Rvaugh07
March week 2
Monday
Previous: 222.6
Current: 218.8

Lost the water weight plus. Glad to see that after my 2 week break I didn't have any real gain.

aganey wrote: »

I'm struggling really bad and I need help!! I just don't know what to do anymore to keep me focused and going. I do really well for about two weeks. I eat in my cals, drink my water, exercise and lose weight. Then something in me subconsciously gives up. You would think seeing the scale drop and clothes fitting better and having more energy would be enough to keep me going. However, I just give up and about 3-4 weeks later I've gained the weight back I lost in those two weeks. I keep juggling the same weight back and forth from 182-187 for the past few months now. I'm having a hard time moving past this rut cycle. Even logging in and reading inspirational posts aren't helping. I really want to lose the weight for my health and to get my confidence back that I used to have. All I want to do is hide inside my house and under big t-shirts when I do go to the store or anywhere else. I used to love clothes and doing fun things but my kids have hardly seen that side of me because I never lost my pregnancy weight from my first child over 11 years ago. I was never overweight before that. I just can't believe I've let myself go like this and I want to feel like myself again. I'm sorry for the vent, I'm sure we all have similar feelings because we are all on this very hard journey to lose weight. Im just feeling down on myself about it right now and my husband (my rock and biggest supporter) is at work. What all have you done to push through a never ending cycle of being on point then self-sabotage? Thanks for bearing with me. You all are amazing.

I don't know if there is anything anyone can say to make you feel better, but just know that we all go through struggles that are similar. I was down to 221lbs back in 2013 and gained it all back and was up to 254lbs again in December of last year. I finally just got sick of being out of shape and overweight. The thing that finally got me going was getting a tracking device for my steps and I had to buy a new pair of jeans. I hate buying clothes, because they never fit....but this time I fit into a smaller size jean and that was unexpected....and it really got me motivated to make a change. I set a calorie goal for myself on a daily basis and just started walking every day. I don't want to lift weights and I also enjoy listening to music on my headphone while I walk.....that was back in early January of this year. I also decided to join more groups like these to help me stay accountable to myself and others. I don't normally share a a lot, but felt compelled because of your post. Keep sharing and pushing through the rough times, because it helps us all out!!

Hi all, Weigh in today very disappointing. I was 178.8- EXACTLY the same as last week! This is so crazy as I had a colonoscopy Monday (joys of getting older) and had to spent Sunday fasting...literally no solid food. I think it put my body into starvation mode - I sometimes feel that in a post apocalyptic world I would be the last one standing- happily surviving on one blade of grass a day! I am going to try not to let it get me down...and to keep in mind that I am 10lbs down and this is just a bump in the road. I will get to the gym today and get my fitbit working! One day at a time....Ill make it up next week- I promise team!!

@aganey - Your struggle really hit a nerve with me. I have been doing the same thing for years. I would start WW or Diet Center, get very inspired, lose some weight then sabotage it all by cheating. I have realized that part of the problem was that I would feel that I HAD to lose weight for someone else (not sure who - maybe diet center counselor or ww group?) instead of myself. This time I am losing for me. I think we gain weight for many reasons. Food is an emotional crutch for me. When I diet Im fine until a trying day and then I 'cheat" which gets me discouraged and the whole house of cards comes tumbling down! As you can see above I just hit a stumbling block this week but I am determined not to let it undo my determination. My advice to you is to try to figure out what you can do do give yourself emotional comfort other than food. When I feel stressed out I now take very long baths with lavender bath salts! I avoid alcohol (my old go to stress relief) as it takes away my self control. Give yourself permission to get a manicure, highlights or a massage. Don't punish yourself for the weight by depriving yourself of these other "treats". I also find that saving calories for a sweet treat at night helps me not feel deprived. Also, if I really need a vanilla cone from carvel (my favorite comfort food) then I go ahead and have it. I count it (450 calories) and have a light dinner to compensate. Hope this helps. I feel your pain and know how hard this is.

I have the same problem. I can lose ten pounds, working hard, keeping track and then slowly I start to gain, one pound at a time. I want to get through this plateau. My sister does something called morning pages. I think some of us carry a lot of pain or mistakes from the past or regrets, and we comfort ourselves with food. Morning pages means every day write down all your thoughts, anything that comes to mind. Let it all out. Then, shred the paper; no need to keep it, since someone may read it. If you're interested in morning pages, google author Julie Cameron.
By the way, I dont do morning pages. I really need to however! It could be just what I need. But my sister is a big believer in it. Xo

Here's an article about it:
https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2014/oct/03/morning-pages-change-your-life-oliver-burkeman