my 2 shameful groups

Sewweaver
Sewweaver Posts: 33 Member
edited January 30 in Health and Weight Loss
I just realized that I have tended to put people into 2 shameful groups of people.

worthy

unworthy.

But really there was only one person in the unworthy group. I sat and thought about it for a long time, I have a few friends that are even more overweight than I, and yet my friendship with them never was determined based on their weight, but on all the other things that make them who they are.

Why then, is it, that I am the only one unworthy. Not worth saving. Unlovable, not valuable...... based really solely on a random number on a small machine on my floor? Does that number represent that I am lazy, stupid, no willpower, no worth?

I live on a farm and work in the barn or field for 9 hours a day, I have 2 degrees that tell me I'm not butt dumb, I struggle with what willpower technically means and I have, I suppose viewed my worth through the lens of what someone else might see.

This line of reasoning is clearly faulty at best, moronic at worst. Does anyone else ever struggle with this? What do you do to combat it when you feel it creeping up behind you to swallow you or overwhelm you?

Is this just a "chick" thing? Do guys ever struggle like this? Or is it simply that they handle it in a more unique head-on fashion?

Is it beatable? or will it always hang over me?

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  • RingTailedFox
    RingTailedFox Posts: 53 Member
    I also struggle with this. I've been going to counseling for two years and am finally seeing some progress. Finally, I have a reprieve from the constant trash-talk I'm my head. Not every day is a good day, but the good days are finally outweighing the bad days.

    For this sort of unlovable, unworthy mentality, I really do urge you to go to a therapist. This sort of mindset is based on a series of false assumptions that you have internalized.
  • RingTailedFox
    RingTailedFox Posts: 53 Member
    I also wanted to add that if money is a factor, look at some of your county-run counseling centers. Let me know if you need help.
  • seasidefox
    seasidefox Posts: 11
    I share your feeling about my weight, and some other things about myself as well. I have noticed that I am not so cruel to other people as I am to myself. I would never think of it. So why the difference?
    I also see a therapist but I have not yet conquered the problem.
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