Me vs. the Binge -- May 2018 Challenge



  • Llamapants86
    Llamapants86 Posts: 1,221 Member
    May 29, 2018
    Me: 26
    Binge: 3
    DBF: 7
  • Nevadaden
    Nevadaden Posts: 971 Member
    Thank you, @KnitOrMiss. Given the struggles of the last month, that means a great deal to me.

    May 30
    DBF: 2
  • Hungry_Shopgirl
    Hungry_Shopgirl Posts: 329 Member
    Thank you @KnitOrMiss. You make some really goood points. I especially like what you say about perspective. I will try to keep it in mind!

    Me: 4
    B: 4
    DBF: 1
  • Niki_Fitz
    Niki_Fitz Posts: 945 Member
    KnitOrMiss wrote: »
    Thank you @Nevadaden. @brittdee88 you're a legend! 185 DBF is amazing.

    This has me pretty stressed out today. After my two binge days this week I'm starting today, without having eaten a single bite yet, already over my weekly goal. I feel defeated. Even if I have a perfect day everything I eat will count against me. And the net of this week will be a gain.


    Anyways, thank you guys for your support. I know I sound like a negative Nancy right now but being able to talk about it on here makes me feel like I'm not alone in it.


    A few things that really help me are to remember:
    • that unless I ate 3500 calories OVER my maintenance calories, I didn't gain anything. Anything showing on the scale is water retention and such. So you have maybe one single day (in the past week) that qualifies for this. And that's a maybe. That means all you really did was SLOW any weight loss or hover near maintenance. In the grand scheme of life, how bad is that, really?
    • Friends are CRITICAL for a reality check when I get caught up in the details.
    • (for me) punishment should never be the response to a binge. Was it the best fuel? No. Did my body still use it? Yes.
    • GUILT is worse than any carb or calorie ever. It fuels the binge/restrict cycle. Learning to let yesterday go, no matter what it was, helps...
    • nutrition trumps any calorie or carb or fat gram. EVERY TIME. Even if I had a binge of 10,000 - 20,000 calories (probably happened at my worst, but wasn't tracking back then), the next meal I do eat must be nutritious. My next day must be nutritious and on as on plan as possible. When we try to eat less to balance the previous day's binge, we neglect nutrients our body desperately needs - which fuels hunger. And if we excessively restrict, then we're just setting ourselves up for another binge.
    • I can't undo what I've done, but my next bite/meal can be a healthier choice.
    • in a year, will you remember this binge? Will it be an event that is still a crisis? What about 5 years? In 10 years, will that day's binge calories still matter??
    • it is completely impossible to avoid all the binge triggers - and it is impossible to avoid every binge. If I keep that in mind, and I do the best I can when I can, I'm still better off. Since I can't avoid triggers (stress, tired, boredom, etc.) and I can't avoid food completely, I know that off plan eating will happen. Accepting that and minimizing the damage, rather than trying to stop what feels like an immovable force seems like a far more productive line of thinking for me, personally.
    • Protein is satiating. Fat is necessary for human bodily function. Carbs fuel brain function (though the body can convert for carbs). Food is necessary for life. So eating foods, even "bad" foods, still provides my body some fuel. Fuel should carry zero guilt. Do I always get the most expensive gasoline for my car? No. Does it still run? Yes. Do I do the best I can do with what I have? Yes.

    I hope a few of my personal struggles and "things to remember" help you a bit.

    I’m new to this group but after scrolling through this, I think I need to join in. After a year on MFP I’ve lost all but the last 5-7 lbs of my goal; my weight is more stable; I binge much less; I’m less obsessive about food and my mindset is SO much better.

    But some days I feel like I’m banging my head against the wall, just managing calories around binges. So frustrating.

    I’ve got the shame thing going; I rarely talk about my binge eating openly.

    So I finally jumped in on this group and scrolled through this thread. And this ^ really helped me to read - thank you @KnitOrMiss. And it seems like you all understand this stuff. So this is my little hello and introduction and I want to post a some wind here for the rest of May.
  • brittdee88
    brittdee88 Posts: 1,874 Member
    Welcome, @wellnesschaser!

    May 2018
    Me: 30
    DBF: 190
  • KnitOrMiss
    KnitOrMiss Posts: 10,104 Member

    I'm working through the mental side of it all, to be sure. I don't have anything "down pat," but I keep reminding myself of these things all the time.

    And I'm VERY vocal about this stuff. I put myself on a form of "blast" all the time. But I still hide things. It's so awful... There is a test on here regarding binge eating scores... You might look for it, or one of us might bump it... It's definitely interesting.

    Welcome and good luck!
  • cabwj
    cabwj Posts: 843 Member

    Me: Very few
    B: Too many to count

    Turning the page to June...
  • Llamapants86
    Llamapants86 Posts: 1,221 Member
    May 31, 2018
    Me: 28
    Binge: 3
    DBF: 9

    After those two binge days in a row I thought I would give up on the month, but I kept going and managed to keep it together. Little victories!

    @wellnesschaser welcome to the group! I find it one of the few places that I can admit to my issues without having to explain or feel judged. It has really helped me keep my binges in check while I work towards being binge free.

    @cabwj good luck in June!
  • KnitOrMiss
    KnitOrMiss Posts: 10,104 Member

    Congrats on winding down May a winner! :)
  • brittdee88
    brittdee88 Posts: 1,874 Member
    @Llamapants86 that is awesome! Little victories add up!!!

    May 2018
    Me: 31
    DBF: 191
  • Niki_Fitz
    Niki_Fitz Posts: 945 Member
    edited June 2018
    Thanks for the welcomes @britdee88 @Llamapants86 & @KnitOrMiss :)

    May 31
    Me 1