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i love my passion for the legend of zelda. and for splatoon. and i don't really care who knows it!

hello, everyone (especially molly from chicago - chicago here, too!) i am a book-spazz and find that if i read when i get home instead of snacking, the reading really helps. anyone else tackle infinite jest? i finished it last month and i am still so sad it is over!

only christmas is THIS month. ;)

count me in. depression is very real, but is also a terrible liar. let's do this together.

not terrifying at all! i absolutely want to get into boxing/kickboxing of some sort.

but they end up being so submissive. snuffs the fun out. i end up feeling guilty and adding showtime.

oh, i have total commute-rage. on my way to the office downtown, i elbow and cut-off my way to work through the tough city streets of chicago. before i never knew where my rage came from but i get it - i always felt that people took advantage of me because they perceived me as weak and i'll be damned if a stranger is going…

chips are my crack, too. but when i crave them, i find a substitute. for example, i don't really like pringles so if i buy them, i know i will be responsible with the serving size. it seems to keep the cravings at bay.

i am still very active in therapy. i love therapy, do not get me wrong. it is the greatest thing that has happened to me. there was NO WAY was emotionally strong enough to access my issues without the help of my therapist. he is the best. i was just so good at deflecting the pain that sitting with it really causes a…

when you are unhappy, you look to the find the reason why. depending on how long you have been overweight, chances are you were bullied for a long period of time as a result. the younger, the more dangerous, as you aren't able to process the shame as a fault in the person bullying you, but more as a flaw within yourself.…

i thank everyone for taking the time to add information - it means the world. i am really struggling. i also believe part of the issue is hearing positive encouragement that may throw me off. i lost over 100 pounds and i am not used to my weight being the topic of a good conversation - i can't get used to the compliments,…

oh, right - the gym! i have totally stopped going to the gym. now, i never LOVED working out, but i LOVED the way i felt after, the change in my clothes, my body (what every other person says). and i got good at it. an hour on the arc trainer is pretty outstanding and i totally did that. i think the gym was a great anger…

way to go!!! you look amazing!

people are going to tell you that jealousy is unbecoming and quite toxic. they are right. but it is an emotion and shoving away emotions only leads to further issues down the road. accept the jealousy, examine the sting beneath the jealousy. unless you are truly ill, you do not wish harm on this person, you wish to better…

you are worth the hard work that therapy demands. you are worthy of a healthy self-esteem. if you are able, i urge you to consider therapy. this is your life - you set the path, you set the tone and you are incredibly capable of setting the change. therapy saved my life and i used to laugh at the idea of therapy. it…

the red meat an average American eats in a year and a human brain. nice.

i know what you mean. like how i am jealous of people that don't have the ability/brain function to read. if i couldn't read, i wouldn't be able to comprehend the idiotic things people say. it would save me so much time beating my head against the wall.

no way - his response was awesome, but you communicated a strong desire to make someone feel better. it was smart and very thoughtful. i am glad you did not . :)

you guys are ALL terrific. honestly, just terrific. i appreciate everyone taking the time to reply and each suggestion absolutely helps. let's be honest, i have been heavy all of my life (though much lighter now :) ) and i have been bullied since i was a kid for it. i know that deep inside my brain, i believed that i would…

if i am going to complain about the bad, i have to report the good - just to be fair. walking in the this morning, a co-worker stated how great i looked. later, she came by my desk to ask me what the heck i was doing and stated "as someone that has lost weight before, i never got tired of hearing when people noticed. and i…

i was just dying laughing at some of these. thanks, everyone. i sincerely mean it. as with my physical health, i have started working on my mental health. this means body acceptance/body love/body appreciation. i have to love myself wherever i am at, while understanding that the work i do is for my health. not my looks.…

rock on!

i used to DREAD summer due to sweating. and sweating just by taking a few steps. i totally notice (and appreciate the change). it is the little things that make the greatest difference! congrats!

1 - thanks for the support. you are a bunch a dolls. 2 - i was dying reading through this at work. how on earth did i manage to forget the eeyore-themed hoodies? or the rhinestones. SO. MANY. RHINESTONES. and the rhinestones are everywhere, too. climbing up the arm, bedazzling across the neck line. this is what i imagine…

amazing! way to go!!

amazing! way to go! you look great!

heady topper was divine - but so so strong for me. i could never drink more than two.

the drunk eating! i would be the best all week and then drink one night and awake to find evidence of the snack-monster. it was awful. also, i would never want to work out the day after, which was typically on saturday, my big gym day. so took about 3 months off the booze to refresh. once i started drinking again, i set…

so inspiring! awesome!

i appreciate the helpful responses. part of why i hit the gym is to get into shape so i can play tennis. i long for the day! i think part of my post was coming from a place of fear. never before had i worked out for such a consistent amount of time - just over 11 months. i love that my body craves it and my mood changes if…