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Struggling with nausea
Started 5FU 24/7 chemo this week and the nausea has buried me. I spent half of last night sleeping on the bathroom floor because I didn't have the strength to make it back to the bedroom. I am dreading tonight, that it might be the same, hopefully tomorrow will get a new/different anti nausea med. I dont really have…
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At the bottom right now.
I am admittedly a little in shock. After some months of testing today I received the diagnosis that I have bone cancer. I am having a port put in on Monday and go on a 24/7 chemo pack. I came to this site with virtually no support or friends due in large part to my own upbringing. I was trained and conditioned to withdraw.…
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my 2 shameful groups
I just realized that I have tended to put people into 2 shameful groups of people. worthy unworthy. But really there was only one person in the unworthy group. I sat and thought about it for a long time, I have a few friends that are even more overweight than I, and yet my friendship with them never was determined based on…
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Afraid and alone
This is my first day. I am motivated but needing some support. Have some tests returning and a possible cancer diagnosis. Which makes this all the more important. I cannot afford to fail. This is my life right now. No one else can do it for me, but I do want people who will go through it WITH me.
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What's so special....
This is day one. I've never considered myself special..... at all. Everyone in my family was outstanding in some way.... everyone but me. So I had myself a pity party.... a really 7 course pity party that lasted for decades. I look back at YEARS wasted and am filled with shame that I allowed this to happen. I have few…
