Hi there,

My name is Krista and I'm from Toronto, Canada. I have suffered from various eating disorders for most of my life. I was diagnosed with anorexia (purging type) when I was 15 but have been through it all, from anorexia to bulimia. I am currently at the high end of normal BMI-wise and am on the road to proper eating and normal, non-obsessive-compulsive exercise.

I had some trepidation joining myfitnesspal as I have been in counselling with doctors and dieticians throughout my life (I am 36 years old) and all have advised against calorie-counting; however, I am now at a point in my recovery at which the numbers do not harm me emotionally.

I also join this group with some trepidation. One of the first threads that was recently updated and caught my eye is called "Thinspo." I have been hospitalized on several occasions throughout my life, and this is not a topic one usually discusses when looking for support or in recovery. I personally believe that people in recovery should focus on the positive - not our shame - if we truly want to recover. It also appears that I am much older than most of the women on here, which makes me wonder how relevant to me the topics will be. At any rate, while my time in this group may be short-lived, I will certainly do my best to share both my past and current experiences in order to support everyone.

All the best to you, at whatever stage in recovery you may be...

Krista

Hi, I'm Maddie and live on the California coast. I've been battling anorexia since I was 18...I'm 25 now. I was healed for a good 3 years, but in recent months it has started creeping back because of life events. I have a wonderful job in marketing and I start my Masters in Business this April and I can't mess it up.

I'm really trying hard to fight against it fully taking over my life...I try to at least cook and not think about the calories once a day for my husbands sake. I'm currently around 130...want to be back to 115, but not do it obsessively. I try to just watch portions, work out in moderation and not drink. When I drink when I lose weight, its bad news. I'm replacing it with tea or coffee!

I start therapy in March, so I'm really trying to be responsible. I'm glad I found this group

Hi everyone. I'm Monika, and I'm 27. I've had my ED (ana/orthorexia and compulsive over-exercising) for around 14 years. I've been in a few inpatient programs and am on medication to treat depression as well. I am new to MFP and using it to make sure my caloric intake is where it needs to be, as well as help me to keep track of my exercise and make sure that I'm not overdoing it. Most of all, it's an accountability thing, because I'm really tired of the rollercoaster of recovery vs. relapse.

Anywho, if you'd like to add me as a friend, I'd really like that! I think it might be nice to have some people around that understand how I feel/think.

I'm Mandy, 16 yo. Struggling with anorexic but mostly bulimic tendencies because it goes undetected. Now I'm trying to be healthy and just be happy with my body, but that's much easier said than done. I'm not even sure how a "normal person" eats, but I'm so tired of having this phobia of calories and pounds. Searching for help, fighting day by day. Nice to meet y'all!

hi everyone my name is angie. i am 27 years old. i live in the northern part of Wisconsin. i was diagnosed with ednos 10 years ago. been dealing with weight/ body issues all my life. i am also deal with depression, social anxiety and borderline personality disorder. been in recovery and really trying for the past 4 months. looking for some ppl that understand what its like dealing with this day to day. i am very good at giving advice and support just not very good at asking for it when i need it, but i am working on it. so please add me

I am 16 Years old (girl) and I have been struggling with my eating disorder for about a year. It all started out from peolple calling me fat. I am trying to get better on my own because my family can't afford treatment and we do not have insurance. I really want to recover, but it is really hard. I am 5'3" and weigh 106 lbs up from 95 at my lowest. Even though I have gaindd I know I am still not recovered because I still have the same thoughts in my mind. The doctor told me I wkn't be recovered until I get my period back which hasn't been in like 6 or 7 months. I'm glad that there is a support group on here for this because there are some days that I really don't think I can do this but I am trying my best

24 years old, first diagnosed when I was 17. In and out of treatment/recovery. College graduate. Vegan. Currently struggling with restriction, though I have a history of heavy purging. Always looking for new friends<3

My name is Michelle and I started my binge journey when I was 18 years old. Fortunately for me the journey ended when I was about 29 years old. An ex stressed me out and made me feel useless, along with other stresses in my life when I was 18, which started me on that horrendous 11 year stint of spending a lot of money on food, just to physically injure myself getting rid of it within 20 minutes or until I felt my stomach would burst.

Now at 38 years old, I am strong willed, strong minded, confident (sometimes overly) and I work out in a healthy way and have not binged for about 10 or so years. Sometimes it's a struggle because food will always be there. Fast food, greasy food, cheap food, but I have found healthier ways of "Controlling" my stress without tearing up my esophagus. losing my hair or having a bloated face.

I am lucky to have the support of my partner, who I have been with for the past 8 years and the joy of raising a 1 year old son. My reason for trying to maintain being healthy is for them. I hope you all have found or are in the midst of finding your rock(s) of support.

Michelle

Hello, my name is Hana, I'm on here again with a new account trying to work out my issues with food. EDNOS with a tendency towards BED, but its more of a starve and binge cycle of hell. I have a tumblr too (triggering ) and I'm on here to work on what I consume and to try to give myself some order in the chaos. I'm currently in my freshman year of college in DC so if you would like a support buddy, I got chuuuuu.

Hi My Name is Nikitsa and I have battled ED since grade 9 . I am now 37 years old and still battling. I have tried every method of therapy, diet plan, food Aholics anonymous and every spiritual self help you can imagine. Nothing helps, nothing works. I am lost in my mind, confused with no hope of ever defeating Ed. Food aholics say a diet plan is set up for failure. That you must abstain from sugar flour and wheat if you want to avoid a binge. Abstaining makes me binge but eating food makes me binge too. My core belief is calories in, calories out, end of story. No deprivation just moderation. Other therapies say this is impossible if you are a food addict, you must stay away from trigger food and cannot do this alone. Other therapies say moderation and balance is the only way. I am so lost...please share your thoughts with me. Today is day one of my Fitness Pal. Please let me know your thoughts...