Hi everyone and happy Wednesday!!

I love the Vision Board goal - I often put stuff like that together and have a magnetic board that I blutack pictures and saying to - or I make up a big cardboard one and glue stuff all over it. Then I move it around the apartment depending where I am or if I've got people coming over it goes quickly under the bed!!

Its a really good thing to prop up in front of the TV so if you are tempted for late night snacks, you look at the board and remember WHY you are doing this.

I'm still feeling a bit "bleugh" today after my huge calorie intake on the weekend, still having a few gut issues from the wheat overdose - I really need to stop binge eating... I've been listening to Brene Brown "The Power of Vulnerability" this week and today I got to the part on "numbing". Yep, that is me. I binge to NUMB out the feeling of vulnerability and then I don't have to feel it.

Sailing the ship of Avoidance down the river of Denial!!!

So I'm really going to concentrate on this - facing my fears and doing it anyway. A lot of it for me is to do with love and self worth (baggage from past relationships) and Emma I've had my fair share of therapy too, I think we ALL should have therapy and a safe place to say whatever the hell we want without being judged.

Anyway, this all translates into the whole binge/purge cycle and yo-yo dieting for me. Granted, I've gone from yo-yoing up and down 40kg to now up and down 3-4kg, but the same triggers and emotions are still there.

My 12 week challenge is about getting a handle on that sort of stuff too. And finally getting to a place where I can just maintain within 1-2 kilos and stop feeling like I need to be perfect all the time.

So today's mantra for me is this:

I am worthy of love and belonging. I am imperfect but lovable.

I am developing clean eating and consistent exercise habits that are so ingrained into my lifestyle that they stay with me for the rest of my life.

Hope you all have a terrific day

Emma!!! You are a superstar!! How did you put the photos in your Intro post???? I've been trying and can't seem to get it right. Shannan did it too... I need help

LOL at the censorship - I'm keeping it clean (at present), but I can certainly be a bit of a potty mouth!

Terri, have a great time in Tamworth, I've been there...

Zen, welcome to the group - loving your long term goals. You can do it, going well so far!

Gemma - I tend to eat, overeat, when exhausted too. And it's usually carby things like bread that I don't normally eat. I think that is what happened to me on the weekend, I was SO tired on Sunday night I just sat down with a Vienna loaf and butter and ate it. Didn't care, just ate it. *sigh* Need to stop doing that.

Mungo, that's awesome news! Sooner the better!!

Morning all!!

Terri, have fun away! I've NEVER been to Tamworth, guess I missed a word earlier. It makes me think of country music for some reason. As for your iPhone, I've got the 4, waiting for my new 5s to arrive any day now, I ordered it last week but they sent me a 16GB by mistake so I had to send it back... Anyway, I use the EASYNOTE App for lots of things, it syncs to my iPad and Dropbox as well. You can set up reminders and it will pop up on your screen at the allocated time.

You could also put a motivational picture or saying on your wallpaper so every time you look at your phone it's in the background.

Donna, good luck going back to work. Try the Pump class, but use just the bar or very low weight. It's best to get your form correct first, and then add weight, so you don't injure yourself. Besides, it's purpose is high rep, low weight. Spin can be like that, I was much the same in my first class last year, I thought I was going to pass out in the first 10 minutes, but just pulled back and didn't go so hard for the rest of the class. It's all a progression, if you tried it now, I'm sure you would be much better at it.

Bronco!!! LOL!!! I eat a lot of protein and I'm happy to say it doesn't smell unless I've had a lot of wheat! and then I'm in trouble for lots of eras is with gas and bloating and diarrhoea. Ugh. Maybe your body does need to adjust a bit, not sure, I think we are all different in that area.

Merse, it's hard to focus when you aren't feeling well. Sleep is really important for recovery, so maybe have time off the early gym starts and just focus on getting well this week, have a good weekend for your anniversary and start afresh next week. It doesn't have to be a total write off, but don't push yourself so you are sick for another week on top of this one.

Candi, happy anniversary to you also!! Hope your sister is ok, family troubles like that usually lead to overeating with me too. But on the flip side, how good is it that your body doesn't like it anymore. I think you are doing really well, keep up the good work!

Danielle, ah YEAH!!! Of course!!! Totally!!! Sign me up for that class, I bet it's full every week. With women. Hope you have a good day back at work.

Emma, thanks for the photo thread, I had tried to find it, I knew it existed, but my search was turning up other useless threads. I'll give that a go on the weekend. Must be really hard being out of work, something will come up eventually I'm sure. In the meantime, would you change directions and look for something casual until another library job turns up?

Sweet, hi! It's so bloody humid today, not hot in Sydney but oh so sticky. Ugh.


I didn't go to the gym this morning due to a late night last night and I need my sleep, so I slept in until 6am.

I must say, while it's great having new boyfriend ... If I can call an almost 53 year old man a boyfriend ... It's not good for my routine. I'm either up late talking on the phone, or he comes over, or we go out on weekends and it's not HIS fault, because he always tells me to go to bed and sleep and he's got to be one of the most considerate and thoughtful people on the face of the planet. It's ME. I can't seem to switch off so easily anymore.

Plus I've stopped being so obsessive over every little thing I eat. Which, let's face it. Is a GOOD thing. I think I feel a little bit lost with my weekly goals. I'm still reading my 12 week goals every day, and yes, I still want them but maybe I need to change my daily and weekly goals a bit, because I am certainly not doing very well with them!!!

I'll never give up though. I just need to change things a little bit. Maybe increase calories to 1700 and accept a slower weight loss (still up on the scales from Christmas) and also do 3 x full body weights a week rather than a 4 day split. I'll have a think about this today.

A bit sad about Xena, does anyone know if someone deactivates, can they come back under the same user name, or is that over and done with for good and you come back with a new name? Only asking because I don't want to delete her as a friend if she comes back I won't be on her list. It's a shame, I don't know why she deactivated, but I hope she doesn't give up her quest.

Right, so I better get to work, currently sitting in QVB coffee shop and the big clock just struck 9am... I fell like Cinderella having to run off and get to work on time. Ok, I'm late already. LOL!!

Hope everyone has a great day!!

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