Gah, this is freakin’ unacceptable. According to my Happy Scale and trendweight, I have actually GAINED in 30 days. Yesterday I was irritated, today I’m straight-up pissed off.

I know I should give it time, this is a marathon and not a sprint, but even marathon runners don’t usually go back towards the starting line at any point, I guess?

Upsides: I got my nails done yesterday. Today I’m meeting a friend for lunch and tonight the aerial acrobatics course begins. I’m both excited and nervous! I’ll let you guys know how it goes.

nicoleisme wrote: »

Anyone a Fitbit user? I need more motivation to get more steps in!

I don’t have a Fitbit but I made aiming for 15000 steps a day one of my habits in the habit tracker. Feel free to join me there with a step goal and I’ll check in on you.

@hipari that sucks. I’d be annoyed too. I hope you enjoyed your aerial aerobics and that the next 30 days see your weight heading the way you want it too.

Happy Wednesday
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Good Morning.
I think I am doing pretty good with my food thing week.
I get 2 new fur(ish) babies to foster tonight. I am excited!!

@Beka3695 so true! Also, thanks for reminding me about the one thing I'm actually seeing good progress on my RHR has come back down to 61BPM today.

My nerves are kicking in about the acrobatics class... it's not just a completely new sport in a new place in a new group, it's also a major step in extending my comfort zone. I don't think I can do it with my wig on, so I brought a beanie/turban hat thingy to wear instead. I usually wear it only out in nature, or maybe possibly to the nearby grocery store if I go at the end of my walk, but this is a more public setting and a group activity and I'm getting nervous.

I really hope the people there are nice and the sport part is fun!

Late lunch

Aerial acrobatics: I went in, I was a ball of nerves, and I definitely went into a dark place with my insecurities. It appears most of the other participants had some previous experience, all were normal weight, and most came with a friend. So, naturally my dark mind thought I’m the lonely fat bald girl who can’t do anything in a room full of skinny pretty *kitten* who giggle with their friends and can do everything without any struggle. Of course I also decided in my head they must think I’m a sad little freak.

I fought back and didn’t give in to my insecurities! I tried to consciously make an effort to chat with the other girls (they seemed nice enough), did my best with all the acrobatics stuff, and tried to think positive: out of everyone there, I’m likely to learn and improve the most! I managed to get on every piece of equipment, even though my ”get on” was in some cases less than an inch up from the mattress while the other girls climbed to the top of the rope and so on.

It also gave me a whole new layer of motivation! Since a lot of the sport is about lifting yourself up with your hands and arms, just as I suspected, having less weight to lift up would probably help a lot. I also need more grip strength in my hands, so I’m going to buy a grip handle thing for work so I can use it on my desk. Gym just got a new meaning too, since there’s something concrete to actually use that hard-gained strength in. My work doesn’t really require any muscle, so going to the gym and keeping up my strength has been more about abstract health and improving in those gym workouts, but there hasn’t really been anywhere to use that strength.