LiLee's Journey to overall happiness
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Ok so one thing that is telling me that AF should be right around the corner sooner rather than later....
I'm hungry, but I want absolutely nothing healthy. The thought of eating any more meat or salads is making me want to cry lol. Well... unless the meat is fried chicken or on top of a pizza..... and unless the veggie is in the shape of a french fry ...... or on top of a pizza too :P lol
Got hungry and just suddenly felt a "I'm SO utterly and completely over eating healthy today" feeling and my dramatic butt did actually want to cry thinking about needing to stay healthy and not giving in.
I might just have a cheat dinner. I won't be able to go out for anything, but maybe even just making myself a PB and Jelly sandwich sounds good right now or hell... buttered toast. Or 2 rows of chocolate chip cookies with a tall glass of cold milk. It's not even that I want to go binge eat... I just do NOT want anything that I should be eating. Damn I want a pizza now that I mentioned it lol
Please tell me I'm not alone in these emotions. What did yall do?? Just give in for the day and get back to it once you were feeling better or just hold strong?
A part of me says to hold strong b/c I'm gonna be cheating next week... but then another part is like
"You're already up in weight, go ahead and have something. You know you're gonna get back to it tomorrow etc etc"
Stupid hormones!0 -
Listen...this is why I refuse to restrict the types of foods I eat ****I'M NOT JUDGING AND I UNDERSTAND SOMETIMES IT'S MEDICALLY NECESSARY****
I get like that every f-ing day after a WEEK if I restrict like that - I just can't...it's hard enough to restrict the TIME, I'm not adding any more to the list.
But yes hormones
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Yeah unfortunately with my relationship with food... I have to remain strict or at least keep the cheating under control.
I wish I could stick to a diet where I could eat whatever I wanted, but just keep it in a deficit, but what I eat doesn't keep my body feeling satisfied so I want to keep eating and eating and eating.
I did have my cheat dinner and desert after.
I ate an egg sandwich.. yum! I also ate a PB & J sandwich... yuuuum.
I then filled the remainder of my stomach... and then some with chocolate chip cookies and milk.
My kids drove me crazy today.... my body is just... I dunno.... cheat meal.... I'm good with it.
Back to better choices tomorrow
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So just got back from Target with a bikini top. I don't plan on flaunting myself in a bikini or anything, just want to wear it under a shirt for the amusement park and whenever else.
Yikes man...ok first...
Almost nothing in my size!! I guess there are a lot of large ladies out there.
Next... could the lighting in their fitting rooms be any worse? Holy crap.
Wanna see all of your flaws and blemishes amplified by 10k?? Go try on something in a Target fitting room. lol
Feeling good and need to be taken down a notch? lol
Anywho, I did find one that was ok. I think an XL in this style would've fit me better right now, but the large fit snug which is fine. Hopefully by the end of the summer, it will be fitting perfect or loose 0 -
I cannot restrict, I need my chocolate and carbs fix. So, if I have to just eat whatever a diet states, I will surely fail. That's why I prefer OMAD where I can eat anything. Even trying to cut down on carbs, I can get cranky 😅 We have Target here too and the lights are just too bright and I hate trying clothes there. So, I just grab and go 😁1
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I think my relationship with food in general has gotten a lot better.
Before starting this, cheating once would've had me right back to poor eating habits all over again. But now.. I cheat and have absolutely no problem getting back to healthier eating. Sometimes I find myself wanting to continue to cheat, but it's a far distant urge that's easily ignored.
Once I'm at my goal, I know I'll be able to ease up some. I'll probably always have to remain low carb if I don't want to gain, but eating something like... a baked potato or even just french fries or a sandwich isn't going to be a problem. Not like now.... if I want those, I can expect to retain water and have to wait 2 weeks for my body to get back down. Annoying.. lol
Something I am having trouble with though is restarting OMAD again. I'm not going to start it back up until after next week, but I REALLY need to commit to it now more than ever. August is right around the corner and I don't want to still be this big then. I still need to buy a new bathing suit top for the beach trip and it would be nice to have more cute options to pick from that I'd feel comfortable wearing
I need to take some of this willpower and recommit to OMADing. After I'm done with the coffee I have left... I'm not going to buy anymore. Right now, it's my OMAD kryptonite. If it's in the house, I'm going to cave and drink some in the morning when I want it the most. It's not even about the caffeine from it... I just really enjoy the flavor and how soothing it is.
I gotta do it though... I gotta do it! /nodnod
150's.... you've been just out of reach for some time now... but I'm coming for ya..... I'm coming for you! 140's..I'm eyeballing you too!
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Thankfully no more weird hormonal things today lol.
I've had 2 coffees, pork rinds, rotisserie chicken, slow cooker pork, and this strawberry cheesecake no bake thing I made.
The slow cooker pork was.... not good. Flavor good, but it's soooooo dry. Did not work out lol.
Strawberry cheesecake thing...
Sliced up strawberries. Added in vanilla and powdered swerve and set aside.
Blended softened cream cheese with vanilla and powdered swerve until smooth. Then added in heavy whipping cream. Didn't measure, just added it until was lighter.... maybe a cup worth?
Then added in the strawberries and mixed in and globbed a bunch in a bowl and ate it up lol.
Wondering if it would be better if I added just a little bit of citric acid for more tartness, but it's good on its own too and I'll probably have more later too lol.0 -
It's finally starting!!!!
Good grief. Only like 5 days late![:\](https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/resources/emoji/confused.png ":\")
SIGH Going to be in the middle of it for our trip which really sucks, BUT it's supposed to be only 70degrees so at least I won't have to worry about the water park area and getting wet. Although it might rain.... Oh well. We're going and we're going to have fun /nodnod
Thankfully no other funky food issues have come up again. Although I would like some rice tonight with dinner. Debating if I want to have some or not. Kimchi and rice... if I had spam too that would be my dinner lol. Mmmmm fried spam.
MMMMMM kimchi fried rice with fried spam in it! lol Damnit... I'm hungry.
Lol overall.. feeling pretty ok. Not great. Tired and hungrier than normal and I can feel a headache coming on, but overall, I'm good 0 -
I did. I had some rice and I loved it! I definitely held back and only had about 1 cup of cooked rice... a heaping cup, but no more.
Also had a chicken thigh and lots of kimchi.
Having another 2 thighs now and yeah... feeling good and satisfied.
I know I'm bloated though. I was SO thirsty yesterday and drank a ton and didn't really pee that much. Good ole hormones.
I'm good though thankfully. Thankfully other than the bloating, the PMS symptoms have eased up and thankfully my periods aren't too bad with symptoms usually. Sometimes they can be bad with cravings or blah feeling but I'm good today and I'll take it
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Dang... DANG.... already close to the middle of the dang month! Seeing Tracey's new thread really opened my eyes to how close August really is.
In my mind... August is still like 3 months away lol.
Holy crap.
Ok.... time to get serious.
This week... not OMADing. Just... not. My mind isn't in the right place to start it, BUT I was planning on starting it again next week and I'm really going to commit to it no matter what until beach vacation!
I'll have to start tracking my food again to make sure I remain in a decent deficit. I'm sure some days will be better than others.
Gotta do it though.
I really want to be in the 150's, like well in to it (155 or better) by the time of our vacation b/c I am going to be cheating that entire week along with when we're home b/c 2 of our kids have birthdays (Aug 8th and 9th) and I'm having me some birthday cake too :P lol
I can imagine my weight will be back up in to the 160's after so need to get it down as much as possible before then.
Gotta do it, gotta do it, gotta do it!!
I'll take this week to just.. relax though as far as eating goes. Relax and get back in to the right mindset to be strict OMAD again for the rest of the time. I can do it!!!
Exercising is done for the day. I did it as soon as I got up. I knew if I waited or put it off for a little later, I wouldn't do it so I just got up and got it done and out of the way.
I increased weights just a little. Still kept is a bit easy for now.
I replaced some of the workout with different moves but overall I'm happy with what I did
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I'm gonna have to give up bacon. Not a big deal b/c I'm so over bacon at this point. It's not worth eating anymore.
Had it last night with some eggs. I ALWAYS have to take an antacid or else I'll wake up with horrible reflux.
I didn't wake up with reflux, I woke up at 3am feeling horribly nauseated. Thankfully another antacid and some tums eventually helped but still... nope. No more bacon. I didn't even really enjoy it while I ate it.
Just.... I'm just over bacon. I won't miss it.
Plan for today is to cheat.
If amusement park trip had been on Thursday, I would've cheated Friday too, but since we had to move it to Wednesday and I have a dentist appointment Thursday.. I'll just cheat today lol.
Get this out of my system before strictly OMADing for over a month
I'm ready for that though. Or at least getting mentally ready to start!0 -
You've got this babe! You are very in tune with your body and what you need to do - I like the plan!!!0
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UGH I am so damn bloated it's not even funny.
It's been building up for the last week and it's gotten worse the last 2 days. So much for not having a bad period.
I'm sure the horrible food choices today isn't helping anything.
Damn... wish I had bought some of those SF gummy bears now. Clear things out b/c this SUCKS.
I've already had 2 cups of coffee today and I did go #2 this morning... it's just water bloat. My body is wanting to hold in ALL the liquids I'm taking in. At least that's what it feels like.
Not gonna let it ruin the day tomorrow though. Just maybe not going to eat as much as I want. Thankfully it's supposed to be cool too so shouldn't be sweating like a pig.. although I guess that would help.
Ok... this... this right here is definitely preparing me to stick with OMADing b/c the last thing I want to do right now is eat anything else lol.1 -
Love love love kimchi, sausage & spam❤️ Tomorrow is a brand new day, you've got this👍1
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Well... the rest of this week is going to be spent cheating cheating cheating :P rofl
DH is off work and we're just relaxing and having some good quality family time.
Amusement park yesterday was fun. Cold and wet but fun.
It rained almost the entire time we were there, but most of the rides were still open and not a lot of people so no wait times on anything.
Once the kids are grown a little we plan on getting season passes. It's only like a little over an hour drive to there, but kids definitely need to grow more b/c they couldn't ride hardly anything yet. They still had fun with what they did get to go on though.
If you're near Carowinds... I highly recommend it. IMO it's one of the better parks b/c they're super mindful of the weather we have here. LOTS of seating, LOTS of shaded areas, etc and lots of fun roller coasters. The food prices are too high though, but that's pretty much a given in any amusement park.
I think tomorrow we might head to the zoo too. That or maybe try blueberry picking again... OR do that on Saturday. Either one
I am enjoying the heck out of the junk food I've been eating, but lordy I can feel my body screaming at me to get back to healthier eating too. I plan on it starting Sunday. Sunday is the start of strictly OMAD and back to keto. I'm ready for it!
It's gonna take probably a solid 2-3weeks to work off this.... but it will come off and then some. Just going to have to be super mindful of my calories in these weeks to come if I want to reach my goal!0 -
Those were the days where we join as yearly members (zoo, amusement parks, etc) to get the best discount and endless entries😁😁🤣 But when our kids became older, they ain't interested in these things anymore. Now, it's all about electronics. 🙄 Don't stress about OMAD, it's a lifestyle. Just enjoy yourself with your family and get back to OMAD after that👍😘. Have a wonderful time with your family ❤️🥰1
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One more day of eating whatever and back to it tomorrow. NOT OMADing tomorrow, but getting back to keto and then starting OMAD Monday.
I haven't stepped on a scale and I'm afraid to lol.
I will on Monday but.... I am not looking forward to seeing what the damage is. It's not gonna be pretty!
We went to the zoo yesterday. When we got there, they had been experiencing a power outage. The power had just come back on but they were still letting everyone in for free and were letting everyone ride the carousel for free.
It was a good day until we reached the water feature (play area). Nowhere to sit that was shaded so I baked my brains while the kids had fun splashing around.
Overall good day though
Ready to start back up though.
Holy crap my body has been feeling HORRIBLE this entire time.
It reminded me of how I felt before starting keto and it's amazing and sad to think that I just accepted feeling horrible all the time before. How bad I feel eating this way and I did it my entire life basically. Just no.... no more long term bad diet anymore.
My body does not run on a SAD diet very well.0 -
Hey at least you recognize that! Again, half the battle lol
Sounds like a super fun day minus the heat...i hate heat with a passion unmatched even by the fires of hell lol1 -
Have a wonderful time with your family 1
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Ended the junk food fest with some adult beverages last night after the kids went to bed.
Feeling like hell this morning, but ready to get back to healthier living!
Just finished off the last of my coffee /cry and looking forward to actually feeling good again.
Fully expect to get keto flu this time since this was a much longer cheat, but oh well.
UGH I am dreading stepping on the scale tomorrow though. I can SEE how bloated I am in my face and body. I can definitely feel it too.
Will be rethinking what I'll be eating for our beach trip. I'll be cheating then, but maybe just with more simple carbs (bread) and not as much sugary stuff. I don't want to feel like this while we're there.
I don't know if i'll be reaching my 150's goal by August, but I'm going to give it my all. I'll be happy with whatever I do lose though 0 -
Don't be so hard on yourself ❤️ It was about family time and everyone had a good time👪 Now, you can get back on the OMAD wagon and loose those pounds. You have got this, girl👍😉0
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Holy crap yall. My weight is up 20 POUNDS!!! 20lbs in less than a damn week!
How???? Yes I know most of it is water weight, but still.... HOLY CRAP.
That is A LOT of damn inflammation and bloating. No wonder I can see it so well in my face and other parts of my body.
No wonder why I've felt so GD awful this entire time. That is so much weight for my body to be holding on to in such a short amount of time.
Good lord.
5 days.... 5 days of *kitten* eating did this much damage. I'm going to have to rethink beach trip food. Still going to cheat, but definitely.. DEFINITELY not as bad or with as many sweet treats.
Good grief....
I'm not exercising today. I think my body just needs to rest and get rid of all of this right now. I might start it back up Wednesday depending on how I'm feeling.
Hopefully now that I'm back to keto and OMAD the weight will come back off quickly.
Yikes though.... YIKES
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HOLY COW! Yeah that number would take my breath away too...but indeed, MOST (but not all) of it is water weight...on the bright side, won't it be fun to say you lost 15 pounds this week
You got this babe...back on the wagon we go
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I would freak out as well but I am sure the majority can be flushed out......Get on the wagon and look to the future not the past!!! 1
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I about had a damn heart attack when I saw my weight this morning. Good grief...
I was expecting maybe 10lbs up, not flipping 20 though.
Lol... that would be great if 15 dropped this week :P I'm gonna try my best to make that happen at least lol.0 -
Made it to 2pm before eating.
Probably had about 1500 calories which isn't too bad.
I expect my hunger to be pretty high this week while my body gets adjusted again.
I had some left over steak in a sad sad salad b/c all of our salad stuff was moldy :P lol oops. Salad was steak, ham cubes, pimento cheese, romaine lettuce, broccoli, 2 hard boiled eggs with ranch dressing.
Ate a bit early but got hungry again so had a much smaller salad when I got home with the 2 hard boiled eggs that were left over
I also broke my fast with some pork rinds. I'll probably buy more coffee next week, but taking this week to keep away from it b/c lordy do I want some in the morning! :P0 -
Cheering you on, girl📣👍❤️ Good job on making until 2pm before eating👍1
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Way to stay strong!1
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176 something on the scale this morning. At least it wasn't in the 180s still.
Yeesh.... I still can't believe my weight went up that much.
Just gotta take it as a learning experience and keep going.
My aim is for 3pm every day but if I only make it until 2 then that's fine too. Not going to beat myself up over 1 hour.
Can feel today is going to be rough though. Woke up with a headache and a little hungry.0 -
Some green tea might help with the headaches AND the hunger...I'd expect to shed a solid 4-5 again today and then it might inch down to 3 then 2 etc...but you've got a LOT of salt and glycogen to get out At least the daily losses are encouraging! 1
