challenging myself this month, who's with me? (:
kelbelzz
Posts: 92 Member
I've had a really bad week of binging. Probably an entire week of going over my calorie goal by 1,000+. I've struggled with an eating disorder for around nine years. I'm trying to find the balance between restricting and binging. Well today, I consumed a hotdog, 5 oatmeal cookies, two handfuls of m&m's, two chocolate chip granola bars, and two reese's peanut butter cups. Clearly craving chocolate.... I ate all of that in a matter of ten minutes. And I had eaten three meals throughout the day. And panicked because of the binge and the amount of food I had eaten, and I purged. For the first time in years. 
It was really an eye opener. I need to recover, and I need to stop binging. I want to be healthy. As I'm sure y'all do too. So I was thinking since tomorrow is the first of the month, to start a challenge. For anyone to join, or just for myself.
In the month of May, I will complete the 30 Day Shred/Ripped in 30 Days & running at least a mile a day. (I can't decide which one yet.) I will eat healthy for the entire month. And most importantly, I will be BINGE FREE for 30 DAYS.
So if any of y'all want to take this challenge with me, let me know
Obviously the 30 Day Shred/Ripped in 30 can be replaced for whatever.
It was really an eye opener. I need to recover, and I need to stop binging. I want to be healthy. As I'm sure y'all do too. So I was thinking since tomorrow is the first of the month, to start a challenge. For anyone to join, or just for myself.
In the month of May, I will complete the 30 Day Shred/Ripped in 30 Days & running at least a mile a day. (I can't decide which one yet.) I will eat healthy for the entire month. And most importantly, I will be BINGE FREE for 30 DAYS.
So if any of y'all want to take this challenge with me, let me know
Obviously the 30 Day Shred/Ripped in 30 can be replaced for whatever. 0
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Im new to this but am up for trying out the binge-free month i hit an all time low and realised i need to change after i had lost weight and managed to fit into my old coat from last year to find after almost two weeks of bingeing i now cannot do it up sad times!!
i power walk three miles a week to work, so its a good start to exercise0 -
I'm in. the amount of times I've lost and then regained due to a binge is depressing.
Since March the longest I've gone is 10 days but most if the time is 4-5 days.0 -
In the month of May, I will complete the 30 Day Shred/Ripped in 30 Days & running at least a mile a day. (I can't decide which one yet.) I will eat healthy for the entire month. And most importantly, I will be BINGE FREE for 30 DAYS.
So if any of y'all want to take this challenge with me, let me know Obviously the 30 Day Shred/Ripped in 30 can be replaced for whatever.
I am challenging myself to do the 30 Day Shred as well! WOOHOO!!
Let's do this
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I am ready for a challenge!!! Let's do this!0
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I really want to say that I am in. Well, I am in. The binge monster in me is fighting though.
Ill take it one day at a time.... so TODAY I will not binge. Thats a big step at this point.
I will check back in tomorrow!0 -
I really want to say that I am in. Well, I am in. The binge monster in me is fighting though.
Ill take it one day at a time.... so TODAY I will not binge. Thats a big step at this point.
I will check back in tomorrow!
This for me too. A month seems so overwhelming. I can do anything for one day, right? 0 -
Yay, I'm glad some of y'all wanna join!
One day is good too! Because if you can go one day, you can challenge yourself to go another, and hopefully you'll make it to a month. That's what I'm doing. Each day is a new struggle, but I want to challenge myself.
We can do this 0 -
I'm in too! ..fairly new to this, so feel free to add me 0
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Please feel free to join us at below conversation thread for additional support:
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/582481-may-june-bed-conversation-thread0 -
I really want to say that I am in. Well, I am in. The binge monster in me is fighting though.
Ill take it one day at a time.... so TODAY I will not binge. Thats a big step at this point.
I will check back in tomorrow!
hmm. i guess i forgot about this challenge tuesday night around 10 pm.
well anyways wednesday night= SUCCESS!. Probably overdid it with the peanutbutter during the day, but i stayed under my calorie limit and i made it through the night hours. (major accomplishment at this point.)
I have high hopes for tonight as well.
Tally:
Binge monster-1
me- 10 -
I'm in..my last binge was on April 30. My cycle lasted for the last 1/2 of that month. I gained 5lbs. I'm thinking this month a more recovery month, to lose what I gained. So please add me so we can continue to support and encourage one another, I need it. I'm a big binge eater and a constant one too. It's still tough, but so far I'm making it. I'm learning for comfort foods, veggies are the way to go.
My Talley-
Me- 3
Binge Monster- 00 -
Talley updated:
Me: 2
Binge monster: 10 -
I'm ready too! Right now I'm about 7 days binge free, almost a week! The weekends are the real challenge but I know I just have to take it hour by hour. Best of luck to each of you 0
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me-1
binge monster- 2
and i am going back to weight watchers tomorrow as well. i need all the support i can get.0 -
I'm SO in! I've gained back everything I lost because of binging. I also struggled with an ed.0
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I lost last night and went on a big binge..(I was like 3500 calories over) I felt sick in the early morning hours..my binge went on from like 5-9pm on and off. 330-4am..I felt nausious and threw up. Got on the scale this morning, looks like there was hardly any damage there..maybe .4lb Not the way i wanted to get rid of it, it was very discomforting..but this is a lesson learned.0
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binge free days ; two!
i've been eating healthy foods & i think i gained weight. i'm not weighing in today. feelin' kind of fat ha. SO, i've got a week to be binge free & a week to weigh in.
good job y'all, don't give up if you accidentally give in! 0 -
As of today... Me= 1!
Unfortunately I guess this means Binge Monster=3?0 -
I'm getting there. Thursday of this month was the only slip.
Me: 4
Binge monster: 10 -
me-2
binge monster-4
dont know about today yet :-/0 -
I will join for the rest of the month. I did well for a couple of days starting this month and then have been binging since. Some days I stay under the calorie goal because I am not eating enough during the day or exercise a lot. School is giving me a really hard time in these days and I need the strength to focus on my studies and not on how much I am eating. It has been like this for years now. I need to stop.0
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Me- 6
Binge- 1
This includes today.0 -
me-3
binge-4
yesterday i discovered with great relief that i wont be needing a maternity bathing suit this summer.
I did not binge.
i wonder if the stress of my long missed period had anything to do with the damage i did these last 4 weeks. sorry if that is TMI, but i guess its just something to consider.
We will see what happens tonight! I am feeling very positive about it though, i think I should be fine 0 -
I'm challenging myself to fill out my food diary each and every day of the month of May regardless of what I eat.0
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Me - 5
Ed - 2
Today will be a good day. Ed is resting right now.0 -
I'm challenging myself to fill out my food diary each and every day of the month of May regardless of what I eat.
I really need to challenge myself to log every food BEFORE IT GOES INTO MY MOUTH...Notice how I said "I really need to"...not "I will" or "I am"....the addict in me still wants to be able to binge! Sick but true. Can anyone relate even a little bit to not wanting to let go of the bingeing? Or am I the only crazy one?
I really REALLY need to find a better coping mechanism than food.0 -
Nope, you're not the only crazy one dear. Bingeing is our outlet. Without a successful replacement coping mechanism (or several!), we are doomed. Even with those alternatives, we still might feel best (temporarily) when we revert back to our ED behavior. It is a behavior we have perfected for so many years, and it always does what it is meant to do - allow us to avoid our emotions, that is.
Working towards changing that behavior is by far the most difficult task I've ever attempted, mentally that is. Some say ignorance is bliss - I say avoidance is bliss. The hardest part IMO? Continuing after failure. Why would I want to keep doing something I suck at? Something I try over and over and over to change or stop doing and continue to fall on my face?
I'm good at avoiding my emotions. I'm good at hiding food. I'm good at hiding how many calories I eat from other people. I'm good at pretending to be normal. I'm good at avoiding social situations that revolve around food. Or, if I feel like it, I'm good at participating in those same social situations and eat anything and everything I want. But the middle road? Going to the function AND trying to behave in a healthy manner? That's TOUGH.
No sane person would continue to do something that makes them feel bad about themselves. Wait. WHAT?? Isn't that what we do when we binge? So, with this theory, no matter what we do, we're probably going to feel bad? Am I hearing myself correctly? Yup. The only difference is we know 100% for sure bingeing will make us unhappy, but at least there is a chance of satisfaction with trying to change our behavior.
And the more we practice alternative coping mechanisms, the more they will feel comfortable - and eventually, hopefully, they will feel just as comfortable as our ED behavior.0 -
I really need to challenge myself to log every food BEFORE IT GOES INTO MY MOUTH...Notice how I said "I really need to"...not "I will" or "I am"....the addict in me still wants to be able to binge! Sick but true. Can anyone relate even a little bit to not wanting to let go of the bingeing? Or am I the only crazy one?
I really REALLY need to find a better coping mechanism than food.
This is totally normal. The same trend can be found in any addiction! We know its bad, but its hard to walk away from the high. And finding other ways to cope is NOT easy either. I love going out of control with food in that moment, but i hate the affects it has on me immediately afterwards and in the long term.
Me-4
Binge MONSTER- 4
We are tied, and I will be the only one accruing points for the rest of this month.
Bye bye Monster. Hello Control, Healthy, and Bikini!0 -
Nope, you're not the only crazy one dear. Bingeing is our outlet. Without a successful replacement coping mechanism (or several!), we are doomed. Even with those alternatives, we still might feel best (temporarily) when we revert back to our ED behavior. It is a behavior we have perfected for so many years, and it always does what it is meant to do - allow us to avoid our emotions, that is.
Working towards changing that behavior is by far the most difficult task I've ever attempted, mentally that is. Some say ignorance is bliss - I say avoidance is bliss. The hardest part IMO? Continuing after failure. Why would I want to keep doing something I suck at? Something I try over and over and over to change or stop doing and continue to fall on my face?
I'm good at avoiding my emotions. I'm good at hiding food. I'm good at hiding how many calories I eat from other people. I'm good at pretending to be normal. I'm good at avoiding social situations that revolve around food. Or, if I feel like it, I'm good at participating in those same social situations and eat anything and everything I want. But the middle road? Going to the function AND trying to behave in a healthy manner? That's TOUGH.
No sane person would continue to do something that makes them feel bad about themselves. Wait. WHAT?? Isn't that what we do when we binge? So, with this theory, no matter what we do, we're probably going to feel bad? Am I hearing myself correctly? Yup. The only difference is we know 100% for sure bingeing will make us unhappy, but at least there is a chance of satisfaction with trying to change our behavior.
And the more we practice alternative coping mechanisms, the more they will feel comfortable - and eventually, hopefully, they will feel just as comfortable as our ED behavior.
YES!! Beautifully written. Thank you!!!!0 -
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This is totally normal. The same trend can be found in any addiction! We know its bad, but its hard to walk away from the high. And finding other ways to cope is NOT easy either. I love going out of control with food in that moment, but i hate the affects it has on me immediately afterwards and in the long term.
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Thank you! I totally relate and agree!!0
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