Lots of activity this weekend! Getting a little tired of the limited variety of food, but it's not much longer now...

The pisser is, my stomach skin is just shredded, in the bad sense of the word. Two pregnancies with huge weight gain, I have about 5 lbs of loose skin on my belly. The lower my weight goes, the more obvious it becomes. The belly skin just doesn't "match" the rest of my body, it's all wrinkly and elephanty. So even though I am slim enough now to wear a bikini, I probably won't because it just invites people into my business a little too much, if that makes sense. I don't want people looking at it. Big sigh. :sad:

I have been back and forthing about whether I will be ready to stop when I hit 135. I think I "could" go lower, but for my sanity I need to maintain there for awhile. Yesterday was a gorgeous sunny day, I was hanging out with the family on the deck, and I couldn't even have a light beer or share in the ice cream or have corn on the cob because I am on this rigid program. I am tired of that, I want to and deserve to live a little. This is not rebellion talking, because I am not using this rationale to go out and blow my diet. I will stick with it. But dangit I want to enjoy the summer. And that means watermelon, beer, the occasional slurpee or freezee. Maintenance. Pleasure.:drinker: That will be my mission soon enough, to enjoy without gaining.

C'mon 2.8 lbs to go!!!!

My rules for myself are as follows:
30-60 minutes exercise per day
Induction menu, under 20g net carbs, over 100g protein, 1350 cals gross MFP goal. (gonna stop logging exercise for awhile)


Highest weight: 215 pregnant
C1 Starting Weight: 145.8-140.8=5 lbs lost
C2? Start 140.8-142.6=1.8 lbs gained
C1B Starting Weight: 142.6
C1B Goal Weight: 135!!!!!

MY LAST 40 DAYS: (splitting into my summer challenge WI weeks)

Week 1
start 04/22-143.4
End- 7-04/28 goal 140- 139.2 weekly goal reached!

8-04/29- 139.0
14-05/5 goal 139- 137.8 weekly goal surpassed!

15-05/6-137.8
16-05/7
17-05/8
18-05/9
19-05/10
20-05/11
21-05/12 goal 138

22-05/13
23-05/14
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28-05/19 goal 137

29-05/20
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35-05/26 goal 136

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40-05/31 goal 135
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Funny. I allowed myself some yogurt yesterday and it didn't even taste that good, had to kinda choke it down. My skin looks fantastic by the way. Whatever I am not eating right now is really working for me. Wish I knew what. Nothing bothers my tummy and that's always the clue.

I ate 4 turkey franks for dinner last night. Full of sodium and nitrites, basically junk food, although they were from the farmers market where we get our meat. I had huge pillow creases in my face this morning, lol, retaining water like mad! It always goes to my face. I'm like a face camel.

Did yoga last night and pilates. Almost got my heels to the mat in down dog!
And this is TMI but I haven't pooped in days lmao.

Oh patience patience patience.....

My rules for myself are as follows:
30-60 minutes exercise per day
Induction menu, under 20g net carbs, over 100g protein, 1350 cals gross MFP goal. (gonna stop logging exercise for awhile)


Highest weight: 215 pregnant
C1 Starting Weight: 145.8-140.8=5 lbs lost
C2? Start 140.8-142.6=1.8 lbs gained
C1B Starting Weight: 142.6
C1B Goal Weight: 135!!!!!

MY LAST 40 DAYS: (splitting into my summer challenge WI weeks)

Week 1
start 04/22-143.4
End- 7-04/28 goal 140- 139.2 weekly goal reached!

8-04/29- 139.0
14-05/5 goal 139- 137.8 weekly goal surpassed!

15-05/6-137.8
16-05/7-138.6 :huh:
17-05/8-138.2 camel.
18-05/9
19-05/10
20-05/11
21-05/12 goal 138

22-05/13
23-05/14
24-05/15
25-05/16
26-05/17
27-05/18
28-05/19 goal 137

29-05/20
30-05/21
31-05/22
32-05/23
33-05/24
34-05/25
35-05/26 goal 136

36-05/27
37-05/28
38-05/29
39-05/30
40-05/31 goal 135
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Hi Guys (if anyone is still reading this lol)

After spending 5 days in a dark room healing, I had lots of time to think. This struggle for the last five pounds is killing my soul. The length of self-deprivation, weird food rules, and general osbsessiveness I have to go to to get there is simply...not worth it. I am feeling pretty good in my body, and I am never going to be a runway model, not do I strive to be one. i am still into fitness and eating well, but I need to back off from the obsessiveness. I am missing out on a whole glorious world out there because I am letting this weight loss goal dominate my thoughts. It's just not healthy for me. I am almost effortlessly maintaining 140-142 without tracking. Let's bleeping face it, this is a set point for me lol.
Maybe when we go to Hawaii in the fall I will take another run at it, who knows, but for now I want to move on to other things! So I'll be around, but not daily tracking. Gonna eat some granola and drink some wine!:drinker:
Thanks everyone for their support
XO



Highest weight: 215 pregnant
C1 Starting Weight: 145.8-140.8=5 lbs lost
C2? Start 140.8-142.6=1.8 lbs gained
C1B Starting Weight: 142.6
C1B Goal Weight: 135!!!!!

MY LAST 40 DAYS: (splitting into my summer challenge WI weeks)

Week 1
start 04/22-143.4
End- 7-04/28 goal 140- 139.2 weekly goal reached!

8-04/29- 139.0
14-05/5 goal 139- 137.8 weekly goal surpassed!

15-05/6-137.8
16-05/7-138.6 :huh:
17-05/8-138.2 camel.
18-05/9-137.2 apparently vodka agrees with me!
19-05/10-eyes
20-05/11-eyes
21-05/12 -eyes

22-05/13-eyes
23-05/14-eyes
24-05/15-eyes
25-05/16-141.4

Wow, reading back through this thread is difficult. What a struggle it is. What a high it is when it works. What a low it is when you don't get the results you want. How could I go through all that and then just gain it back? Easy, you know it is, a couple of glasses of wine here, some chips there, no workouts for a few weeks. Damn.
So how do I take another run at this? What do I do differently? One of the things that started happening is I went harder and harder as the results slowed down. But really even being 141 felt so much better than 145 does now. Problem is, how do I allow myself the occasional indulgence so I don't feel deprived, without it turning into weeks? I am not sure, all I know is I am not done this journey yet.

Today was a challenge but I feel better already cutting some carbs back.

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Thanks ctroni! Great job on getting under 200, sometimes those milestone weights can be the toughest to beat and you did it! Thanks for the support!

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Glad to have another buddy! Thanks for the nice things you said :-)

I have to say checking in every day is really key, it helps keep track of the ups and downs. Most important for me is realizing why I fell off the wagon when I was so close, and this record is an important piece of information.
When you look back at it you can't help but thing "oh no, she was so close, why did she give up?" lol. But let me tell you, I was super-restrictive for over a month, I was not doing social things because I was avoiding temptation, I was eating food that quite frankly I didn't enjoy (this is the super low carb phase we are talking about) and I felt like I wasn't having any fun. Life is too short not to have fun.
I think what happened is I started getting too strict, too gung ho, for too long. Then when I had my eye surgery, I couldn't work out or really function well, and couldn't see to log in, then a week later I sprained my toe and so the workouts took another nosedive, and by then the food was well off track. In other words, life happens lol.
So this time, I am taking it a little slower, trying for a loss of 2.5 lbs per month, which should get me to my 10 lb goal in 4 months. Slow? Yes! But I am eating around 1400 cals per day, and allowing myself some cycle 2/3 foods, and for me to be honest this is sustainable for 4 months, this is not suffering or dieting, just eating really well. It is the summer so I will allow myself some light beer or wine from time to time as well.

1-jul2-146.6 ugh!!!!
2-jul3-same
3-jul4-143.8!
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I am so impatient!!!!!!!!
I wanna lose weight NOW! LOL there that's my little tantrum.
The scale hasn't dropped yet, even though I feel like I have been an angel. But if I am really honest it has only been Tuesday-Friday that I have been sticking to the plan, so I need to give it more time. Like you I am striving for balance- I was really proud of myself that I managed to work a light beer and some pistachios in the evening into my calorie allowance. Would I lose faster if I cut out alcohol and nuts? Probably. Would I last 4 months on this? Probably not. I have a huge family thing on the 13th and I will be having wine!
The good news: I stuck to 1200 net this week, got a workout in every day, ate 10 fruits and veg per day which is unheard of. Didn't feel like I was dieting at all, felt like I could keep it up forever.

Wow 20 cups of water a day that's awesome! I love your rebellious attitude, 17dd is perfect for you then cause you don't have to log. Here's to a good weekend. I am going to fit in yoga plus insanity today, because we have a BBQ dinner and I want to earn some extra calories.

1-jul2-146.6 ugh!!!!
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3-jul4-143.8!
4-jul5-144.8 corrected got my days wrong
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Ok, ok, ok. This weekend may not have been the best time to start! Sheesh...I have been out and about since Friday and have not had a good day YET! I could have made time by sacrificing those events to get my food together and done but I'll be honest and say that I wanted to just chill out since my mother in law has the kids for the week. That means date nights and quality time with the hubs to do whatever. But this horse isn't dead bc EVERYTIME I wake up in the morning I know supposed to complete this cycle and I will. I will do this! So today I'm going to prepare all my meals and get everything in order bc this will e the beginning of my success with this.

I was going to write exactly this, but you put it so perfectly I am jus copying and pasting! I feel like I have had a bit of a false start, can we just agree to start fresh?

Yah having a good day!!!!