, there’s been more snacking but when you have a Saturday to veg with your hubby, you take it. He hasn’t had a Saturday off in over a month and it was starting to take a toll on him. I’m glad he was able to rest and that we got some extra time with him.
Raspberry leaf? I’ve never heard of such a thing. Is it a tea? I typically am not a herbal person but not because I don’t believe in it, it’s just when you’ve lived the majority of your life with a nurse, you tend to grab the Tylenol before the herbal remedies. I’ll definitely look into it. My friend also suffers from pcos and her pain is a lot worse than mine when hers flairs up. I’m still not 100% certain that I have it since the NP I saw wasn’t my regular dr and didn’t do any ultrasounds or anything. Just looked at my overweight self and asked if I’d ever heard about it. Then proceeded to have the worst demeanor about my weight. It irritates me every time I think about it. lol I go to my regular obgyn in February and will find out then what’s going on in there.0 -
I'm glad you got more time with your husband! Yay for getting a Saturday off! 0
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Well, I was bad. Very bad. I blamed not going to the gym on my dead Fitbit. As if I can’t exercise without it. lol Its all charged up now so I can’t use that excuse tomorrow morning. I felt a little guilty for not going so I drowned my sorrows with coffee and a wonderful visit with my friend. LOL At least I got some housework done, so yay for light exercise. I can’t believe there’s only 2 weeks until Christmas. I’m so excited. We’ve spoiled our daughter rotten this year. She was in dire need of a new bike (she won hers at a fishing tournament when she was 4. She’s now 7 and her knees go above the handlebars.) and her daddy really wanted her to have a trampoline as well since she loves those and has a ton of energy that I wish I could have just a small dose of. He told me one day that if I followed her around all day and did exactly what she did, that I’d be skinny in no time. I laughed at the trueness of this statement. When she was toddler, she would get out of bed and into a full sprint to the living room. I’m lucky if I’m on just my feet. This a little of an exaggeration but not too far fetched. lol Now as far as eating, I didn’t do too bad today, although I forgot to log anything again. I tell ya. I go through phases where I log every day and keep up with it, but as soon as life gets a little busier or I’m being lazy, I forget to log and then get stuck in that cycle. I’m not one to make New Years resolutions since I know that I never keep them, however, my New Years resolution will be to keep up with my food diary and buy more produce to snack on so I keep my hands out of my husband’s snack bucket. His job is very labor intensive so he burns a crazy amount of calories everyday. I’ve tried to send him with fruit for snacks and they don’t hold him through and he’ll end up with migraines. So, he takes Little Debbie snack and the like as well as string cheese and snack size cheetos. The string cheese isn’t bad, but sometimes those little snack cakes beckon me to eat them. I must resist them!! They don’t do me any favors and they certainly aren’t worth the calories.0
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haha it's ironic because I'm currently charging my FitBit and every time I get up I think "these steps don't count!!" and confession time: I may not get up as much as I normally would while it charges just so I reduce the amount of steps that's not being counted. =P In any case, it sounds like you had a lovely day, gym or not. Every day won't be perfect, just do the best you can!
It sounds like your daughter is going to have a lovely Christmas! I loved my trampoline as a kid! (Actually if I had an actual yard - we live in an apartment building- I would definitely get another one haha) I still remember the time my friend was trying to teach me the no handed flip (at the time she was the only one that had a trampoline so I didn't have any experience on it except when I was with her) and my first attempt landed me right on my face. Not a good moment then but one I can laugh about now.
You'll find that once you get into the groove of logging, it doesn't take much time at all especially if you eat the same foods because they'll already be there and all you'll have to do is tweak the amount and check the box to add it to your day. You'll get it, just keep working on it!0 -
Well, today was definitely a better day than yesterday. I’ve eaten good, went to the gym, and just have all around felt better.
Yesterday.
Yesterday was a bad day. I pitched a temper tantrum. Yes, you read that right. A 36 year old pitched a temper tantrum. Now, it was different from my 7 year old’s tantrum in the sense that I didn’t make a scene and throw myself down. I got on the scale and gained a pound. I haven’t been overeating and I’ve been staying below my daily calories allowed. My tantrum was in the form of being an emotional eater. I sat down and consumed a small bag of pork rinds and a pint of halo top ice cream while I watched a movie. The movie was a sad movie so I also cried and cried. Definitely got the frustration out of me. I have told myself that I’m staying off the scale for a while. I’m an emotional eater and my friend keeps losing weight while I either don’t change or gain. She keeps cheering me on and promises it’ll start coming off. lol I know it will but not if I keep eating whole pints of ice cream and pork rinds by myself.
Now, fast forward to today. It’s been a good day. I went to gym and then went to Tyler (bigger city near us) and messed around there for a little while. We ate at chic fil a and I did real good. I got a side salad instead of the amazingly, delicious waffle fries and had chicken strips rather than a sandwich. Breakfast was an egg and a little cheese on an English muffin. I’m proud of my whole different demeanor today. Hopefully tomorrow will be good as well!0 -
jcaldwell0331 wrote: »I haven’t been overeating and I’ve been staying below my daily calories allowed.
If you know you're doing what you're supposed to be doing then you definitely just got to trust the process! I know it's hard sometimes when the scale doesn't reflect the effort you've put in but also keep in mind that the scale isn't the only measure of success and that weight loss isn't linear.
Some threads on MFP that you might not have come across yet that I feel are good reads:
1. Weight Loss Isn't Linear
2. Trust The Process, Results Will Follow
3. Women + Menstrual Cycle + Weight + Fitness Matters
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I hate the scale, it's an evil lying brat! I try to do photos and measurements so that I can still see progress even when that psychotic machine is not being nice.1
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It’s been a busy couple of days! Every time I’d get on here to update my journal, I’d get distracted by something else....usually a phone call. Last night my mom, myself, my daughter and 2 nieces went to a place here in East Texas called the North Pole of Texas. It was cute little place and it was all outdoors. IT WAS COLD!!! lol That cold air my my throat scratchy this morning. I’ve drank some airborne, ate a few cough drops and making me some peppermint tea. I’m so glad we went though. The 3 girls (ages 9, 7, and 5) had so much fun and got to see Santa and ride a train. Oh how I love Christmas time. So far this morning has been far less busy. I’ve been introducing my daughter to more Christmas movies than previous years. I may break out Miracle on 34th Street soon. My favorite is the original black and white version. As far as eating goes, I’m doing pretty well. Still snacking a little too much but I’m becoming more aware of it instead of turning into a snack zombie. Lol if that makes sense. I had to pep talk myself through my hour workout at the gym yesterday. I kept wanting to quit early but I pushed through and felt super proud afterwards. I’ve made the decision to stay off the scale for a while. There’s no reason to put my emotions through that turmoil. lol0
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I'm glad you guys were able to still have a good time even though it was so cold! Yay for being away and not becoming a snack zombie and awesome job at giving yourself pep talks and pushing through!
I'm also on a scale break. haha I haven't been on it in 2 weeks. Eventually I'll probably get back to weighing daily as I do like the data and I prefer seeing the averages instead of just a static number once a week.
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I feel like I’ve neglected writing in my journal. I’ve been busy and I’m trying not to get sick. I believe it’s post nasal drip but if it gets any worse, I’m going to go see the doctor. I feel fine except my throat hurts/itches and I’m coughing quite a bit. No fever or any other “sick” symptoms, mainly just allergy symptoms; ie itchy ears, itchy nose, sneezing, coughing, itchy/scratchy throat. I’m hoping I’ll get over it soon, though. I’m drinking airborne, taking Allegra and Benadryl.
I won’t be doing much exercising until January 4th since my daughter is now out of school for Christmas break. But whatever I slack on now, I’ll get caught back up on in January.
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Hope you feel better soon! Hope you enjoy the extra time with your daughter! Hope you sleep well! Night!0
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Well, I went ahead and went to the doctor yesterday. I was supposed to have lunch with my mom, sister and 2 nieces, so I needed to find out if what I had was contagious. Still no fever but they went ahead and checked me for strep and mono anyhow. Negative on both. The nurse I saw said she was at a loss at what it could be. She said it’s not strep, mono, hand foot mouth, or anything of the like. After she spoke to the dr he recommended her treat it as a virus and just keep an eye on me to see if the redness/irritation and puss pockets start to improve. She prescribed me some mouthwash that has lidocaine and Benadryl in it. It’s wonderful stuff. lol With how far back in my mouth they are, I have to gargle it. So I’m gargling that and listerine. My mom suspects it’s a bacterial infection since she’s had them several times. Either way, I’m not contagious since I’m not feverish. Now, I was supposed to be meeting them for lunch but my sister started feeling bad before we met and she went to the dr. She tested positive for flu. Not cool. Glad we didn’t meet and she’s on tamiflu so hopefully she’ll kick it pretty quick. It would really stink to be sick over Christmas.
I spent this morning at my friend, Alissa’s house. Her 3 kiddos and my daughter got to make ugly Christmas sweater cookies and open presents from us and them. It was a lot of fun. And even though there was cookies all around, I didn’t eat even 1! Not even a crumb. I can’t say the same about the pizza we ordered. I ate 2 slices but since it was a medium pizza, the slices were a little small. But all I had had for breakfast was a banana so I needed some of the extra calories. I didn’t snack a whole lot today. I didn’t log anything since I was busy most of the day and forgot.0
