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bullied at the gym
This evening I was jogging when a couple came into the gym. The lady jumped on to the treadmill next to me (with 6 open to the left and 3 to the right) and was wearing a turtleneck and black jeans. She literally spent the whole time starring at me of course making me super self conscious. I was at my cool down when a…
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up late?
I dislocated my knee yesterday and now resting. I am soooo bored. Stuck on the couch doesn't make you really tired for bed. How is your night?
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a spotting of the elusive skinny me.
Maybe it is the confidence in trying, maybe it is the few lbs I have shed, maybe it is because I am getting back to my previous ways; Today walking by a mirror, with the prefect light, at the just-right-angle I saw her. The version of me that enjoyed food but didn't eat the whole casserole dish. The version of me that…
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Self sabotage
I am constantly stopping mid momentum. It is always when I start to see results too. Things start fitting better and I celebrate at the fridge. I have been stumped. Than it dawned on me. I have never had a good relationship "skinny." I was raped, had horrible boyfriends and un supportive friends. I had a few traumatic life…
