Hi everyone, oldies and newcomers

As some of you may know, I'm adopted and I was recently informed my biological Father is stage 4 cancer, so I'm quite upset atm. I'll probably go to Korea within 2 weeks. Dealing with the loss that is inevitable is one thing, dealing with my somewhat odd, estranged korean family as well is going to take most of my energy for a time. They've asked me to come over for a month...and that I will "help out", since Father wants to stay at his home. Not really sure what this means. I said "I'm not a nurse". So I guess being very mindful of my boundaries is crucial in this situation. I'm not even legally his daughter anymore. But then koreans are notoriously occupied with bloodlines.

I'm logging and lurking, but I won't be posting a lot.

I overate yesterday, but that's ok. I refuse to let this derail my weight loss goals too much. I'm 4 kg from goal. NO WAY I'm gonna gain back hard won losses. I'll try to use my frustrations and anger at the gym instead of falling into tubs of icecream and bags of chips.

Right now, I'm REALLY happy that I've become an exercise addict.

@Foamroller‌ thinking of you. Make sure you look after yourself.

@flumi_f So sorry you are not feeling well. Hope you feel better soon.

@foamroller - You will be in my thoughts and prayers for your trip. I hope this trip is more profound than you could even imagine. When people are facing death it has a way of clarifying what is really important in life.
But as other have said, take good care of yourself. Others around you will have their own ways of grieving and may take their pain out on you. Even going for a walk can be a great way to get to feel your own feeling and get clarity. And spending a little time in the morning planning, so that you are setting the pace for your day rather than others, can be a great way to care for yourself.

Today is my first fast day now that the holidays are over. I plan on fasting Today, Wed. and Friday to get as much of the 4 lbs. I gained in the last two weeks off.
I'm going to have a protein smoothie at 1:00 and a 4oz steak and salad for dinner for a total of 480 calories.

I'm planning on starting a knitting pattern today and finish a book I started to keep be busy on my fasting days this week.

Debbie: Sounds like you had a great fast day yesterday. Your menu sounds good. What are satsumas?

Flumi: I hope you are feeling better today.

foamroller: So sorry to hear about all that you are going through right now.

I hope those that are fasting today do well......

Scale is not loving me lately lol! Luckily I know I'm just holding onto water weight since I'm tracking and have been at a calorie deficit and doing 16/8 type fasts. I had a TDEE + some day yesterday to shake it up and I'm having a 1200 cal day today. It's still a bit frustrating to see the scale go up when I'm tracking everything, but it's not distracting me or deterring me from my goals. I know eventually it'll come off. Some of it might even be due to my back pain/inflammation. I need to rewatch the documentary and get some real fast days in vs my just tracking calories and hoping not to go over my TDEE.

Hope everyone has a great week

First fast day of the new year for me. Going ok. Fired up about what 5:2 will bring me this year. Best wishes to all of you fasters today.

Ever since xmas fasting has been a bit tougher, for some reason. I maintain the fast but feel hungry way more. Hope this passes. Fasted yesterday and have woken up starving when I am not usually hungry until 11ish fasting or not. Trying to imagine that all my fat is being eaten away by those pangs. I have been on a bit of a plateau, hoping for good things at Friday's weigh in.

First fast of 2015 for me too! It went well and I didn't feel too hungry. @chiccam, congrats on yesterday's loss and hope the 4:3 goes well. @uptightoutofsight, I hope the hunger pangs pass soon! Holidays were great, now let's all get back to work :-)