Binge Eating Support Group Conversation Thread - 2015
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Hi there. I've been on MFP for years, recognizing slightly but not quite understanding my disordered eating. I had joined this group a few months back but have not been motivated to address the issue. However, I am here today hoping to find the strength to do just that.
I am a roller coaster and right now, I am on the slow climb back towards healthy. I have put on approximately 15lbs since June when my binging started becoming a weekly (sometimes, and more recently, multiple times weekly) occurrence. I couldn't tell you why, the trigger, or any reason. I just know in reflecting back that is the point where I went downhill.
I have reviewed local services and have not found anything available in this rural area. I will continue to try and learn more through internet research and reading. However, I realize that just reading and attempting to understand BED will not help me towards recovery. I need to find support and to acknowledge that I am not alone.
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I'm glad I found this page it's hard to find anywhere to talk about this. I kind of feel like I need a place like 12 steps only for eating. I feel like every food I put in my mouth is going to trip me up lately. The only reason I've had a few days under my belt from a recent long binge is because this month I had to spend most of my food budget on my animal that got hurt(although this is stressing me out a little to be honest) so I won't be able to have as much food which could be a good thing but that won't totally stop me I know. The reason I just popped on here mostly is because I just ate something that I recognized thankfully it was a form of potato salad and I said to myself it feels like crack in food form (or at least I'm going to guess). I kept going back for another bite. I didn't get too carried away but the fact that I felt like I couldn't keep away from it or even be in the kitchen was starting to scare me. I am thankful that I saw the sign for once beforehand instead of afterwards. I also know that I use food to boost endorphins like when I'm bored or just want to feel good and I'm realizing I need to look somewhere else for this.0
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I thought this video was pretty powerful, so I thought I would share, especially for those of us that can trace our binge eating to body image problems. http://greatist.com/discover/fat-is-not-a-feeling-video0
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I had joined this group months ago, but was too afraid to post...lest i out myself and my ED. I really can't remember a time in my life where food wasn't an issue...and binging not an option. Sad when i think of times when i was "in control" and realize that while i was probably suffering from anorexia, i found it easier to deal with then my current state of binge/restrict. Thank you for listening. I wish you all strength in your struggle today and every day
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Welcome Boxinggrrrl. Come out from the shadows, we don't bite We are all here for the same thing.
Last nights binge: I came home hungry, I knew my appetite was huge. It was cold and snowing. Running outside probably not an option tonight. I started to try to tame the appetite by eating broccoli and salad. Then I ate blueberries. Then it hit. But it was different. This time, I didnt feel overwhelmed, and I wasnt out of control. The CBT-E says to log everything, but I didnt listen to this training. I allowed the binge to happen, it did not control me. I was unpleasantly full, but not in pain. I went to bed. The binge didnt continue through the night ( a problem for me ). I woke up at 4 am to go to work. I dont feel ashamed today. I'm not in denial - it happened, and I went back to CBT-E log and logged all I remember. There wont be any restriction or purge activity today. There wont be an "All or Nothing" excuse. I am moving on right here and right now. I ate breakfast. Today is a new day.0 -
Good for you! Sounds like you are turning a corner...i find the feeling of being in control is key with me to stop, or accept a binge and move on. It is only when i feel helpless or out of control that the binge takes on a life of its own, even if it is a small one. Hope you have a positive day 0
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I just wanted to share a victory from today.
I was faced with a special event this afternoon where one of my trigger foods (a specific dessert) was put in front of me for the first time since I began facing BED. I decided to eat 4 of them since it's been almost a year since I had had any which is way more than any person should eat, but here's the kicker. I felt fully in control of every single one and consciously made the choice to eat the next one. I managed to overeat BUT to my satisfaction without loss of control and there really isn't much guilt right now at all. I probably won't ever eat four of these food items at once again (hopefully but I'm not stopping myself if I TRULY want to) but since I've been restricting for so long, it just felt right.
Victory. Screw you binge.0 -
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Great job Ryan!
Each month is getting better for me than the last. Let's hope great progress for April!0 -
Good job, Ryan! You're an inspiration!0
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I want to thank every single person here for all the support you've provided me though this! You have no idea how much y'all mean to me, even if we've never met in real life. I've always known that tracking my calories has been the cause of my guilt and binging, so I deactivated my MyFitnessPal account....but I can still comment on the forums for some reason at the moment even though I don't have access to anything else. I'm assuming once I clear my cookies/delete my internet history, I won't be able to do this anymore, so I just wanted to wish you all the best of luck with this journey and to leave you with a quote.
"In order to succeed, we must first believe that we can."
Y'all rock. Good luck, and God bless!0 -
Good luck Ryan! Keep up the great work 0
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Aww it will be sad not to see you around but best of luck!! You have definitely helped and inspired many people on here! Keep being awesome!0
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God bless you Ryan, I wish you great health!0
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Great to see some positivity! Good for you Ryan! I hope the rest of you had a wonderful Easter and got though all the temptation that comes about this time of year. Remember just because its on sale doesn't mean you should buy it!0
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Hello everybody, I'm so happy to find you all, I have known for a long time there was something very wrong with my eating habits which have got progressively worse in the last year, I can eat a bag full of food amounting to thousands of calories to the point I feel very sick and then feel terrible about it afterwards I seem to be bingeing more and more at the moment as I've got quite a lot of stress in my life at the moment, but that is no excuse, I need to look after my body and my health not just for me but for my family, I'm determined to get this under control, please feel free to add me as I'd love to know you all.0
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I just finished Overcoming Binge Eating by Dr. Christoper Fairburn. Very interesting. The program sounds like a lot of work but probably worth it. Has anyone tried the program?0
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Just going to jump in here. I currently feel so lost. I'm not even sure this is where I belong. Most of my binge behaviors have diminished in recent months, but food is not my only compulsion, it can literally be anything. MFP is one I seem to use as an avoidance technique sometimes, even. I hear the siren song of a food, sometimes I haven't thought of in months - or a food that has spoken to me normally for months. Then, the more I try to avoid that food, the more all-encompassing the obsession becomes. I always rationalize that a reasonable portion is all I'll eat, then I've eaten four times as much. I have tried to banish guilt in general, but I do get quite irritated with myself, but I don't follow the punishment cycle, typically. I just don't know how to get to the underlying problem.
Thanks in general just for listening, reading, and being there in general.0 -
Part of me is throwing a 24/7 tantrum because I don't want to eat certain foods in portion sizes that aren't harmful to my health and weight goals. That part of me is just going to have to kick her heels and cry, because I've finally realized there is no bargaining with this issue. It's truly all or nothing.
I actually tried replacing food with wine or vodka (who doesn't love a good buzz?) but guess what? I drank too much, lost all my inhibitions, and got into the cookies anyway! My poor liver!
So there is no way out for me except to simply not eat those foods. It's not worth it. Maybe years of cognitive behavioral therapy and practice would let me have one cookie or one serving of ice cream or one pitifully small piece of cake and walk away, but guess what? I'd rather not bother! I'd rather just have none at all.
But my inner two year-old still says "This sucks!" and she's right. It does.
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I am mad at myself last night for binging. I haven't been counting calories for very long and I have already binged twice. I feel like I'm gonna be fat forever. I know this mindset makes me binge more so I am trying to get my head straight for today to keep me from binging again. I hope with time this will get easier.0
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I just wanted to say hello. I´ve been a binger most of my life and am just coming to terms with that during the last year and a half or so. I lose it at supper time. Also have trouble with weekends unless I am super diligent. This is something Ive basically gone alone so this is the first time Im saying this in a public forum. I thought it could be helpful to be here two or three times a week. Let´s see how it goes. Thanks for listening. Till next time.0
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Hey!
Just wanted to say that I am a massive binge eater. Like someone else mentioned here, I can basically binge on anything. I have the really messed up mentality of "oh i had one extra biscuit, i guess today is ruined. might as well eat as much crap as possible because tomorrow i'll start healthy eating again" but this happens pretty much everyday
I've been on MFP for a few months. Fallen off a few times - but getting back on track is always a step forward. At least I havent given up yet
Wanting to get more into the 'support' section of the site - maybe this will help me?
Anyways, it's nice to meet you all! We can do this!
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