Had a horrible food day today. Totally out of control..

@Gettingfit2017 Hahahahaha, I ment "Big hug!"

Hi all! I'm new to the group! I am in recovery from a multi decade eating disorder. I've struggled w every kind of ED. Including BED! The past few months I have been doing really really well. My registered dietician who works w ED really helped me break the cycle. She said bingeing is typically triggered by restriction. So she had me so two things: normalize my eating. Every single day. 3 full meals (meaning carbs/fats/protein) at every meal and several snacks also w carbs/fats/protein. She really insisted I work hard a losing the idea of restricting any type of food- no cutting sugar, desserts, burgers, pizza. She wanted me to get back in touch w enjoying what I was eating. The other thing she had me do was work on stress management. I've been practicing "grounding" exercises-like tapping.

I've also now learned how to moderate my exercise. She did NOT want me to "kill it" in the gym. Gentle movement for months was what I was encouraged to do. Guess what... the bingeing began to subside then disappear and weight stabilized. Then went down. I continue to be vigilant w eating and not restricting. It's it easy, but it's possible. The second I feel like I'm "dieting", I feel the urge to binge- so I know to stay away from that feeling!!!

I love this grouo! There's strength in numbers!! And yes, the book Brain over binge is great as is Intuitive Eating.

Wishing you all the best! ❤️

@graciebear16 and @Mersie1 welcome to the group!

@Mersie1 I couldn't agree more with you. The goal is to have a healthy relationship with food and eating; no binging, no restricting, no guilt, no compensating by over-exercising or purging and no food obsessions.

There's a new week, new opportunities. I've managed to stay pretty much binge free so far this weekend. I'm aiming to bring the momentum into the coming week.

I really hope everybody's having a good weekend.

Hi new friends and MFP Warriors! I have found that my most disastrous binges have actually taught me the most in terms of myself and has helped me to form a plan for the moments I feel the most vulnerable/anxious etc... I had a real challenge yesterday as I was so completely exhausted/tired. I have been feeling great and was completely caught off guard by how tired and emotional I was seemingly without warning. It is in those moments where a plan/coping and self compassion skills are everything.

My goals for the coming weeks/getting through the holidays are to continue focusing on what I am happy about/grateful for/what's going well... first thing in the am and last thing at night. Nourishing my body w in the way I've worked hard on w my ED dietician- 3 full meals and some snacks. I need to continue to work hard on not making my meals/foods "too healthy!" I have a tendency to want to rule out certain foods simply bec I know I can. The illusion of control that it gives me I must fight. Especially this time of year- it's tempting for me to say, I won't have any desserts until... that way of thinking is not actually in line w my long term-lifelong goals of how I want to be w food. It eventually comes back to bite me. My cycle ends up being I eat "better and better" (i.e. Very healthy/austere/less socially/more controlled.) my workouts feel good, fiercely consistent, they get longer. I convince myself I'm "on the right track!" I become more and more focused on how great im feeling physically and then at some point- whamo! The coin gets flipped and I'm bingeing, then bingeing more- I decide I can can "get back on track" -I dig in, doesn't work, my weight climbs, my self esteem plummets, my social isolation continues... however- for months I have been doing things differently! I have been making it not about my weight, tracking my food less and approximating more while trying to focus on feelings of hunger/fullness and the most illusive- satiety. There have been bumps in the road, but not the size of sinkholes anymore! It's difficult, but it's possible and I'm worth every ounce of the blood, sweat and tears that it sometimes takes!

I send you all hugs and high fives for believing you're worth the effort to feel good! Heart, soul and body!

I'm really skilled at being good all day and binging at night. Like, right before I'm about to go to sleep I screw it all. A whole days worth of fighting and using a tone of will power. For nothing.

@jaga13 Welcome to the group!

I think a binge is something different to everyone but I will tell you what it looks like to me:
It starts with a great general anxiety, and a feeling of being extremely stressed out. But it's a physical stress too. I can Feel the stress in my body. I can not think about anything else, can't focus, I can't be still, can't read, can't watch tv, nothing - until I give in to the urge. Then, the anxiety temporarily disappear. I zoom out. My body is numb. I'm like a zombie. I have no sense of time or anything happening around me. I want to stop, but I can't. It's physically impossible. It's like I'm in a vacuum. And then, all of a sudden - an hour has passed. I've consumed 5000 - 8000 calories. It's like waking up from deep sleep. I don't even remember all I ate. And I feel so bad about myself. Guilty. Ashamed. That's what a binge is like to me.