I'm about to be real! This weigh-in sucks for me. Not because I am logging a gain (I've done that plenty of times. More because of the way lack of control. This past weekend I decided to have Christmas in June. Why? Well, many birthday celebrations, get togethers, busy week, and the Mr and I decided we would have one of our traditional latin meals once a month. Since I decided to eat cake this weekend, I figured, what the heck, and just ate all the things all weekend long, and I mean ALL THE THINGS!! So much that I got it out of my system and I don't want to see another piece of cake, or grain of rice until December.

I have to add here that I am not being hard on myself. I do, however, need to work through these things to better understand myself and make the changes necessary for improvement. Plus, accountability!

I usually plan meals, or days like this and the end result doesn't bug me, mostly because I know the gain isn't the end. I just get right back to plan and that's that. I expect the few lbs of gain and just work to chip them off again, but something felt different about this time. I was definitely not in control of myself, and I don't like it one bit. Today I woke up and eased right back into what I know I should be doing. Maybe I needed the reminder of how crappy I can feel after eating too many carbs. Maybe I needed to be up half the night scratching my head because it was on fire (seriously!). MAYBE...I need to remind myself of my WHYS. Maybe I need better WHYS. I think maybe my WHYS need to be more important than my WHY NOT.

SOOOOOOOOOOO, for June, I will be evaluating and sharing my WHYS.
Here are this week's WHYS:

Heart Disease and Diabetes have no place in my future. Before I started Keto, I had lab work done (Oct '16) I had high cholesterol, LDL, Chol/HDL ratio with an A1C in the pre-diabetic range. I used to kid myself that I was healthy and avoided Drs for years but that lab report was final and eye opening. I just made an appointment to have my yearly physical and I am making sure the Dr checks all these numbers again. You can be sure I'll be posting the comparison #s in the next few weeks.

SW: 262.2

June 3rd: 182.0

Now you know my hot mess self still has an NSV!!! I still have my fat pants, the ones I was wearing in my before picture from last summer. Well, I can fit both legs into 1 pant leg. HAHAHAHAHA, take THAT cake and rice!!

Ok... I’m in... again!

I started out in December in the low 160’s. After the Christmas disaster, I committed to getting back on track in January and I was in the low 170s... I managed to get back to the mid 160’s and life continued to happen with stress at work, a husband and kids who resist my keto efforts but don’t cook or grocery shop, and then, an untimely death in the family just sent me spiraling downward...

...or should I say upward? I’m currently approaching my all time high somewhere in the 180’s (I haven’t been on the scale since I first saw 182 a few weeks ago and now I am too afraid to look)...

My plan is to go back to the basics for the rest of this week and get on the scale on Sunday... if I don’t come back next week to post my stats, someone please call me out. I have no support in real life so I need all of the cyber help I can get!

I've decided to join a gym. I've realized one of my goals is to not only tone up, but really add on some muscle. I'm sure I could do this at home, but every time I get ready to work out, someone in the house "needs" me. I've gone back and forth for a long time, made lists of why I need/don't need to join the gym. Ultimately it comes down to me being one of those people that enjoys going out and using gym equipment. I also like being able to use a variety of machines for cardio & strength training.

Who else has/had a gym membership? What do you like/not like about it?