jaded011

my ticker says 30, but i actually wanna lose somewhere between 40-50 more, it just seems like, if i look at the number 50 at this point, it feels i'll never make it, 30 feels like i can. i'll reset it when i make it there. problem being- i dont have a scale at my house, i can only weigh when im at the dr or at my parents…

i NEVER eat back the exerecise calories. i try to be under goal all the time. sometimes what i burn is more than the calories i take in and my net calories for the day is in the negative, but that doesn't happen often. they have me set at eating 1200 a day before any type of burning the calories. i aim for 800 - 1000 and…

right now my work outs are mostly the fact i clean the house a couple hours a day and walk to the store and back all the time and chase after a 3 year old constantly. but im wanting to start getting more in, but cant afford a gym membership right now and there is just no way i could do actual exercising or working out…

wow..just..wow!!!!

oh, and my username means what it means.. im jaded.. i been &*^%$# over so many times- i am jaded and cynical... The end result of having a steady flow of negative experiences, disappointment, and unfulfillment fed into a person where they get to the point where their anger circuits just sort of burn out and they accept…

that's awesome.. i have uhh.. im not sure, depends on how u count them- for example. i got 3 stars on my neck.. is it 1 tat, or 3? so, somewhere between 13 and 20....

it makes ur eyes water- and it the bad part is the thing they stick up your nose first- feels like it's going all the way to your brain, so you barely feel the needle pierce, cause your so focused on that- but 20 seconds later, all done, bit sore, but lovely... u could do it!!

wait - what girl was it that liked girl on girl? i need to friend her.. lol :)

something about that- made me think of that song by trisha yearwood... she's in love with the boy...... the not being able to date until a certain age and said it wouldn't last, but, obviously it has...

i didn't marry my first love from highschool.. but i got married while still in highschool....... my first love... well. that lasted about 6 months and then on and off for a while.. then at 17 i married a navy guy and moved away. years later, after i had left my husband, i somehow became best friends with my first love....…

i typed out a bunch of stuff- somehow got on a rant about randy orton and wishing i could find a guy who looked like randy orton to stalk for a little while..but realizing NO ONE looks like randy orton but randy orton.. and he's probably going to die young because of all the things he has put in himself and done to…

ops, by the time i had typed that- person above me was the person above THAT! but - hey- i like nijas's too. who doesn't!!! :)

depends on what "dating" meant. LOL.. girls tend to be crazy, and one period a month is all i can handle- no more girl/girl relationships for me.... unless they last.. a week or so. haha. (ohhhhh and i have a bf, got lost on the hot chick thing for a second. hehe) but yea- totally cute... (hey- whoever reads this next-…

yeah, too many hot people on here... and i only have a few people i talk to- so i dont have a huge idea of who all is on here. and i already know who i think is super hot- but... not gonna embarass myself on a public forum... lol.

i dont think we have a whole foods around here- and my gall bladder- no stones, no sludge.. just simply stopped working... so its constant pain that goes through my stomach, side, armpit and into my shoulder blade.... fun stuff.. nothing helps it.. nothing that i've tried yet...

oh yea- my boyfriend is definatly off on guessing my weight- im not sure if he's trying to flatter me, or honestly believes it... so i just look at him and say nothing.. one day i'll tell him.. when i get to my goal (which will still have me not at what the dr would say is ideal, but it would have me happy with myself),…

and, even with the salad i decided on and am currently eating- im still under calorie goal- so.. im happy with that.. im OVER my carbs, but under total calories- i can deal with that for tonight... thanks everyone- you guys are great..

im not sure what jicama is...... ??? i do try to walk a min of 30 minutes a day, but dealing with kidney stones and my gall bladder has stopped working, so the chronic pain is slowing me down a bit (can't take anything for it either until they know the impaction stuff is gone.. fun stuff)

yea- i probably burn more calories than i log, because i cant exactly click on- chased around a 3 year old all day, picking up her messes, dealing with 2 new kittens on top of it , bathing my 3 year old (she likes it, but likes to make it a HUGE mess, with me constantly mopping water out of the floor lol) and yes.. i have…

I realized- i had a bag of salad mix in there- the mixed green kind with carrots and cabbage in it... so about a cup and a half of that- with about a tablespoon of sliced olives on top, 4 crackers (cause i like something sorta crunchy in my salad) and just enough lite ranch to flavor it , but not make it swim in it... at…

yeah, u guys are right.. its been a LONG time since i REALLY ate- i guess one night isn't gonna kill me.. but in a way- i wanted to know- does anyone else ever battle with the guilt problems of eating more than you planned to, or eating close to when you go to sleep?

thanks guys- i guess it's just- i always heard u shouldn't eat within so many hours of going to bed.... i feel like- i can't go eat something else (i was REALLY thinking about a bowl of mini wheats to be honest), and then go to bed in the next hour.... is this just some urban legend about weight loss i heard all my life-…

i can't pick a cutest thing- your just simply beautiful... i liked this post because i wanted to be able to motivate someone else- but i can't find a single thing that looks like u even need to work on girl- just... BEAUTIFUL- but if i HAD to pick- i'd say the lips , eyes, and cheekbones.. okay- i couldn't pick one- so i…

congrats.. u are doing amazing!!!!!!

sorry, i just HAD to reply again- cause i keep looking at your pics and my gawd- you are beautiful.. and honestly- u never looked like you weighed what u said you weighed.. and the fact that you are SO honest about how much your weight was to start and what it is now- is soooo motivating.. only like 1 or 2 people know…

wow. your doing AMAZING!!!!! and you look so great! you were beautiful to begin with, but really looking totally hot!!! i started to ask how long it took to get to that point, then reread your post- your doing soooo great hunny. how are you doing it? wanna share some tips? :)

well, i don't work.. full time mom- but i sorta have a full length mirror in the kitchen, as well as scales near the fridge.. and stuff like "a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips", "dont care how much it hurts, wanna have control, want a perfect body, want a perfect soul".. stuff like that pasted to my fridge....

what i WANT to look like is Bette Paige.. Back when she did her bondage/S&M pics... i have the hair, got bored with scissors around.. now- i just want the body..

i dont think i look like any..... i dont think they'd put someone like me on tv. lol