Guys I'm struggling so bad lately and tonight I hit my lowest point in a long time. I'm going on two and a half months of having parosmia. For those who don't know what that is. Parosmia is a smell disorder where odors become distorted. Because smell and taste are so closely linked, parosmia can also have a negative impact on taste and eating. We had covid back in March and I am seeing more and more people having the same thing happen months down the line. So for me and my sister a lot of things smell and taste like sweet hot garbage. It's as horrible as it sounds. Especially dairy and meats. Though for me some random things like tomatoes, oranges, potatoes(half the time) sunflower seeds, vinegar, and peanut butter also taste off. Any strong smell good or bad all gets translated to the exact same sweet rotten garbage smell. Frankly it sucks. Talking to my Dr I told him I wanted to try a elimination diet to see if by any chance I can see if taking certain foods out of my diet affect my pain or symptoms from fibromyalgia or hashimoto's disease. We decided I should try a 28 day raw food diet. I figured this is a perfect time to do it since fruits and veggies taste fine for the most part. So I am supposed to only eat raw fruits and veggies. Today was day 22. About day 15 I had to add in some steamed and lightly baked veggies. Then I broke down andhad to start eating a tiny bit of chicken every couple days because I just wasn't feeling great and was wondering if I needed more protein. So that helped for a while but tonight when trying to find something to eat I broke down and cried because I'm just can't choke down another salad without dressing and I'm even sick of fruits which I never thought was possible. My mom and sister have been doing it with me and I'm so grateful because usually once I set my mind to something I stick to it but this is honestly so hard for me to eat like this. I eat salads almost every day but when that's your whole dinner and there really isn't much variety it gets old so fast. This is also so hard because I have done keto and low carb off and on for 10 years back before keto was a big thing. So it's a big difference for me. I am losing weight but other than that I don't feel any better, I haven't had much energy, and I'm not in a great place mentally. I did 120 days of my personal challenge where I was doing so great and was in the best headspace I've been in in my adult life. The past couple weeks have slowly drained that out of me. It hasn't helped that I haven't been feeling well (head cold maybe?) and my ankle has been getting worse so I haven't worked out hardly at all until today. Once I get out of a routine I have such a hard time getting back to it.

I'm sorry for being negative. I try to keep things as positive on here as possible. It's just been so hard especially the past couple days. I just needed to vent and cry apparently. Hopefully now I can refocus and try and finish this out. Tomorrow is a new day. Only six more days then I can start adding some cooked foods and meat back in.