was on my way to see a fashion show that my daughters school was holding but left home a hour to early. half way there i realised it so my mind started to spin about what to do that hour.
Finally the devil in me decided to go to a restaurant that have very tasty cheese cakes and i planned to screw the diet have one and a cup of coffee. half way there my little devil lost cause i had convinced my self at how much i loved my new figure and that the cheese cake would lead to more cheating and i really didn't want that.
i turned around and walk around a bit stopped for a take away coffee with milk and walked some more and then the hour was up.

yay my little devil lost

Said no to ice-cream and the fritos in the cupboard.

So I woke up today to that nagging pain in my back and sure enough a period had arrived - wonder how long this one will last? And I really didn't feel like that dog-walk, I started making excuses in my head, planning just 30 minutes or maybe going later ...but I put my shoes on and plugged into first Woman's Hour and when that become too dull Michael Ball on Radio 2 and the music and inane chat got me through the whole lot.

So somehow I conquered my own inertia this morning - can't promise much for the rest of the day as I feel the temporary anaemia's pull but at least I did that walk. Yay.

Good evening! Today, after not such a good night's sleep, I still got up and did my exercise. Since I am a multi- media artist, and it's summer, I then went out to my concrete studio and poured concrete blanks so that when cured, I can sculpt them. That in and of itself is a workout since concrete is weighty. But, I feel really good now. I'm tired, but it's an accomplished tired and I go to bed with no regrets over today... Except maybe one. I really wanted to weigh in the morning of June 1st at 169 or less. I'm off by a couple of pounds and don't think that I will make it. But, I have lost 8 lbs so far this month and at least the arrow is going in the right direction. My hubby, who has lost 70 lbs in the last 2 years brought some not so healthy things today, but I refrained and it wasn't all that hard this time. I hope it's not a trend though as I'm so proud of his accomplishments and his health depends on it. So, I guess I conquered temptation.
Tomorrow, we go to a graduation celebration for a niece. I am looking forward to it, especially since I actually have something to wear being over 20 lbs lighter than last outing like that. But, it's at a great casual restaurant and that is a challenge since there will be great food choices there and a buffet will be laid out. I will look up the restaurant, and it's menu if it's online and decide what my choices will be BEFORE we go. That helps me out. Exercise tomorrow morning is a must I'll also drink a glass of my homemade "green" mix before I go. All the foods are dehydrated so, when it hits my stomach and expands, then I'm more than full. That should help. All and all, I didn't get this way over night and it's going to take awhile to take it off. My knees aren't hurting anymore and I can do more now, so I'm on the right path.

Havent done it yet today, but the plan is too conquer a mountai . I have a friend coming over in an hour and werecgoing to climb the Grouse Grind. Its a local hiking hill - its all steps and rocks, straight up the mountain. Should take about 1.5 hrs, Ill check bac in after its over....

1) I made some Chess Cake yesterday. It is a cake with cream cheese on the top layer. I had 1 small piece. I was tempted to eat a whole lot more, but then I thought, "It is good, but not that good. It has cake mix in it and I have never cared for the preservative taste in cake mixes. I don't need to eat any more." I continued to cut it up and didn't have any more.

2) I have been very sad lately, missing my son who passed away two years ago. For a while I was comforting myself with food (which caused a 10 pound weight gain last year, which is why I am trying to lose weight). Even though I was really sad last night, I did not eat to try to comfort myself to deal with my grief. This is in spite of having all sorts of my usual binge foods around, such as the Chess Cake described above, 2 big bags of MnMs, 4 bags of Choc chips, 2 bags of chips, 3 dozen cookies, a Lidnt candy bar, a carton of ice cream, and a large bag of trail mix. I know that it works best for some of you to keep all junk food out of the house. For me, it works better to learn to deal with having it around because I have lots of social eating occasions where there is tempting food....see next item....

3) Last week I had lots of social eating occasions: 1 BBQ, 1 party, 1 lunch out, 2 potlucks. I overate at the BBQ (but not as much as I usually have in the past). I did not overeat at the other events.

It is very encouraging and inspiring to read your posts---thank you. Keep up the great progress!

Today my son brought home a box of donuts that were leftover at his workplace. He brings them hom so he can take them to Bible study this evening. He offered some to me. I smelled them, but did not eat any of them.

Just read an interesting study on scents, satiety, and obesity in the latest American Journal of Clinical Nutrition. Somewhat scary...
http://ajcn.nutrition.org/content/99/6/1309.abstract
The abstract is a very short read, but if you are interested in the real science the full text is available for a fee.

Conquered today: Green Smoothie, actually it was pretty good. If you want to try:

Apple Kale Smoothie
3/4 cup chopped kale, ribs and thick stems removed
1 small stalk celery, chopped
1/2 banana
1/2 cup apple juice
1/2 cup ice
1 tablespoon fresh lemon juice

Thanks ReneaJae for reminding me how important my walk is, if it is too hot at lunch I'll just have to do early evening.

We had lunch at our favorite Mexican restaurant, and I did not eat the entire basket of chips! Yes! I kept it to 9, yes, 9 chips! And thoroughly chewed all my food. Who knew that taking more time to chew makes you eat slower, therefore becoming full faster? lol.
Well I knew it, I just didn't do it.


I also made a decision to cut out my nightly cocktail/ glass of wine. I am allowing myself Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. At least until I get my food consumption under better control. Sometimes that one glass leads to some indiscriminate snacking late in the evening.