What's on your mind today?
Replies
-
@juliemouse83
Sorry to hear about the cutbacks. One would think there would be more hours, not less. Seems rather suspicious to me. But, that is how my mind works.
Sending thoughts of strength and endurance to you as you adjust to your new normal.1 -
I don't have to be prepared for hurricanes etc. here in Southern France, but I always have a stock of dry and canned food. I grew up with my Mum's stories of WWII in Occupied Holland and I think this may have had a lifelong effect... I am always careful financially and have always kept at least some money back in various savings accounts, even when I wasn't earning much. I can therefore help myself if necessary and my kids who may not be able to put money away. I was appalled by my partner's finances when I took over the management of his bank accounts from him last year. At some point he'd earned good money and there was nothing to show for it. It's taken me almost a year to get his income and expenses balanced. I cannot stress too much how important planning is for our future. However, I do realise that some of us just don't have the money to spare, especially not now. Counting my blessings!
4 -
I am grateful this pair of "olde fogies" figured out how to shop-on-line for the topping up of pantry bulk basics (bread machine flour, sugar, cheerios even .... the site LOVES to say, "sorry, couldn't find /we're out of X. May we suggest CANDY?" LOL )
Didn't order any candy, but DID order chia seeds so that I can make my chocolate chia pudding. I have 100 cals / day more to work with than I did this time last month as I inch my way through stabilization towards what MFP says a "sedentary lifestyle person of my age / hight / weight AUGHT to need for maintenance"4 -
@juliemouse83
Sorry to hear about the cutbacks. One would think there would be more hours, not less. Seems rather suspicious to me. But, that is how my mind works.
Sending thoughts of strength and endurance to you as you adjust to your new normal.
I would have thought so, too, but they cancelled elective surgeries and diagnostics about a month ago, and I wondered when they were going to get concerned, as this is big income for a hospital. When you tell people to go home, stay home, and only come out in the event of an emergency, then screen for said emergencies at the drive through screening/triage in our ER Circle, it adds up to a $1.6 million loss. Weekly. I knew we were going to take a hit, but I had NO idea it was going to be as big as all that.
In a "normal" season, this time of year has our census up to 160-170 inpatients daily. Lately, it's been 80-90. When there are no patients to care for (or move, in our case), you have nurses, diagnosticians, transporters, EVS personnel with nothing to do... So it fiscally makes sense, from a business standpoint, to send people home, and that is sad, as we thought we were safe. It's happening all over the country. I read an article about a bunch of healthcare workers in Oklahoma having their contracts cancelled and being layed off.
So, my list of things I am grateful for is as follows:- A beautiful morning to drive into on the way to,
- A secure job with no loss of income for me.
- The ability to crochet, as I am making button headbands for the girls on my team and throughout the facility, if they need them. These keep the backs of your ears from becoming raw or irritated from loop mask straps, because the buttons hold them in place.
- That I may not have to close my small business' doors, even though we are taking a hit.
- My supportive as all get out husband, who has my back about everything
- Three day weekends!
- Functioning coffee pot that always has my brew ready for me as soon as my feet hit the floor each morning.
So off I go, now to get that inventory out of the way, so I can spend the remainder of the day squeezing extra PTO days into an already spotty schedule. I'm hoping my team will have more three and four day weekends. *fingers crossed*2 -
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
This is so ironic! No sooner did I hit the publish button, than in came my boss and told me I've been demoted.
Life...gotta love it.2 -
juliemouse83 wrote: »HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
This is so ironic! No sooner did I hit the publish button, than in came my boss and told me I've been demoted.
Life...gotta love it.
@juliemouse83, sometimes all you can do is laugh. Gotta love irony!! (hugs)0 -
juliemouse83 wrote: »HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
This is so ironic! No sooner did I hit the publish button, than in came my boss and told me I've been demoted.
Life...gotta love it.
I am sitting here shaking my head - wow!1 -
Oh, @juliemouse83, what can I say! Feeling furious on your behalf. What a way to reward service.1
-
After most of the shock wore off, my mind started grasping the reality of the mistake they just made.
I was salaried and paid for only forty hours a week, even though I was working 45-50+ per week and on weekends by phone, evenings by text.
I wasn't getting it all done in that time. I was close, but was struggling to catch up.
Now I am hourly. I can't come in 15 minutes early and stay 20 minutes late and work through my lunch, because they only want to pay me for 8 hours a day. And move patients. And dispatch, IN ADDITION to all the other things it was taking me 45-50/week to try and stay on top of. AND they want it done in a mere 32 hours per week.
So, no longer can anyone call or text me after hours, because they won't pay me for it. If I'm off the clock? Work no longer exists. So when stuff falls through the cracks, and it already has in just the few short hours since the change? I don't want to hear it.
We are having a problem with our dispatching program right now. My boss made me send three people home at 10:00. Then it got busy and we were consistently behind 8 patients for about an hour. I had called IT about the dispatch software not auto-assigning dialysis patients, and I needed to help get us caught up, so brought my portable phone with me, so I would be able to take the call from IT.
*hangs head and shakes it*
Five minutes after I walked out the door, I was sent an email that I didn't see until I returned from two transports 40 minutes later. I wasn't here to immediately send details regarding an urgent issue. Y'all, I just can't even, today...5 -
juliemouse83 wrote: »(April 14)
So, my list of things I am grateful for is as follows:- A beautiful morning to drive into on the way to,
- A secure job with no loss of income for me.
- The ability to crochet, as I am making button headbands for the girls on my team and throughout the facility, if they need them. These keep the backs of your ears from becoming raw or irritated from loop mask straps, because the buttons hold them in place.
- That I may not have to close my small business' doors, even though we are taking a hit.
- My supportive as all get out husband, who has my back about everything
- Three day weekends!
- Functioning coffee pot that always has my brew ready for me as soon as my feet hit the floor each morning.
So what IS your small business?
I crochet too .... and am intrigued by the sound of "button headbands". Could you post a picture?2 -
(don't really see a "grumbling" face to this will have to do)
There was SNOW last night - sufficient to still cover the deck when I got up, and all but the very tips of taller blades of grass. DEFINITELY more white than anything else out there this morning! (grumble, grumble, grumble)
I am grateful for :- a working furnace
- a working coffee maker (even if it DOESN'T have auto-on capabilities)
- NOT having to drive into the office along with people who have already removed their snow tires.
3 -
juliemouse83 wrote: »(April 14)
So, my list of things I am grateful for is as follows:- A beautiful morning to drive into on the way to,
- A secure job with no loss of income for me.
- The ability to crochet, as I am making button headbands for the girls on my team and throughout the facility, if they need them. These keep the backs of your ears from becoming raw or irritated from loop mask straps, because the buttons hold them in place.
- That I may not have to close my small business' doors, even though we are taking a hit.
- My supportive as all get out husband, who has my back about everything
- Three day weekends!
- Functioning coffee pot that always has my brew ready for me as soon as my feet hit the floor each morning.
So what IS your small business?
I crochet too .... and am intrigued by the sound of "button headbands". Could you post a picture?
Soap and candles. Both melt & pour and cold process soaps, and my candles are soy.
So, the headbands are like this, but crocheted...
It's basically a 9mm hook, chain six, work 5 dc for 22 rows, then 5 half dc one row, then slip stitch together weave in the ends, and sew buttons behind the ears. When I complete another one I will snap a picture.
3 -
So many things to be grateful for today. Here are just a few.
- Awakened to another healthy day.
- The hot shower I took this morning.
- The wonderful leftovers I had for lunch.
- That since "lock down" I have been eating breakfasts and lunches with silverware on dishes.
I hope everyone is having a good day.4 -
So, okay! Here is my gratitude list:
- I woke up healthy.
- I’ve encouraged my team of 16 to take furlough, and four have, with a fifth thinking about it. While some of my favorite folks are going out, I know it’s the best for them. Some of my other favorite folks are staying.
- I can’t even really stay mad at my boss. He isn’t himself. I suspect that is because he’s had maybe one day off in a month.
- My husband. ‘Nuff said.
- I’m adjusting to my work “new normal”
- The new, forced work/life balance
That being said? I did the following tonight:
The links on how to do these are below:
https://youtu.be/ji4q0-ix_zc
Adapter bands
https://youtu.be/PDTD9bDmBFA
Headbands
If you can crochet? I urge you to gather your yarn and buttons, make some and donate to your local healthcare facility. 💜💖❤️
4 -
This is whats on your mind, so I'll unload a little here.
Read at own risk. Note, I do have clinical depression, so it's more a rant than usual.Last Monday had something happen in my vision. Turned out it was a mini-stroke within the eye itself, so I am likely to have a blind spot in one quadrant of the eye, but not in the focal region (unless the blockage self clears).
Call yesterday from the hospital. As it is a type of stroke (TIA), I am not allowed to drive for 4 to 6 weeks (till they see me again). No fixed appointment made, so who knows when I really will be able to drive again.
Also the TIA (stroke) clinic at the hospital has been shut down due to COVID-19. Are people expected stop having strokes and no longer require attention just because another risk factor is in the community? Wonder how many non-COVID deaths will be experienced due to diversion of resources away from existing conditions.
Cholesterol breakdown finally came back. LDL is now high and HDL is normal (this is very different to 6 months ago), but I have had almost no change in diet or habits. Only major change to intake is I am now on an anti-depressant medication that has focus on liver system health because of complications in metabolism. May be a coincidence. Now the doctor wants me to start on a statin which further works on the liver (initially a low dose).
My family history with statin medication is that my mother was almost killed by the one I was initially prescribed. My father gets muscle soreness from them. Told my doctor this, so the compromise was to start a low dose. Likely have another cholesterol test in a month.
Mentally I feel defective and defeated. I literally have given up caring. I have been diagnosed with major depression and have anhedonia (basically no joy in life, emotionally flat). I'll eat what I have been given and do what I am told. If it get better good, if not, I'll see if I care if that happens (right now I don't).2 -
@craigo3154 You are still posting though! I have some experience of depression, my youngest son and myself, and we usually crash out of any contact, won't answer phone calls or messages. Please keep posting, even if you think your posts are negative. You have a supportive wife, sort your diet with her. Take your time. Keep walking (I hate walking for the sake of it, but it works). You're doing a lot of good, just posting, be aware of that. One day at a time... How was breakfast? How does the wonderful world look outside? Let your wife take you for a walk for a change... Maybe your daughter will take you? Would be good for her as well. Is she aware of your situation? Often people with problems rise to the occasion when people they love need their help.4
-
@craigo3154 Sorry, don't want to meddle in your family situation. Trying to help from my own experience2
-
@craigo3154 You are still posting though! I have some experience of depression, my youngest son and myself, and we usually crash out of any contact, won't answer phone calls or messages. Please keep posting, even if you think your posts are negative. You have a supportive wife, sort your diet with her. Take your time. Keep walking (I hate walking for the sake of it, but it works). You're doing a lot of good, just posting, be aware of that. One day at a time... How was breakfast? How does the wonderful world look outside? Let your wife take you for a walk for a change... Maybe your daughter will take you? Would be good for her as well. Is she aware of your situation? Often people with problems rise to the occasion when people they love need their help.
I do not mind you meddling in my family situation. If I did not welcome it, I would not post. In a number of ways, I am out of ideas and value others perspectives.
I can see the stress my condition is causing my wife. I want to help her more than myself. I do share a lot of what I am feeling with her. I share all that I feel I can without overwhelming her as I am the sole financial lifeline for the family.
I know my wife loves me. She shows me every day in so many ways. I love her too. More than myself. I often feel I do not do enough for her.
I am working with my wife to sort out my diet. I am happy to have her take over my entire dietary decisions if required. I'll start the statin after the blood donation on Monday. Delay unlikely to kill me. Blood donation helps more people and may lower by blood iron levels, starting the statin risks that.
I focus on each little win. One at a time. Getting up in the morning, having breakfast, doing the daily puzzles, getting dressed, logging food, recording weight, going for a walk, work (computer consulting, responding to emails, researching, problem solving, teleconferences when required), taking medication, posting, etc.. When I cannot face something, I procrastinate till I can work out how to reduce it into tasks I believe I can finish (and mentally chastise myself for wasting time). I just need to continue to do something or I do nothing (and feel much worse).
I just need to go on for one more day. That's what I tell myself each morning. Just make it through today.
Taking joy in stuff is really hard. As much as I try, my twisted thinking saps the pleasure out of all things. I see things, I encounter things, I remember things, just nothing sparks either happiness of sadness. If I achieve, it's expected. If I fail, it's acceptable. No reward, no punishment. Nothing matters, things just need to be done. I essentially feel disconnected or numb most of the time.
The only way I see off the treadmill hurts so many other people, so I choose to not take it every day.
(also:
- breakfast was good. usual wife cooked bacon and eggs, I thank her for it every day for it, just need to work out if it needs to be altered
- forest outside is always good, kookaburra's to feed each day
)
6 -
Hello one and all.
The week is flying by and I have more work to do then hours in the day. As I am a bit of a protester I refuse to work too much OT (salaried) unless absolutely necessary or during specific times such as month/quarter end. I feel as woman we say yes way too often and must be careful not to give too much of ourselves away. We must learn how to care and love ourselves more. If we do not set the example of how we want to be treated by treating ourselves at that level, how will anyone respect us at a level we deserve and desire?
So many things to be grateful for today.- I awakened to a new day.
- I have the strength to keep moving forward and see things in a positive light.
- I am almost to my original goal weight! Yeah!!
- I have this moment in time to evaluate what is really important to me.
Hugs and prayers to all.5 -
@craigo3154 I do so understand. Whatever we can do here on this forum... One step at a time... I went back to bed at 9am after I'd spoken to my 97-year-old Mum who's coping better than I am. Woke at 4.30, feeling life was pretty pointless. Now 11.30, try again...3
-
@craigo3154, I am so sorry for what you are going through. I have nothing to offer as I am not a mental health professional, nor do I have any personal experience in these matters. That being said, the one thing that did strike me, that I do have a comment on, is your diet. It is wonderful that your wife wants to help you sort out your diet, and it should be a team effort as you share a kitchen and meals together. However, that's a heavy burden for the two of you. What about an impartial bystander? And by that I mean a registered nutritionist/dietician, preferably one affiliated with a stroke recovery clinic. This is too important to possibly let emotions and considerations of another's feelings cloud judgement on the best course of action. Just my two cents. I hope you get it straightened out soon either way....it'll be one less thing to worry about. (hugs)3
-
@craigo3154 I just want to give you a hug!
Keep posting! I find that connecting with folks in forums like this can be mildly therapeutic. I'm personally trying to utilize the mental health resources they have for us, but in the meantime, I read and post.
I know how difficult this time is for many of us, but with the added health-related issues, it makes it harder that it normally would be.
Hang in there!!!! We have your back!3 -
Hello one and all.
The week is flying by and I have more work to do then hours in the day. As I am a bit of a protester I refuse to work too much OT (salaried) unless absolutely necessary or during specific times such as month/quarter end. I feel as woman we say yes way too often and must be careful not to give too much of ourselves away. We must learn how to care and love ourselves more. If we do not set the example of how we want to be treated by treating ourselves at that level, how will anyone respect us at a level we deserve and desire?
So many things to be grateful for today.- I awakened to a new day.
- I have the strength to keep moving forward and see things in a positive light.
- I am almost to my original goal weight! Yeah!!
- I have this moment in time to evaluate what is really important to me.
Hugs and prayers to all.
I think I just barked at a squirrel in the backyard .....
Quarantine seems to be turning so many of us into dogs. We roam the house looking for food. We are told 'no' if we get too close to strangers. And we get REEEEAAAALLLLYYYY excited about car rides. (especially when one's DH keeps one on a short leash, and my respecting it eases his anxiety levels about my potential exposure given lungs)
4 -
@craigo3154 I do so understand. Whatever we can do here on this forum... One step at a time... I went back to bed at 9am after I'd spoken to my 97-year-old Mum who's coping better than I am. Woke at 4.30, feeling life was pretty pointless. Now 11.30, try again...
Hang in there! I am relating to your post more than I want to admit.
When I really just want to be home hiding, I'm coming out here to walk through God-only-knows-what in the air in each of the COVID units. This is the weirdest headspace I've ever been in.
What I keep telling myself, and others remind me, is this is not going to last forever. (Although, if I hear "we're all in this together" one more time, I may throw something, haha.)
Anyway, I just wanted to reach out and say that I see you!3 -
juliemouse83 wrote: »
That being said? I did the following tonight:
The links on how to do these are below:
https://youtu.be/ji4q0-ix_zc
Adapter bands
https://youtu.be/PDTD9bDmBFA
Headbands
If you can crochet? I urge you to gather your yarn and buttons, make some and donate to your local healthcare facility. 💜💖❤️
Now THAT's something I can do even faster / easier / better than using a sewing machine!
2 -
@craigo3154, I am so sorry for what you are going through. I have nothing to offer as I am not a mental health professional, nor do I have any personal experience in these matters. That being said, the one thing that did strike me, that I do have a comment on, is your diet. It is wonderful that your wife wants to help you sort out your diet, and it should be a team effort as you share a kitchen and meals together. However, that's a heavy burden for the two of you. What about an impartial bystander? And by that I mean a registered nutritionist/dietician, preferably one affiliated with a stroke recovery clinic. This is too important to possibly let emotions and considerations of another's feelings cloud judgement on the best course of action. Just my two cents. I hope you get it straightened out soon either way....it'll be one less thing to worry about. (hugs)
@HASWLRS. Thank you for the suggestion. I would love to have help from a stroke clinic to help with the decision, but due to the COVID situation, there is no stroke clinic. I am literally on my own with the occasional consultation with my general practitioner.
I am so grateful for my wife's help in all this.
My wife has done a lot of investigation of what can help food wise with this situation. I trust her judgement and knowledge.
Neither my wife or myself trust registered nutritionists/dietitians. Our personal history in this area is quite disturbing. For example, the prescribed diet for a type 2 diabetic (my wife) persisted the condition instead of helped alleviate it. It was only when my wife followed a different diet that her condition improved and dependence on insulin was reduced.
I will monitor how my situation progresses.2 -
Bit behind again in catching up on this thread.
@BMcC9 and @SuziQ113 I love your interesting and inspiring posts each day!
@juliemouse83 so sorry about the boss changing your position and hours. I know that must be tough emotionally and financially. At least the silver lining is that you won't be overworked now and they will surely realize the amount that you were putting in and how it just doesn't "work" this new way-- things are not going to get done and they'll have to figure it out and perhaps reconsider.
@Chinkiri very insightful post
@craigo3154 I don't have any expertise or advice but please know that I value your posts here and your evidence-based way of thinking and providing the group with information. Even during this time, you're fighting through it in your own life and still posting here-- please keep us updated and know we're here for you!4 -
Now this was different ... never had the breadmaker do THIS to a loaf before ... LOL
a single, massive air-bubble juuuuuuuuuust under the surface of the top crust. Apparently DH had to "cut it out of the machine" (detach the 'top skin' from the inner surface of the lid)3 -
Now this was different ... never had the breadmaker do THIS to a loaf before ... LOL
a single, massive air-bubble juuuuuuuuuust under the surface of the top crust. Apparently DH had to "cut it out of the machine" (detach the 'top skin' from the inner surface of the lid)
🤪😂
At first I thought it looked like a castle, then I thought it looked like a popover! 💖 It looks delicious!2 -
From the healthcare front in eastern N.C...
So our furlough requests where all approved, at least in my department.
We are a team of 17. Two of us are considered non-productive (the dispatcher & me). That leaves 15 actual transporters. Five applied for and received the 4 week furlough. That is a third of my productive FTE’s. The fifth didn’t bother to tell me that she went ahead and applied for it, so once again, I had to readjust the schedule, for about the 8th time in four days. 🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️
I took my mandated 8 hours of PTO tomorrow. I wish that I’d have known yesterday what I learned after lunch today. I’d have taken my day today, as tomorrow I had one coming in at 0630, one at 0700 and one coming in at 0800. And that’s it. After I got home, I texted one of my guys, and he is going to come in after his shift at his second job. 😭😭THIS IS A SCHEDULING NIGHTMARE!😭😭
Whew! Okay. I needed that. I cut my team to 30 hours a week a few weeks back, and now with the mandatory 8/week PTO, that scales us back to 22 hours/week. Wellllllll...with a third out? I’m going to bring them up to 32 scheduled hours per week. If I don’t! We are hosed. Patient census jumped from 80 to 125. That’s a LOT of danged transports.
Our area is still on the upswing, with seven positive COVID patients in-house. We also had to move positive outpatients to diagnostics. Fun, fun...
Check on your healthcare worker friends. Seriously! We want to talk about something other than this 🤬🤬🤬 virus!
Love you guys! 💖💜❤️5
This discussion has been closed.