My Starting Weight: ~375 lbs (01/01/2017)
My goal: 260 lbs (this would put me below the 40 BMI mark for being morbidly obese or stage 3 obese)
Milestone: 260 lbs
Current Weight: 272.7 lbs 9/06/18
Loss this week: 4.8 lbs
Total loss: -102.3 lbs


What's Working: I have no idea, but I'll take it! It was a relief to see that total loss go back above 100! I don't think I really lost nearly 5 lbs this week, especially as I know I'm still being sloppy with my recording and over-eating past my calorie limit, and my activity hasn't really gone up. I was rather surprised to see this because also, its been very hot and humid here, which plays havoc with my sleep schedule, not to mention the slight insomnia I'm experiencing with the new medication PLUS the head cold I've been dealing with all week. I had thought that would lead up to water retention because it usually does, but apparently not this week. TOM did make his appearance at the beginning of this week, so that explains part of it, but I don't usually see that big of a jump during that time of life, either.

Perhaps the new medication is working? I know that I feel slightly more alert; at least, I'm not catching myself falling asleep at my desk. I haven't gotten that massive energy boost the doctor claimed I would get, and I still feel a little brain fogged, but not as badly. However, this mediation was supposed to lead to just not being hungry, but that hasn't really been the case. Though come to think of it, this week, while I did have to fight the hunger drive to just eat, I can see where it wasn't quite as strong AND I didn't hit those absolutely ravenous periods.


What Needs Work: Same old same old - need to tighten up logging and quit snacking and figure out how to get the energy of an evening to boost my willpower and tell myself no. Need more exercise. Etc.

My Starting Weight: ~375 lbs (01/01/2017)
My goal: 260 lbs (this would put me below the 40 BMI mark for being morbidly obese or stage 3 obese)
Milestone: 260 lbs
Current Weight: 282.3 lbs 10/18/18
Loss this week: -- lbs
Total loss: -92.7 lbs


What's Working/What Needs Work: well, whatever little kick I had at the beginning of September fizzled out really quick I've gained almost 10 lbs this month, and its devastating and so very discouraging. The medication apparently isn't working after all, so the only benefit I have from it is that I'm not as sleepy headed. But I still have major depressive episodes, I'm still hungry, I still have no energy, and I can't seem to find any will power. And I'm terrified - this is what happened in 2012, when I lost 90 lbs back then: I lost weight steadily for about a year, then plateaued, then slowly started gaining again. I have no idea what switch clicked on to get me to losing weight, and I have no idea how it got switched back off or how to switch it back on! I've tried going lower carb, I've tried taking diet breaks, I've tried intermittent fasting, and none of it has worked for me. I feel ravenous all the time even when I know I'm not physically hungry, and I've lost the willpower to tell myself no.

I have no energy and I feel like I have no time, and what with my horrible work life--I come home every day from my job feeling humiliated, useless, depressed, and absolutely exhausted, and with my willpower dead by the time evening comes, I can't get myself to exercise. I hate it with a passion and cant' find anything that catches my interest that I can maintain or afford. there isn't much available around my local area; the closest public pool is the YMCA that is over 45 minutes from here. I'm not out of the office until after 4 pm most days, and since I live in WV with the rural mountain roads, that 45 minute drive can be quite chancy to drive, especially of an evening, in winter. I see advertisements in the newspaper for various exercise classes, but they are all in the same area as the pool and they are all during the workday; there is nothing set up in the evenings for working folks Exercise never leaves me feeling energized or upbeat; even forcing myself to take a walk just leaves me tired and makes my flat feet hurt, even though I'm using walking shoes designed for flat feet. Many folks talk about how when they exercise, even when they don't start out feeling like it, that that end up feeling better when they are done, more energized, and more upbeat. I don't get that ever when i exercise. Exercise for me is always a test of willpower to force myself to do something I detest, to force myself to keep moving forward to the minimum time, and the end is only relief that I can quit; I get no positive feelings from exercise at all, and with my current struggles with depression and defeat at my job, my mental and emotional fortitude is just gone.

I hate to be coming here constantly with negativity and defeat; I just don't' know what to do to finally start succeeding again. I'm terrified that I'm going to just keep going in the opposite direction!

@CheezWhiz88 Thank you What is so incredibly frustrating for me is that I can't figure out what changed. I'm doing the same things I was before, and its like my body has suddenly decided to stop cooperating. My calorie limit is 1500. The calculators I look at put someone at my age and weight somewhere between 1400 and 1600 for losing 2lbs/week. Now I never manage to stick to the 1500, but i figure by using that as my limit, I should at least stay within a 1 lb/week range, right? And the 1500 is obviously supposed to be a healthy limit for a healthy rate of loss. Only I can't seem to lose a single lb, even staying within 1,000 calories of that 1500.

I guess I'm taking in more than I think i am, but I have no idea where. I know I don't get enough sleep, and I've been eating out lately more than I eat in, but I can't figure out how to change my schedule to allow for more sleep. And even eating out, I keep a close eye on calorie counts, and go for lean meats and salads. By the time I get home its usually late, and then add in cooking time, clean up time, trying to get my chores done time, I feel like I don't have any time left to do anything, and I'm usually so danged exhausted that I don't get anything else accomplished anyway. I hate how much of my life is taken up by my job, but I can't do anything about that, even though I desperately would like to get out of my job. There is just no opportunity within my company or in this area for anything decent paying, and I'm already strapped and at my financial limit because of moving twice on my own dime for the company. Most companies I've seen wont' pay relocation anymore, and frankly, I really dont' want to move anyway.

In truth, my job is a huge contributor to most of my problems, especially my depression, but I feel trapped with no options to do anything about it.

but I can sympathize with your getting upset and crying - I'm nearly there myself! I've been watching that scale slowly climb for the past month, and I tried to convince myself that it was just water weight, and even now I can't see where on earth I was overeating that much to actually gain 10 lbs in 6 weeks - that's 1,000 calories over maintenance, and I can't see where I've been taking in anywhere near 2,000 calories over my calorie goal at all!

My endo finally admitted my thyroid levels are messed up, so maybe that's contributing, but you'd think that after being on new medication for 3 weeks now, that things should have been leveling off. The Welbutrin is supposed to help not only with depression, but with hunger, and its not working. I really don't know what else to do.

My Starting Weight: ~375 lbs (01/01/2017)
My goal: 260 lbs (this would put me below the 40 BMI mark for being morbidly obese or stage 3 obese)
Milestone: 260 lbs
Current Weight: 279.6 lbs 11/01/18
Loss this week: -2.7 lbs
Total loss: -95.4 lbs


What's Working/What Needs Work: I don't consider that an actual loss, even though it is almost 3 lbs down from 2 weeks ago, because the very next day after recording the weight 2 weeks ago, I weight pretty much what I weight today, so in reality, this is probably a net zero. *sigh* I'll keep struggling and just maybe I'll get out of this slimy mud hole I seem to be caught in.......

cnavarro002 wrote: »

.....I have figured out a way to be compliant when I am on a routine -like at work or home-, but when I'm out of my routine, I have zero will-power, or I don't care, or I don't know what. Why can't my health be more important to me than the food in front of me?
-Frustrated, disappointed and scared that everything I have done, and will do, can so easily be undone...

@cnavarro002 Oh, I understand how feel, and you have my deep sympathies. I'm dealing with something similar - I can't get back on track no matter how hard I try to be firm with myself; by the time evening comes around, my will power is shot. And I've seen in a few instances in the last 2 months, how very, very easy it is to give in and find myself gorging myself on way too much food. It is very scary to realize how easy it is to fall back into old habits! Whoever said new habits could be formed in 28 days really had no idea what they were talking about.......