Trying to find my way out. As I am visiting my family at the moment..it makes it even more difficult. I am surrounded by all my trigger foods at my mom's house. At least I found a way to exercise today. Must break this binge and soon. I dont want to gain more. I hate food and I love it at the same time. Anyone else suffering from social and agorahobia as well?

I've been in a pretty bad binge cycle since I got back from the beach on Sunday. I kinda figured it would happen, but I didn't think it would be THIS bad... I wake up with a binge "hangover" and awful bloating that lasts all day and pretty much makes me completely unproductive. My parents are visiting this weekend, and I HAVE to get it under control before then. Sigh.

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Can relate to most of this post a lot. Definitely have a love/hate relationship with food, and being at my parent's house triggers binges for sure. I would say I have social anxiety but I do not have agoraphobia. How long are you visiting your family for? Is it a day thing or longer than that?

Well, I am here for 2 weeks...Arrived on Monday only. I have periods when I refuse to go out of the house, of course, sometimes there is no way out, I have responsibilities too, but if I push myself it goes insane...

Did you dream of eating a marshmallow? If so was your pillow missing this morning?

That's funny! I don't remember the setting of my dream, but I remember there were sands of baked goods everywhere and I remember gaining momentum and literally shoving fistfuls in my mouth.

Yum! I had cheesecake every day last week haha.

I'm doing okay. I haven't binged since my family left (Sunday). I am likely falling back into a restrictive cycle like I was in previously, since this is how I generally operate. Although usually cycles last for longer, so it's kind of strange.

I met with the treatment program again today. I am starting on Sunday. My feelings are very mixed, especially since I'm being recruited for a job that I really want so that complicates everything. But will see how it works out. I suspect I will have to delete MFP and and stay off of it once I start the program, as it fuels my obsession with weighing my food and counting calories.

Kinda quiet in here. Hope everyone is doing okay.

Hi everyone,

Just want to check in and let everyone know how things are going. Looks like this forum has been super quiet! I've been doing PHP for over a week and a half now. It's been really tough. I've been bingeing a ton, because I feel like my ED feels really threatened. Since I can't restrict when I'm there, it seems to be the alternate way of coping. The last few days have been better. I am pretty hopefully. I've been offered my dream job though, and will be starting Monday. This means I will either have to stop all together or step down to IOP, but that all depends on insurance so will see how that goes. I've been gaining weight consistently which is making me feel awful. On the upside, I am not logging my food or weighing it, and trying to work on trusting the system. So will see how that goes. Hope all is well!

How has everyone been doing? I have been off work since June 1st as the school year ended. Since then I have been working on my house fixing flooring issues, repainting, and now a new plumbing issue. Got to love having to dig 3 foot deep trenches to locate a sewer line. But luckily that nightmare is almost done then maybe I can relax for a little bit.

Ok...thought i am getting better but here I am munching again...Gym induction went well...I almost canceled it as I was totally scared...silly,but I guess my social fobia kicked in. So for me overcoming that fear was kind of little victory. Sadly the gym opens fully only on 30th of June...so I cannot really use it now. How is everyone?

I went on a two week vacation recently and ended up binging the night before.

I did a lot better than expected on the actual trip. I didn't stuff myself at the buffets and managed not to always be the first person to finish my dish. I started on the day flying back home, probably would have done better had I not had an awful experience. There were issues with the first flight back home which extended the return time to Houston from twelve in the afternoon to twelve midnight. Most of the added time was spent getting conflicting answers on when and if we'd get our checked bags. I stuffed myself on cereal and crackers as soon as I got home. The day afterward wasn't much better.

It's been two, almost three days since that binge. A few outside stresses have helped prolong the post binge hunger, but it's getting better.

Hello, everyone! How are you? I am still struggling, having good and bad days...Going to the gym helps- releasing stress and pressure and also I can manage my weight better. But recently every shopping trip is a nightmare...I spend lots of time just sneaking around bakery aisles and cake shop aisles. Picking items putting them back...Thinking of binge and pleasure it will bring and then remembering the desperation after....Today I suddenly had the urge to buy the bulk of priced items and do the "chew and spit" thing..........as bingeing really can be pricey enough to affect the budget...I could barely hold myself, but somehow I did. I just don't want an ED to consume my life completely....But it is always about FOOD....FOOOOOOOOOODDDDDD and emotions and feelings...and FOOOOD.