Calling all Bingers

BeeSunny

Thank you for starting this group. I have always called myself a closet eater because no one knew how bad I would hide stuff eat stuff, then the guilt would set in and I would hate myself. I have been a binge eater since I was 14, I related it to my parents divorce, my sister marriage, and moving out of town. All that happened before I turned 15 and gained 30 pounds eating nonstop to make myself feel better. I am now 47 years old and I have never told anyone about it until recently when I confessed to my husband. I have a very close relationship with him and felt like I was doing something horrible behind his back, which I was!! This has only been 2-3 weeks ago now, I have told him once I has having the urges and talked about it. I was able to be ok for that day , yesterday I lost all control could not focus on anything until I had something I craved right now! I had no idea what I was craving, but had to have it. I seriously made up something to crave to have the excuse to binge. I ended up wanting cookie dough and bought some ready made at the store. I general make plans in my head how I will get something I want to eat, I focus all my energy on that food. If there is something in the house I know I should not eat I can not let it alone. I also will eat something all up so there is nothing to temp me later. I have been heavy off and on most of my life since then. A year before my divorce from my first husband I was working two jobs and lost 50 pounds.
Today I have just purchase a cheap book through my Kindle called "Why Can't I Stop Eating? 25 Tips for Managing Binge Eating Disorder and Compulsive Over-eating" by Christine Kruger-Remus, MSW. I read the first chapter with my mouth open it was about me!!!! This happens for a reason in my belief, and between coming across this group and that book, need I say more. Tomorrow I am seeing a new Dr. and feel it is time to share my addiction.
Thank you all for listening and am looking forward to your encouragement and suggestions. :happy:

butterflyliz32

Hi all!

I just joined this group because I am a total binge eater. I have had problems with binging until I am sick in the past, but I think that mostly hadto do with massive anxiety. Now I just seem to eat all day long. If I do well at work, then I tend to eat dinner twice once I get home. It rarely has to do with me being hungry, and more with being bored.

Yesterday, I did fairly well during the day, but ended up running through the Jack in the Box drive thru. I got an Ultimate Cheeseburger and 3 egg rolls. Ate them all, and still didn't feel full. I ended up eating more snacky foods until I finally put myself to bed at 9 pm.

I didn't even bother to look at the scale this morning. I have read the Binge Eating and Compulsive Overeating Workbook by Carolyn Coker Ross, as suggested by my therapist. It is a good book and gives you a lot to think about and work through. I know what I SHOULD be doing, but doing it is a whole other thing.

I also have somehow pinched a nerve in my neck, and haven't been able to do too much in the way of moving. I know I need to workout, but I am afraid to injure myself further. *whine*

imworthit

My story...
I started binge eating April 22nd 2007. Physically, I was in the best shape of my life. I had run my first marathon the day before. It was on my mom's b-day, who passed away in 12/02. We were very close, as I was the only daughter, 1 other brother living and my mom was divorced. I've decided that running the marathon on her birthday was more emotional than I thought it would be. It triggered things that were burried deep down, some from my youth, that I probably hadn't ever fully dealt with. The emotions started to come out and I started using food to stuff it back down. The first year I thought I could just exercise extra hard the next day to work it off. But the calories were VERY excess. The 2nd year was all about trying this diet or that program. I would succeed for a few weeks, then totally blow it and feel like a total failure. The next year was just trying to make it day to day. That's when I realized that I had a real problem with food. A food addiction. (Funny it took me so long. I think I'm a slow learner!) Then I found a 12 step program, for overeating, similar to the steps in AA, through my church. I have realized this is something I can not do on my own. I need God to help me. It has taken a toll on my self esteem and I'm embarrassed to see people who saw me before my binging started. I love going to the 12 step meetings. It helps me to see that I am not alone and gives me hope to see others who are having abstinence. I am also able to share things there and know I am not being judged and that others can relate. I can't talk about it to anyone else. In my experience, people who have never experienced a food addiction just can't relate. I have learned a lot and feel like I am improving, but not enough to have lasting abstinence and see some physically recovery. And it's frustrating because I can still remember when I ate normal and food didn't have contol over me. There are some foods that I know before I eat it will send me into a binge. I have to stay away from those. If I don't and I give in, I usually blow the rest of the day until I am physically sick. For me, it really is a day to day struggle. I have to just focus on one day at a time. And I am really trying to work on loving myself and saying kind things to myself. I've seen others have abstinence and that gives me hope.

SarahJane0691

Hi.

I'm not really 'new' to MFP but havn't really made any friends yet. I struggle with Binge-eating disorder and have found that its really hindering my weighht loss progress (obviously). Thought I'd check this group out in the hope that I can find some support, and that I could maybe support others too.