A promise to myself.
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great progress, shell.
My calories / weigh in are still on track
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little binge yesterday, it was 11 days without bingeing ... don't know why I binge yesterday, no reason...feels like I spoilt everything, not in a good mood today0
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little binge yesterday, it was 11 days without bingeing ... don't know why I binge yesterday, no reason...feels like I spoilt everything, not in a good mood today
I can totally relate to this @sothgo ..... I started my week off binging late at night, even though I've had a month of successful IF (I'm supposed to stop eating at 7pm). So Monday and Tuesday have been a complete wash for me. But I keep telling myself that there is no wrong time to get back on track. Just because I started my week off poorly doesn't mean that the rest of my week needs to be ruined. I'm trying not to let my cheat day turn into a cheat week.Thanks y'all!
sothgo.....I can totally understand that, especially when you don't know why. IMO, those are the worst. When I am able to connect the binge or the urge to binge to stressors or an emotion then at least I understand it...and can more effectively combat it. When it seems to come out of nowhere then it is even a harder pill to swallow.
Hugs...and try to leave yesterday there and move forward using the skills you had in those 11 binge free days. We are all a work in progress...and some days we make more progress than others and some days we seem to tear it all down and have to start again.
Thanks so much for the encouraging words @shell1005 ! I know they weren't directed at me, but I found encouragement in them anyways. I also like to justify my poor choices whenever possible... I think it's a coping mechanism. The moments when I find myself eating just to eat are the hardest ones to let go of. I beat myself up wondering why I just destroyed my efforts for no reason. But today is a new day and a new month! This month will be one filled with self discipline and silencing the insecurity in my head
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thank you both for the support, and your kind comments, yes it's a new month and I wanted it to be better than next month. At june I binge just 4 times this is not much compared with other month from the beginning of the year!
again thank you I have to learn to be less demanding towards myself .thank you for helping me be conscious that I can move on and that it 's a long way to recover
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Hello,
While at family reunion, I promise myself to log whatever I eat and for the 2 days I am not driving to walk a minimum of 6000 steps which is Friday and Saturday.
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11 days without binging, and only 4 times in a month is great !! You can be proud of the effort that tookthank you both for the support, and your kind comments, yes it's a new month and I wanted it to be better than next month. At june I binge just 4 times this is not much compared with other month from the beginning of the year!
again thank you I have to learn to be less demanding towards myself .thank you for helping me be conscious that I can move on and that it 's a long way to recover
Molly - Hope the weekend goes well, and you manage to get those steps in.
Shell, Sothgo, MMK - good luck for July. Good luck to all of us. My aim is just to keep making an effort. not to give up.
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Hey all. I'm new to this forum but not new to mfp. I've been on here for almost a year. I had my 2nd child 14 months ago. And while pregnant I picked up the bad habit of eating at night. And I haven't been able to stop. But I realized recently it's more than just eating at night. I'll binge. I was almost at 2 weeks of no binging, then idk what happened. I ate some meatloaf, some chips, 7 cookies and peanut butter wafers last night. Ugh. How do I stop this? Even with knowing that my wedding dress was tight when I tried it on 2 weeks ago and my wedding is just 3 weeks away, I still binged.0
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Hi all,
Work has been busy for the last couple of weeks, so I haven't been logging my food and haven't been very active.
I am sure that I have gained a bit.
But from tomorrow I will be back on track.
I am committing to weighing myself tomorrow morning, logging everything I eat, and eating within my calorie limits.
@Zumbah - there's no easy solution. I hope these last few days have been better. Just keep taking one day at a time. Focusing on the successes. Each time you manage a day binge free, you know that you can do it again.0 -
Just weighed myself and the good news is that I am still in my maintenance range (unexpected !!). The not so good news is that I am right at the top of it.
So I'm going to set my calorie deficit to 1/2 lb loss to get down to the bottom of it.
I am reasserting my determination to log everything I eat and to eat within my calorie target. I need to do this in order to stay within the weight maintenance range that I have chosen for myself.
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I keep thinking to myself that I'll have just have one more meal without logging and that I can go back to logging tomorrow.
That's not ok !!!
I am writing this post to reassert my determination that I am logging from today and that I will eat within my calorie budget from today.
not tomorrow. today. tomorrow never comes !!!
I will post back tomorrow to confirm that I logged everything and ate within my calorie limit today.0 -
yesterday went well - all the food was logged and I was within my target calories :-)
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well done! keep doing this!0
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Congrats on the weigh-in. A half marathon sounds like a great way to stay on track.
I haven't been logging. I really don't have time. But I am watching what I eat so carefully that I might even be losing. That's the best I can do for now, and I feel ok with that. I will start logging again by 1st August.0 -
starting again today. no excuses !
morning weigh in was on target 0 -
still going strong
I realised that this thread helps me in 2 ways.
It holds me accountable to keep an eye on my weight and my calories.
But more importantly, and I only just started to realise this, it helps me catch myself as soon as my discipline starts to wane. The earlier I catch it, the easier it is to get back on track, which also helps me avoid binging. When my discipline starts to wane, its like TB is trying to get me back into a position where he can make his move. Constant awareness of my actions means I am not giving TB an opportunity to create a space from which he can make his move. It seems to be working.0 -
I am so inspired by your dedication. Keep at it!0
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Pudding1980 wrote: »I am so inspired by your dedication. Keep at it!
Thankyou
I feel as though there are 2 children battling it out inside me. One wants me to follow a healthy lifestyle; the other just wants to eat and eat. The first one is in charge and usually gets his way. But when the second one keeps nagging and nagging sometimes he needs support.
'come on, just a little more....'
'no.'
'oh its not such a big deal, its just a little'
'no.'
'Why not ? its just one day'
'no.'
'It'll taste really good. you'll really enjoy it'
'Mum (in a whining voice), he won't stop hassling me'
'Tell him I said he's not going to get his way'
'mum says no.'
'hmph.'
Writing in this thread is my way of saying a firm 'NO.'
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I know the feeling! Sometimes I feel schizophrenic. haha It's even worse when it's another person - one who doesn't understand the struggle - coaxing you to eat. My favorites are:
"You only live once!"
"C'mon! A treat won't hurt once in awhile!"
"You have to enjoy yourself!"
Or, the people who have the ability to "overeat" once in awhile (and by"overeat," I mean they have a second helping of potato salad at a barbecue) without bingeing, and think they know what you mean.
"Oh, I know just what you mean! I had a slice of cheese before bed!"
"Oh, really? I ate the whole pound, 2 slices of pizza, a bowl of cereal, and a dish of ice cream."
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thanks guy I feel less stupid, I also sometimes have two voices talking Inside my brain, one is trying to bring me down, the other one is trying to help me figthing against the binge, and since 25 days my conscious brain help me not bingeing, you can do it both of you!0
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Just want to post an update to keep myself accountable to this thread.
I'm mostly on track calorie wise, and weight is in my maintenance zone.
Very few days are perfect. I regularly eat junk that I don't plan to eat, or finish all my calories (and my prelogged meals) by 3pm and then go hungry. though occasionally I just eat over my calories for that day. It all evens out in the end - I have some low days as well.
On the whole I'm doing ok.
I do feel frustrated with myself for not being perfect, but as I write this I can see that actually I'm doing pretty good I'm hitting the big goals. i'm succeeding, even if I'm not perfect. and that's ok.
'perfectly imperfect', they say. I don't accept myself enough yet to feel that.
But I can look at the positives, rather than dwelling on the imperfections.
and on the whole, I'm doing well.
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Hooray for you!
Having high-calorie days and low-calorie days is just the way of life, there's absolutely no reason to see that as an imperfection! Obviously if you wait a few weeks and see unwanted changes in your weight that's a reason to rethink your eating plan, but otherwise just celebrate how far you've come!
The "come on, you only live once!" voice is a big problem for me sometimes. Usually I try to blame it on the occasion. "Aww, the end-of-the-season party at work only comes once a year, just enjoy it!", "Marshall's cookies are my favorite, I don't know when he'll bake them again, I'll just have a third one", "It's the holidays, I shouldn't waste them counting calories!" But as soon as I let myself start thinking like that everything becomes a "special occasion".
As I near my weight goal, I feel much thinner and healthier than when I began, and I have started bargaining with myself about what is "close enough". One voice says "I've come so far, I want to feel the satisfaction of reaching the weight I committed myself to months ago, the magic number that's been my "dream weight" since high school."
The other voice says, "Gee, another slice of pizza would still be within your maintenence calories...why don't you just give up and start maintaining, you'd get to eat so much more and you're not even that fat anyways, I can live with the last 15 lbs..."0 -
Hi,
I completely agree with you that days of higher calories and lower calories is ok.
For me, the 'imperfection' is that I set myself a target of what to eat for that day and then I don't manage to stick to it. I would like to be strong enough that if I set myself reasonable food aims, I can keep them. Eating all my calories by 3pm and then having to go hungry is not ideal.
that's exactly my problem !FinntheVeggie wrote: »everything becomes a "special occasion".
My 'treats' become the norm very easily if I allow it.
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Just want to post an update to keep myself accountable to this thread.
I'm mostly on track calorie wise, and my weight is in my maintenance zone.
Because of summer, I am still not quite back into my routine so there are constant challenges but things should start to settle down next week. I'm pleased that I've maintained through the summer.0 -
totaldetermination wrote: »Just want to post an update to keep myself accountable to this thread.
I'm mostly on track calorie wise, and my weight is in my maintenance zone.
Because of summer, I am still not quite back into my routine so there are constant challenges but things should start to settle down next week. I'm pleased that I've maintained through the summer.
good job! not easy to maintain this time but september is nearly here!0 -
My weight is still in my maintenance range.
From Monday my life goes back into routine, and so I will begin tracking properly with no excuses.
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A bit of a stumble today.
I think around 3-4000 calories in les than an hour.
I was feeling sick and was in physical pain, but still wasn't stopping.
The situation changed so I couldn't continue, otherwise I probably would have.
As far as binges go, its quite minor and not a lot of calories. But I'm disappointed that it happened, and well aware that it could have continued.
Oh well, its done now and there is nothing I can do to change it.
So 'log it and move on', as they say.
and refresh my resolve for tomorrow - not to let this get out of control.0 -
TD, I am proud of you for posting honestly. I think that shows what huge strides you have made, that you're admitting the mistake instead of hiding it. Onward and upward!0
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