One last time ...

HestiaMoon1
HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
edited November 18 in Social Groups
That's what I'm naming this journal. I've been listening to Hamilton A LOT lately.
Plus this is it for me. If this doesn't work, I'm going to learn to live with the fat.

I'm almost 2 weeks in. Today was harder than any other day.
I snacked a few times earlier.
I feel almost sick when I finish eating now whether it's a snack or a meal. And then my belly pushes up against my ribs and feels so disgusting.
Does that happen to anyone else?
That feeling of this gross mass around my middle and the two creases on my backsides that I have now are more revolting than how I felt at 180 when I realized my *kitten* was so big it was difficult to feel "clean" without moist TP wipes.

Following MFP I gained 20 pounds from that 180 that grossed me out. I didn't even weigh this much pregnant.
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  • arguablysamson
    arguablysamson Posts: 1,709 Member
    Hey there,

    Welcome!
  • ShannonOMAD
    ShannonOMAD Posts: 122 Member
    Hi. I feel you on this. The past couple years I've been trying to just... accept the fat. I've always been fat, and I've always hated and would try anything to change. And after actually losing some weight, and then gaining it all back plus some. I was like, eff it. Maybe I'm just supposed to be fat.
    And every diet since then has been my "one last time"
    haha, we're just going to keep trying, even if we think we won't.

    So welcome, to your first "one last time" ;-)

    For both of our sakes, I sincerely hope its true though! And that we're successful this time!
  • blambo61
    blambo61 Posts: 4,372 Member
    edited April 2017
    I grew up very skinny and spent many years trying to gain weight. Then I had a lot of health problems and also stayed up late a lot eating junk while going to grad school and I got fat!

    I've only tried dieting once before I tried OMAD. I would eat a large protein breakfast and then only eat fruit during the day and then a small dinner. I lost about 30-lbs (240 to 210). I exercised a lot too at the time. Then I got a couple of injuries (gout and tore my acl playing basketball) and that diet made me really hungry during the day and I eventually got back into eating horrible (snacking on little Debbie peanut butter cookies and twix out of work snack bar) and I gained it all back and went to 256! That was all within about a year.

    This time I've gone down from 252 to 208 and I'm 19 months into it. What is the difference? I understand the physiology behind eating much better now than I did before. I also have a much better tool to get the weight off. I think with OMAD and understanding what food does to me will enable me to stay thin for good this time. I think that is the key. I see people ask questions sometimes if this is ok or if that is ok and it makes me think that they are somewhat blindly following things but really don't understand the physiology behind things which in the end could undo them if they have a bad spell or two. It is important to keep asking the questions but we all need to come up to speed with some knowledge and tools and we can once and for all succeed and stay that way! Anyways my 2 cents.
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
    Oh, this is sadly not my first "last time."
    This started about 4 years ago when I noticed that no matter how hard I tried the standard dieting routine I ultimately gained 10lbs each year.

    I'm a trained chef, have eaten organic for decades, and now live on my farm/ranch raising my own food - produce, eggs, and grassfed beef. I eat Paleo 90% of the time.

    The type of food has never been the problem for me. I don't like junk food or soda.
    Amounts didn't seem to be either as my BMR should be (I say should be because it's obviously not) 1586. That's hard to eat with a diet that limits bread, corn, and rice.
    The problem is no matter how little I ate I kept gaining, but where I live being 50 lbs overweight is so normal no doctor would look at any reason for my chronic weight gain other than accusing me of lying about my food intake. I've got almost 4 years of MFP logging - that got the attention of one doctor. She said my caloric needs might be lower than a standard formula would set it, she set it at 800-1000, and an MRI showed diverticulosis. That made me search Leaky Gut and Metabolic Disorders.
    Eating that low and still eating 3-5 times a day following the erroneous "stoke my metabolism" theory was impossible.
    So...now I'm doing this.
    It fits the idea that my insulin and metabolism are out of whack and gives me a better way to control those.
    It allows me to eat the dinners I make for my family instead of just a salad.
    It also is more in line with our beliefs of protecting the health of the planet.

    I feel a little lighter, and I've lost 2.4 lbs with 12 days of OMAD and 2 days of not OMAD in the middle of the past 2 weeks.
  • wsandy8512
    wsandy8512 Posts: 1,897 Member
    Awesome on the loss!
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
    wsandy8512 wrote: »
    Awesome on the loss!

    Thank you. I got on the scale, accidentally, about an hour later while changing clothes and I was down another 0.6lbs. That put me in a very good mood!
  • wsandy8512
    wsandy8512 Posts: 1,897 Member
    wsandy8512 wrote: »
    Awesome on the loss!

    Thank you. I got on the scale, accidentally, about an hour later while changing clothes and I was down another 0.6lbs. That put me in a very good mood!

    ROFLMAO!!!! That's super and happy it put you in a good mood. :-)
  • arguablysamson
    arguablysamson Posts: 1,709 Member
    Nice!
  • blambo61
    blambo61 Posts: 4,372 Member
    Nice to be able to eat a normal dinner!
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
    blambo61 wrote: »
    Nice to be able to eat a normal dinner!

    Yes! Also, I realized I can eat breakfast food for dinner, or make a plate of my dried fruit/ nut bars, yogurt, and a protein shake. I miss those things now, plus I still have them in my refrigerator and don't want to waste them.

    Where do you live blambo61? I saw in your journal that you ski. I lived in Boulder and Steamboat before having to move here. I miss skiing, bluebird skies, and living with altitude.
  • blambo61
    blambo61 Posts: 4,372 Member
    I'm in northern ut
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
    Holy moly! I just saw that in my original post MFP auto-editing or something changed the 3-letter euphemism i used for rear-end to kitten. That's .... just... No. In case anyone was shocked into thinking I was referring to some other part, no. It was my backside. Just my backside.
  • 1MADGIRL
    1MADGIRL Posts: 838 Member
    Holy moly! I just saw that in my original post MFP auto-editing or something changed the 3-letter euphemism i used for rear-end to kitten. That's .... just... No. In case anyone was shocked into thinking I was referring to some other part, no. It was my backside. Just my backside.

    That is so funny haha. I just burst out laughing. Thank you! I needed a good laugh! :)
  • Brendalea69
    Brendalea69 Posts: 3,863 Member
    Holy moly! I just saw that in my original post MFP auto-editing or something changed the 3-letter euphemism i used for rear-end to kitten. That's .... just... No. In case anyone was shocked into thinking I was referring to some other part, no. It was my backside. Just my backside.

    First I was like :o but then I was like :D gotta love auto correct!!!
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
    My favorite part of OMAD is not playing the "If I eat --- now I can't have --- later , unless I burn X, then I can have...." Ahhhhhh! I like the mental space I've gained. It reminds me of when I lived without a TV and found I suddenly had hours of free time.
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
    My stomach must be shrinking. Despite being gripped by mind altering hunger at 5 pm, I couldn't even eat a whole plate full of dinner. But I did enjoy a Kona chocolate coconut beer (not as good as Dale's Death by Coconut stout, but very good nonetheless)
  • wsandy8512
    wsandy8512 Posts: 1,897 Member
    Oh yes, not being able to eat a full meal the first week or two is common. Surprising as well. lol Your beer sounds good!!
  • amflautist
    amflautist Posts: 903 Member
    My stomach must be shrinking. Despite being gripped by mind altering hunger at 5 pm, I couldn't even eat a whole plate full of dinner.

    Can't wait until I get to that stomach-shrinking stage. I guess everyone knows I flunked Weight Watchers. When I was under their plan, one of the rules was you could have as many vegetables as you wanted. Once I reported that I ate a whole family-sized bag of frozen broccoli. All the proper ladies freaked out.
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
    amflautist wrote: »
    My stomach must be shrinking. Despite being gripped by mind altering hunger at 5 pm, I couldn't even eat a whole plate full of dinner.

    Can't wait until I get to that stomach-shrinking stage. I guess everyone knows I flunked Weight Watchers. When I was under their plan, one of the rules was you could have as many vegetables as you wanted. Once I reported that I ate a whole family-sized bag of frozen broccoli. All the proper ladies freaked out.

    LOL Maybe they freaked about because they worried you'd have a noxious gas release in that little meeting room! That's a lot of fiber! ;)
  • amflautist
    amflautist Posts: 903 Member
    B)
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member


    I know I'm not supposed to weigh every day, but it's a hard habit to break. It's surprising me that there isn't a constant drop in numbers. The first adjustment I'm going to make is excluding flour completely. Now that I'm only eating one meal per day that will be easier.
    Saturday is official weigh-in day. Hopefully there will at least be a drop from today if not from last week.
    Any pointers?
  • Brendalea69
    Brendalea69 Posts: 3,863 Member
    There are days when there isnt any drop or maybe even a gain, that's why it's best to weigh once a week, or you could weigh everyday and take the lowest number for your weekly total :)
  • wsandy8512
    wsandy8512 Posts: 1,897 Member
    edited May 2017
    Are you keeping a log of your food you eat, even on bad days? Are you still only eating between 800-1k calories? If so, that's not enough, and I'm sorry but I disagree with your doctor on that--unless you are morbidly obese. Being that low can only slow things down for your weight loss and wreak havoc on your metabolism--if it's already slow, it will only make it slower. I'd try to shoot for 1200 calories/day at least, build a meal up with about 800 calories of food and add in a 400+ calorie smoothie or shake, anything to boost it. You may gain at first, but then you should start losing. Not eating anything with flour is a good goal. Maybe consider walking at least 30 minutes a day as well to help aid your physical well-being.
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
    wsandy8512 wrote: »
    Are you keeping a log of your food you eat, even on bad days? Are you still only eating between 800-1k calories? If so, that's not enough, and I'm sorry but I disagree with your doctor on that--unless you are morbidly obese. Being that low can only slow things down for your weight loss and wreak havoc on your metabolism--if it's already slow, it will only make it slower. I'd try to shoot for 1200 calories/day at least, build a meal up with about 800 calories of food and add in a 400+ calorie smoothie or shake, anything to boost it. You may gain at first, but then you should start losing. Not eating anything with flour is a good goal. Maybe consider walking at least 30 minutes a day as well to help aid your physical well-being.

    I've been over 1100 every day. I have a Fitbit but am usually 5000-7000 steps only. It's very hard to not have something before mealtime. Nuts or fruit only, right? If I'm taking a forkful of leftovers is that setting things off? Maybe that's it.
  • wsandy8512
    wsandy8512 Posts: 1,897 Member
    Yes, lol, those forkfuls of leftovers can and do add up. I used to do leftover and pre-meal forkful testers... because a little bite won't hurt, at least that's what I told myself. :)

    There aren't any food restrictions on OMAD, as long as you are logging your pre-meal snacks, you should be good.
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
    wsandy8512 wrote: »
    Yes, lol, those forkfuls of leftovers can and do add up. I used to do leftover and pre-meal forkful testers... because a little bite won't hurt, at least that's what I told myself. :)

    There aren't any food restrictions on OMAD, as long as you are logging your pre-meal snacks, you should be good.

    I'm neurotic about my calories. I count the forkful calories, nothing sneaks up on me like that. I meant breaking the fast too much. A serving of fruit or nuts is said to be ok, so I'm wondering is the protein of the leftover the culprit.
  • wsandy8512
    wsandy8512 Posts: 1,897 Member
    edited May 2017
    Oh, I see. Technically, it all boils down to calories in and calories out. As long as you aren't going over, you should lose weight. I've only broken my fast twice on OMAD; once with a hunk of cheese at night, and the other day when I had my first binge. My body is used to OMAD now so I don't get hungry until about an hour, and sometimes two hours before my planned meal. I only snacked once though when my eating time was unexpectedly put off--26 hours. I thought it best, before gnawing off my own arm or risking a violent rage, to have my smoothie earlier to tide me over until dinner was ready an hour later. lol
  • HestiaMoon1
    HestiaMoon1 Posts: 278 Member
    I was 199 last Saturday and despite bouncing up to 202.1 midweek I landed at 199.4 this morning. I'll take it. Good see at 1 at the front again. I've been around 200 for two months and it depresses the hell out of me.
  • wsandy8512
    wsandy8512 Posts: 1,897 Member
    That's wonderful!!!! I hope to join you in "Onderland" soon! (didn't know what that meant until I saw @brendagaudette explain it to someone else earlier. :-)
  • Brendalea69
    Brendalea69 Posts: 3,863 Member
    Welcome back to Onederland :)
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