@RhiannonBecks Any thoughts about Zika virus and your trip to Mexico? I was there in November and want to start TTC, but I'm a little paranoid.

@RhiannonBecks I use the Clue app for tracking

Hey everyone. I've been absent lately because I've been having a really hard time with TTC. My temp dipped below coverline today with cramps and 4 days of bfns. Cycle 12 will be starting today or tomorrow and we are talking about whether we will start our interventions with an IUI or go straight to ivf. It's a really hard place to be, and one that I never imagined I'd be in myself. I have never cried so much or felt so alone or unlucky.

I'm reining my diet back in because I'm not painfully bloated and 196 pounds and damnit if I'm not pregnant, at least I will not be over 200 pounds again!! I hope that none of you ever reach the dark place that I'm in right now and have to experience this level of pain and wanting.

I may not respond, but I'm always checking in here.

Gonna try to reply in pieces.
@Kirstie155 Sorry for the cramps and bfns. Also, those are some tough decisions you're facing right now. I admire your courage! Also, I know you can keep on the sunny side of 200. It's really hard, especially with pms. But I believe in you. You've done it before. Drink lots of water to keep the bloats at bay. And thanks for encouraging me. The lightening crotch has decreased quite a bit. The aches and pains still come and go, but not as sharply. I've started taking a pillow around with me to put behind my back when I sit, and that has helped.

@RhiannonBecks Did you get over your cold and catch up on sleep? Did it ever stop snowing? Or do you live where it snows a lot? Haha, the "lightening crotch" strikes like a Charlie horse or runner's cramp in the groin area or near the uterus. It's part of the growing/stretching process of the body making room for baby. Usually, it's more of a dull throb, or only triggered by twisting or bending the torso too fast. A warm shower or heating pad really helps, but sometimes I'm at work or at the grocery store when it strikes! Then it's a struggle to not to shove my hands inside my clothes and rub the sore muscles. Lol. Luckily, it goes away just as fast as it hits. I'm soooo jelly of your trip to Mexico! I went with my family one time in January. It cheered up my whole winter! I'd like to go back, but haven't had the opportunity. Maybe next year.

@puffbrat Silly doggy. Why do pets always do stuff like that? Haha. Sorry you guys have been so sick and tuckered out. Sounds like all of us have been getting the viruses this winter. Glad you're starting to feel better. Squish is so cute!! It's also sweet that Leo is loving being a dad to the point he's ready to do it again. Well, whenever you feel ready too, that is.

Okies, I'm late for work. Gonna reply to others later. Ciao!

@VeryKatie Your picture is so adorable! How did you work your little guy's vaccine schedule? My midwife was starting to talk to me about it. She says now they have like 60+ recommended but not all may be strictly necessary or needed all at once? She said they are expensive too, and some families stretch them out over the first 5 years. I was really surprised since when we were kids, there were only a few. I hope it goes well with your boss. I'm definitely planning on being part time the first year or so after birth. I can't think of a way around it either, until kids are old enough to be in school. And that's assuming I don't homeschool. Aaag. So many decisions!

@pezhed Glad you got over your cold! Your brother in law probably meant well but...I bet your sister in law has a different perspective since she was the one who had to go through all the uncomfortable procedures. Shed is very cute. I remember when my family had a farm, and we built one. It was a lot of fun. Then I would take a blanket and radio up on the roof via ladder in the summer and tan on the mostly flat roof. If I tried tanning on the ground, invariably a chicken or horse would meander over and try to stand on top of me. Homemade bread sounds lovely, btw. Even if it's not great for weight loss. It's soooo gooood! Sorry your period came again, although it does sound like you did ovulate and now you get to start over. Maybe this cycle won't be so long this time.

@WifiresGettingFit That one pilates workout I did showed me exactly how out of it I've been as even the smallest movements made me tired and out of breath. It felt good, but I was useless and sick the rest of the day. Now that I've got some of my energy back, I'm planning on trying again on my day off. If I can vacuum the house without becoming dizzy and tired, I think I can work out again. Congrats on getting your car back. Yeah, our town has been having water breaks too, this winter from the extreme cold busting old pipes. It's a bummer it got warm where you live, just to get super cold again. This weather's such a tease!

@puffbrat Btw, I like your animal nursery theme.

@aubyshortcake Baby dust to you! It's exciting to start, isn't it! Sorry if this month didn't end up being it though, and that you had to go to a memorial service.

@SheilAnneSmith OMG. The conference sounds stressful. 13+ hours!! Noooo! How do you not collapse? And how was your resort comp night? Did you at least get to stay somewhere nice for all that trouble?

Oh yeah, as far as my own update goes, I'm up to 174 now. I started at 162 before I got preggers. But last June, I was up to 176. Sooo...kinda a bummer to be almost back where I started. I should stop eating cookies for breakfast. I should also stop eating 2 dinners. But I eat at 5 pm, and if I work until 10, eat again when I get home because I'm ravenous again by then. Oh well. I'll figure it out eventually.

@girlalmighty08 I am glad you don't feel alone; it can def be something that weighs on your mind bc of course, you if you are TTC you are hoping for a happy, healthy journey, and would never put yourself in a position to otherwise cause harm to self/future baby. But, maybe this sounds foolish, I think at some point you have to just try and live your life without those worries, bc honestly, someone could "eat clean" only drink water, never drink alcohol while trying etc etc, and still end up with problems. For me, keeping cautious & conscious of my surroundings, but allowing myself to actually L I V E, has made a great deal of change in my mental health - and to me, that is just as important.

Sending you all sorts of good vibes as you dive into TTC. This forum has been so helpful, supportive and a safe place for me the past few months. I felt very alone and isolated in my situation until I came here a few months and was welcomed with open arms.

Also just wanted to a quick check in with the rest of you ladies. How has your week been so far?

We were able to BD 2x in our fertile week (sorry if that's TMI), had hoped for a 3rd but someone (me) drank too much wine when friends came over to play games and fell asleep fast & hard, LOL. Oops. I told my husband he should have shaken me awake lol. Oh well. Crossing fingers for now and going into the rest of the month with positive mind & positive vibes. Per my Ovia App (which has been almost 100% accurate) AF is scheduled to show up the day before we come home from Mexico (and it lands on my Bday) sooooo.....this will be an interesting few weeks.

I leave next Wednesday, but this weekend we are going to be super busy, I will try to check in for sure early next week sometime before I take my trip.

I really do want you all to know how very important and special you have become to me, all of your support is appreciated. Even the fact none of you mind I come in here and ramble a novel's worth of nothingness, it means a lot.

Chat soon!!! As always, good vibes sent ladies.

WOOOOOO we got the keys to our new house last night! We have been living with my parents for the past couple weeks so my man was pretty anxious to get in to own place... we basically just moved the bed and a few overnight necessities, this weekend will be the big move! Decided that I'm going to finish up my current supply of BC pills and then we will start TTC at the end of April. Gives us enough time to get all the renos done that we have in mind while I still have the energy! I'm so very, very EXCITED!!!

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WOOOOOO we got the keys to our new house last night! We have been living with my parents for the past couple weeks so my man was pretty anxious to get in to own place... we basically just moved the bed and a few overnight necessities, this weekend will be the big move! Decided that I'm going to finish up my current supply of BC pills and then we will start TTC at the end of April. Gives us enough time to get all the renos done that we have in mind while I still have the energy! I'm so very, very EXCITED!!!

Congrats lady! What an exciting time!!! Sounds like you have a good plan for TTC, this will give you a chance to get settled in to your new place, get some things done you want! Enjoy the experience this weekend!