May/June BED Conversation Thread

Last day of the month. I hope everyone had a pleasant and relaxing weekend.

As I mentioned on my newsfeed, I'm feeling very positive about a fresh start beginning today. I have the first of 24 personal training sessions scheduled for this evening and I am determined to log my food openly & honestly for the entire month of May. Mentally & physically, I have got to get back in the zone!

Does anyone else have any goals for May?

I am still thinking on this one Diane. Right now I am really un motivated but trying to get my MOJO back.....

Mollie - your goal of 500+ cals burned per workout is an excellent goal!

Mollie - your goal of 500+ cals burned per workout is an excellent goal!

Thanks but I really need to make a goal related to food since this is my problem area

I am already consistent with the exercise but my goal is to get more consistent with food. :blushing: :sad:

Sadly I have been not doing great for months now. But I decided enough is enough and no more eating all day long. Eating everything in sight is such a terrible waste of my life. Sadly today I did eat a whole bag of Cheetos crunchy cheeses. Tomorrow I am going to begin my journey once again on MFP. If and when I slip up I promise myself not to make it a full day of eating everything I can get my hands on and into my mouth - just make a slip up and begin my next meal healthy. NO MORE FULL DAYS OF NOT CARING ABOUT MYSELF. We can do this.

Mollie - your goal of 500+ cals burned per workout is an excellent goal!

Thanks but I really need to make a goal related to food since this is my problem area

I am already consistent with the exercise but my goal is to get more consistent with food. :blushing: :sad:

I know you can beat this Mollie

Set yourself a challenge and you can do it. :smooched:

amberwren

Hi All,
New here, but not to MFP. I lose a few lbs and binge a week before coming right back. I have never talked about my binging or fully admitted to someone how much ive eaten (5 chic chip cookies yesterday eek!) I hoping to get things under control and make May a binge-free month. I have a big weekend planned for the 4th of July and I want to feel good..not fat and bloated.

specialkyc

Hi everyone,

I'm fairly new to the group and MFP. I have had major issues with binge eating over the last couple of months. I finally looked at myself in the mirror and realized how disgusted I am with myself. I have to figure out how to occupy myself when the urge arises to binge. I have, as of yesterday, started going to the Y to work out and am eating a little better.

Hope we can all help keep eachother on track.

Hello, Good Morning, I'm so excited to hear from some new people. Thanks for being here!

Remembering what we have already accomplished is something we struggle to do when we feal defeated. That hopeless feeling is terrible, why do we immediately go there? Why is it so easy to forget what we have done well and what we have succeeded in? And why is it so easy to remember all the things we feel we did wrong? Because that is what we have practiced. Those are the behavior patterns we have had for too long. People w/ EDs are notorious for catastrophizing. We do not know how to deal with grey, only black & white. So when things are good, they're good, but when they're bad, they are a catastrophy. We use extreme words like always and never and can't and hopeless. Why is it so hard to look at the big picture instead of focusing on individual situations that we are struggling with? We are doing right by taking it day by day, but when we are frustrated we must force ourselves to remember where we started, and how far we have come. We need to practice new behavior and that includes remembering our positive attributes.

rainydayboys

Ugh. In the last hour, I've eaten 3 raisin rolls, a whole tube of Pringles chips and a King Size Reese's Peanut Butter cups package. This is so not cool.

Hi Rainy! - are you stressed about something? What's going on in your life right now? Maybe sharing with us will help get it off your chest.

rainydayboys

Stressed about finances, my relationship with hubby, work, everything. My youngest has a chest cold and I've ended up sleeping in his room for the last 3 nights and that means I don't really sleep. I'm exhausted and have deadlines and people counting on me and so I allow myself to be comforted with very poor food choices.

BUT to make up for it, I did just hop on the treadmill this afternoon for the first time in a few months. And if I didn't have to hop in the shower right now before heading out to pick up my boys, I would be logging everything I ate today. Have to get back on it and start putting myself first. That's a whole mile out of my comfort zone, but I need to do it.

Sounds like you are already getting back on the right track - great job on the treadmill today! I can totally relate to not filling out my diary - as of this past Monday I am back at it though and have a goal to finish it every day for the entire month of May. So far, so good.

Sounds like you are already getting back on the right track - great job on the treadmill today! I can totally relate to not filling out my diary - as of this past Monday I am back at it though and have a goal to finish it every day for the entire month of May. So far, so good.

Great goal you set out for yourself. I know you can do this. I know this can only help you along your weightloss fight. I only just started once again yesterday and did great all day but then I slipped and ate way too much at midnight. Back at err today and doing good. Crossing fingers I will not make the same mistake tonight.

Thanks Linda! I am trying to get back on track.

Welcome new ones!

Thanks everyone for sharing.

I did OK today. No binges so far. I had a good workout today too. I have been logging also just not on MFP.

One day at a time.:flowerforyou:

:flowerforyou:

richardsrm

just a drive by:blushing: will catch up with one and all later. Richie

FollowThatUnicorn

I haven't purged since I last posted on here the week before last, I think. I haven't really binged this week, just ate pure crap. I'm back up into the 170's.

I just don't get why I can't just eat healthy meals in moderation.

I also don't understand why I can't go to the gym. I am so lazy and I just want to sit around and watch tv all night but yet I complain that I am fat. I don't know how to punch myself in the brain to make myself move and work out and eat better. I guess people call this motivation? All I know is I have none and I don't know how to get it.

Good Morning Everyone and thank you for your continued support!

I always thought motivation was something I would get, that it would be something given to me - and the reason I didn't have any was because I hadn't received it yet. I have now learned that motivation is actually something we have to create for ourselves. It was a difficult concept for me to grasp, mostly because - Hello? Wouldn't I have created it already if it was up to me? The behavior therapist challenged me to the following exercise:

On one side of an index card, write 5 reasons you want to end your ED behavior.
On the other side, write 5 consequences of your ED behavior.
Keep this with you. Read often.

This is creating motivation. And we've really had it all along, but it is easily forgotten.

FollowThatUnicorn

On one side of an index card, write 5 reasons you want to end your ED behavior.
On the other side, write 5 consequences of your ED behavior.
Keep this with you. Read often.

I will have to do this.

Good Morning Everyone and thank you for your continued support!

I always thought motivation was something I would get, that it would be something given to me - and the reason I didn't have any was because I hadn't received it yet. I have now learned that motivation is actually something we have to create for ourselves. It was a difficult concept for me to grasp, mostly because - Hello? Wouldn't I have created it already if it was up to me? The behavior therapist challenged me to the following exercise:

On one side of an index card, write 5 reasons you want to end your ED behavior.
On the other side, write 5 consequences of your ED behavior.
Keep this with you. Read often.

This is creating motivation. And we've really had it all along, but it is easily forgotten.

THANK YOU, THANK YOU FOR THIS!!

I will do this over the weekend!

WalkingGirl1985

Hey everyone, April was a tough month for me..especially when I got word on 4/25 that I passed my GED. I went on a happy binge. Since then, I'd say I had ongoing binges and getting in celebration mode. I don't have money to get clothes, get my nails and hair done or anything like that..so i use my food stamps and get food to binge on..ugh! I feel awful! Last night I binged pretty bad..early this morning, I got sick and threw it up and the damage was gone. Not the way i wanted to get rid of it, but was happy to have it relieve the guilt. This month, I'm trying to do better, trying to take one day at a time. I finally have some Sugar free gum, so hope that helps.

In America, celebrations are always accompanied by food, aren't they? Culturally, this is just the way we are and what we have grown up with and learned how to be all these years. It is a very difficult behavior to change, especially with external factors inhibiting our efforts. In other countries, celebrations are not centered around food. I wonder what that would be like.

So, it's pretty hard to just take away the celebratory food, especially if there isn't anything to take its place. If you don't have money for personal gifts or pampering, this can be exceptionally tough.

I will treat myself with treat food sometimes still, but regret it if it leads to a binge. So, instead of treat food as I'm used to, I will go to the grocery store and treat myself to healthy food. Maybe it is something I've been wanting to try but it is kinda expensive or I'm not sure if I will like it.

I will treat myself with treat food sometimes still, but regret it if it leads to a binge. So, instead of treat food as I'm used to, I will go to the grocery store and treat myself to healthy food. Maybe it is something I've been wanting to try but it is kinda expensive or I'm not sure if I will like it.

I do this also Diane. Today for instance I have been getting bad strawberries and I know the organic ones is always wonderful, so today I brought me 2 pounds of GOOD strawberries that I will eat and I love them. They are going to be my go to food this weekend.

My sister always remind me when I don't want to pay for healthier choices that I like that look at the money you used to spend on junk food so why can't you do it for food that is good for you. So I have been spending a little more on foods that are good for me, especially the ones I like.

It was a rough weekend. Very stressful. Very emotional. I did my best to allow myself to feel those emotions.

Ready for a new week!

How about y'all?

good job on letting yourself feel the feelings.

Same here Diane. I am ready to jump start myself today. Binged bad last night. On a good note it was raining and I could not go to get fast food so I had to binge on healthier options. Believe me at midnight I was having bad urges to get in my car and go to all night fast food joint. :grumble:

Saturday it was not raining and I fought the urge to order food in. As the evening went on I drunk water and ate strawberries.

Today I am feeling better and putting the weekend behind me.:flowerforyou:

I really hate the question, "How was your weekend?"

How come the first thing I think of when I am asked how was your weekend is how lousy I did w/ my ED behavior? My weekend had more going on than just bad food decisions. My weekend was bad because I binged? "Normal" people don't associate food behavior w/ overall weekend contentness, right? Normal people don't say "Oh my weekend sucked cuz I ate too much candy." I'm just hating how my world and thought processes revolve around food behavior. Ok, vent over. Thanks for listening.

jennifer_417

I've not been doing well... consistently 100's of cals over my daily goal, even after I tweaked it and moved my daily goal up....plus, had a rough couple days this week and went crazy with snacking...my main focus has been "not quitting," and I haven't, which is good, but at some point I need to suck it up and actually make some progress.

Uggggg I just ate way too much and it was all unhealthy. Been doing so good for almost a week now.

I just wanted to ask if anyone else has a triger like this. Everytime I step on the scale after a week or so of I will use the word "Dieting" and the scale shows a few pound lose. My brain seems to think it is ok to binge that night!!! It seems like I do this everytime I lose a few pounds. Am I alone? Or does this trigger some of you also?

I need to figure out how NOT to do this anymore. Anyone else have any thoughts on this?

richardsrm

:flowerforyou: Mama, the scale triggers me too. Low self esteem not really sure why I deserve to be healthy. I am also triggered by work stress, practically anything........ I did well until I got home sunday and then sat in the chair and trolled around the kitchen.......very bad. But I also on the flip side worked in the garden for hours. rode a bike .... camped under the big moon. So every waking moment wasn't consumed by my problem. I need to make up my meals tonight so I have more control and no excuse to troll. Thanks for this thread. Will get the frozen food items out now so I can make my meals when I get home from work. Love ya
Richie

I really hate the question, "How was your weekend?"

How come the first thing I think of when I am asked how was your weekend is how lousy I did w/ my ED behavior? My weekend had more going on than just bad food decisions. My weekend was bad because I binged? "Normal" people don't associate food behavior w/ overall weekend contentness, right? Normal people don't say "Oh my weekend sucked cuz I ate too much candy." I'm just hating how my world and thought processes revolve around food behavior. Ok, vent over. Thanks for listening.

that is what we are here for Diane. Vent away. That is a new spin though and I guess I never thought of it as this. I like being busy on weekends so BED is not an issue.