I've "redecorated" myself so many times through the years! This is the first time I know the decorations will stick, for life! Hang in there, it can be done!! Hugs for you too!

ThinnerHill wrote: »

That was funny it was supposed to be rededicating.

LoL - from the title I thought you were buying new clothes! I know how you feel - so angry with myself for losing it over Christmas but still not rededicating as have a friend staying and for some reason drinking way more than usual. January blues? Good luck, you can do it. Someone on these boards has an avatar with a quote that says something like, in x days time you will wish you had started today.

It seems there is a part of you who's emotional needs are not being met. That is the part of you that doesn't want to lose. You might need to have a good talk to yourself, find out what you need. Because are emotions are like Glen Close in Fatal Attraction, they will not be ignored. The more you ignore them, the more they act out to get your attention.

Your motivation and conviction are clear, but until that nagging part of you is addressed, I suspect it will be walking against the wind. I am not shy about admitting that during my weight loss I (like I suspect many do) had to talk with a therapist or coach to work out why I was being my own worst enemy. If it were just calories and thermodynamics, weight loss would not be a struggle. Part of the progress is dealing with yourself without food. But it is certainly achievable for someone with your determination to succeed.