hipari wrote: »

I'm struggling. I haven't logged any food in a few weeks. I've lost all energy to plan smart meals or eat vegetables. My stomach feels like a bottomless pit that's just always hungry. My weight is back to square one and I'm too upset to even open Happy Scale to see the trendweight damage. Everything is sore from not getting enough movement and activity. I haven't been to the gym in weeks. I'm stressed out at work. My mental state is so frazzled I feel like I'm doing a bad job and not getting my job actually done. Even my apartment is a total mess. It's been raining pretty much non-stop for a week and it's sunny right now but I have to work, and it should start raining again by the time I get off work. It's only September and sun is starting to set before 8pm, we still have 3,5 more months of getting darker and colder and wetter before it starts to get better.

The only upside is that I know the weight is bloat for the most part, since my body fat seems to be down and my fingers specifically feel bloated (I've been fat-heavier than this and my rings never were so tight). At the end of August I got a body composition test done at work and it showed my visceral fat was at a healthy level. Since that's the most dangerous kind of fat, I'm really happy about the result. Even the test showed I'm extra bloated.

Next couple of weeks my goal is to just get back on track. Log food, get enough activity to feel good in my body, find a way to reduce this bloat somehow, find some inner balance. A colleague even recommended some meditation videos that he said were hugely helpful for him. He said he thought it's some hippie bull**** at first but tried it and it really helped, so I'm intrigued since we're usually on the same level of sensibilities about this kind of stuff.

The overwhelming majority of my colleagues are 40-something men. Most of them also do some sports. Most of them gained some lockdown weight, and since they're all so similar, they have no problem talking about their bodies and dieting at work. I'm uncomfortable in partaking in that conversation, but I listen. My boss has lost 20lbs since the beginning of July, and according to him the only thing he's done is split portion sizes in half and then wait 15 minutes before taking more food if he's still hungry. I was sitting there and just thinking "how????? does he not get hungry and destroy the world????". If weight loss was that easy for everyone, we'd all be in our goal weights.

Sorry for the rant, I really need to get this off my chest and try to find myself back into the right path.

hipari wrote: »

I'm struggling. I haven't logged any food in a few weeks. I've lost all energy to plan smart meals or eat vegetables. My stomach feels like a bottomless pit that's just always hungry. My weight is back to square one and I'm too upset to even open Happy Scale to see the trendweight damage. Everything is sore from not getting enough movement and activity. I haven't been to the gym in weeks. I'm stressed out at work. My mental state is so frazzled I feel like I'm doing a bad job and not getting my job actually done. Even my apartment is a total mess. It's been raining pretty much non-stop for a week and it's sunny right now but I have to work, and it should start raining again by the time I get off work. It's only September and sun is starting to set before 8pm, we still have 3,5 more months of getting darker and colder and wetter before it starts to get better.

The only upside is that I know the weight is bloat for the most part, since my body fat seems to be down and my fingers specifically feel bloated (I've been fat-heavier than this and my rings never were so tight). At the end of August I got a body composition test done at work and it showed my visceral fat was at a healthy level. Since that's the most dangerous kind of fat, I'm really happy about the result. Even the test showed I'm extra bloated.

Next couple of weeks my goal is to just get back on track. Log food, get enough activity to feel good in my body, find a way to reduce this bloat somehow, find some inner balance. A colleague even recommended some meditation videos that he said were hugely helpful for him. He said he thought it's some hippie bull**** at first but tried it and it really helped, so I'm intrigued since we're usually on the same level of sensibilities about this kind of stuff.

The overwhelming majority of my colleagues are 40-something men. Most of them also do some sports. Most of them gained some lockdown weight, and since they're all so similar, they have no problem talking about their bodies and dieting at work. I'm uncomfortable in partaking in that conversation, but I listen. My boss has lost 20lbs since the beginning of July, and according to him the only thing he's done is split portion sizes in half and then wait 15 minutes before taking more food if he's still hungry. I was sitting there and just thinking "how????? does he not get hungry and destroy the world????". If weight loss was that easy for everyone, we'd all be in our goal weights.

Sorry for the rant, I really need to get this off my chest and try to find myself back into the right path.