Me Vs the Binge -- April 2019 Challenge

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  • Llamapants86
    Llamapants86 Posts: 1,221 Member
    April 7th

    Me: 6
    Binge: 1
    DBF: 0

    I overate all weekend long. It was one of those, oh I am on vacation, so I want to not worry about it. However, when we got home last night, the binge totally won. Trying to get back on track this week, but I once again feel out of control with this.
  • hillmike56
    hillmike56 Posts: 485 Member
    April 8th

    Me: 7
    Binge: 0
    DBF: 9
  • Fitatelo
    Fitatelo Posts: 180 Member
    April 8th

    Me: 8
    The Binge: 0

    Days Binge Free: 16

    I almost went out of control on the 15th day, but I didn't. I had more sweets than I should have but there's still plenty left in my kitchen right now, so I feel pretty good. Today all I wanted to do was binge. But I didn't. This is the longest I've ever gone. I'm just scared to stay home alone because I feel like I'll lose myself, so I'll keep busy this week. Hopefully by the end of the week it will become easier.
  • hillmike56
    hillmike56 Posts: 485 Member
    April 9th

    Me: 8
    Binge: 0
    DBF: 10

    @fitatelo ? "it will become easier" I've always hoped that with a string for victories that would be the case. I haven't found that yet. Great focus on your fight so far! "all i wanted to do was binge" had that day myself Saturday those are confidence builders in the battle.
  • Llamapants86
    Llamapants86 Posts: 1,221 Member
    April 8th

    Me: 7
    Binge: 1
    DBF: 1
  • Llamapants86
    Llamapants86 Posts: 1,221 Member
    @Fitatelo @hillmike56

    I once heard "it doesn't get easier, you just get better" and I found that holds true. I have other coping skills and ways of dealing with binge urges. The urges never seem to go away, and I still give in way too often, but I am getting better at keeping them at bay.
  • aishmartin
    aishmartin Posts: 468 Member
    @Fitatelo @hillmike56

    I once heard "it doesn't get easier, you just get better" and I found that holds true. I have other coping skills and ways of dealing with binge urges. The urges never seem to go away, and I still give in way too often, but I am getting better at keeping them at bay.

    Please please! What are the skills and ways you deal with your binge urges? Please share!
  • aishmartin
    aishmartin Posts: 468 Member
    edited April 2019
    Me: 6
    Binge: 2
    DBF: 0

    Happened again last night :( So ashamed and frustrated. One step forward and a million steps back.
  • hillmike56
    hillmike56 Posts: 485 Member
    April 10th

    Me: 9
    Binge: 0
    DBF: 11


    @aishmartin not sure anyone here can give you the skill set you ask for but research a disorder called {BED} Binge Eating Disorder. You are not to first to feel "ashamed and frustrated One step forward and a million steps back".
  • Llamapants86
    Llamapants86 Posts: 1,221 Member
    April 9th

    Me: 8
    Binge: 1
    DBF: 2

    @aishmartin I second looking up BED, there are a lot of great resources out there. You will find some recommendations that really are helpful, and some that just don't help you out. So try to not feel too frustrated if it takes you a while. It really is a lot of trial and error.

    For me, personally, there are 2 main things that I had to address to see any real progress.

    1) I needed to find better outlets for my stress. Self-care (journaling, skin-care, trying to get enough sleep etc) was really important for this. Small changes here, so I could make it a habit.

    2) I needed to stop trying to lose weight. I had put on a lot of it while I was binging multiple times a day for months on end, and I really wanted to get rid of it. Unfortunately I had to focus more on not binging, than trying to have a calorie deficit. It was a real challenge for me, but it got me to a much better place. I still need to lose that 20 lbs, but I notice I start binging more when I try to restrict.

  • 57discovery
    57discovery Posts: 3,320 Member
    Me 8
    B1
    Dbf 3
  • hillmike56
    hillmike56 Posts: 485 Member
    April 11th

    Me: 10
    Binge: 0
    DBF: 12
  • Fitatelo
    Fitatelo Posts: 180 Member
    April 10th

    Me: 10
    The Binge: 0

    Days Binge Free: 18

    Y’all are right it never gets easier in the big perspective, but some days are definitely easier than others, for me at least. Sunday & Monday were awful but these past two days haven’t been nearly as big a struggle.
  • aishmartin
    aishmartin Posts: 468 Member
    Me: 6
    Binge: 4
    DBF: 0

    @hillmike56 Thanks! I'll definitely be looking into it! Yesterday I made an appointment with a psychologist that specializes in eating disorders. Will see her later this month.

    @Llamapants86 I'm afraid of not being able to focus on losing weight because I really need to and my doctor wants me to and I don't want to let him down. But at the same time, I know that I have to get this under control. Thank you for your support.
  • Nevadaden
    Nevadaden Posts: 971 Member
    April 10

    Me: 9
    The B: 1
    DBF: 3
  • 57discovery
    57discovery Posts: 3,320 Member
    Me 9
    B1
    Dbf4
  • Fitatelo
    Fitatelo Posts: 180 Member
    April 11th

    Me: 11
    The Binge: 0

    Days Binge Free: 19
  • 57discovery
    57discovery Posts: 3,320 Member
    Me10
    B1
    Dbf5
  • hillmike56
    hillmike56 Posts: 485 Member
    April 12th

    Me: 10
    Binge: 1
    DBF: 0

    @aishmartin sounds like a great approach @fitatelo stay strong your doing great @Nevadaden great to see you back here

    I had one of those screwed up emotional days that lead to a BINGE last night after being so focused in April. Disappointing but an Instagram quote this morning and some time in my personal journal helped me I hope.

    The quote was this "THERE'S NO FAILURE ONLY FEEDBACK". After getting over being terribly pissed off at myself I realized that there were so many triggers that had gone off during my day and I just kind of glossed over them not dealing with them as they came up. Each culminating in that late night BINGE I approved of and know so well. But April still has a lot of opportunity and can it be a month where only ONE BINGE shows up. Sometimes I just drop out of the community when too many BINGES occur one is not that number. Hopefully I'm back tomorrow!


  • Llamapants86
    Llamapants86 Posts: 1,221 Member
    April 11th

    Me: 10
    Binge: 1
    DBF: 4

    Very close to a binge last night before going to bed, I ate some more (terrible idea) but I managed to keep my snack a snack. I was (and still am) overly full from it. But it is better than a binge.
  • Nevadaden
    Nevadaden Posts: 971 Member
    April 12

    Me: 10
    The B: 2
    DBF: 0

    Last night was a tough call. But I have called it for the binge, even though it wasn’t as bad as it could have been, because it felt as if I could have kept going. In fact, I stopped not because of “brain over binge” or even because I finished the M and Ms, but because I was tired and went to bed!

    I don’t feel as bad this morning as I typically would. Back on the horse. Or the wagon. Or whatever metaphor works...
  • hillmike56
    hillmike56 Posts: 485 Member
    April 13th

    Me: 11
    Binge: 1
    DBF: 1
  • Czuni6
    Czuni6 Posts: 93 Member
    4/12/19

    Me:12
    B: 0
    DBF: 12

    Pretty close to a binge last night. Ate carelessly on auto-pilot to maintenance but I put down my fork midway of my meal and said I was satisfied. Officially out of the boot now, so happy the ankle is on the mend!
  • Fitatelo
    Fitatelo Posts: 180 Member
    April 13th

    Me: 13
    The Binge: 0

    Days Binge Free: 21

    Today was absolutely miserable and all I wanted was food to make myself feel better. But I calmed down and only had an extra 2.5 cookies because I spilled some of my dinner & it really was an awful day, so I figured I deserved it. But didn't even finish the 3rd cookie so I'm kind of proud.
  • hillmike56
    hillmike56 Posts: 485 Member
    April 14th

    Me: 12
    Binge: 1
    DBF: 2
  • Nevadaden
    Nevadaden Posts: 971 Member
    April 13

    Me: 11
    The B: 2
    DBF: 1
  • Fitatelo
    Fitatelo Posts: 180 Member
    April 14th

    Me: 14
    The Binge: 0

    Days Binge Free: 22

    Had extra to eat today but I was able to stop myself when I realized I was getting full. Even though all I wanted was to finish my dessert I threw it out, which I absolutely hate doing but I really want to be able to enjoy food knowing I won't hurt myself in the process.
  • lamlamsmakeover
    lamlamsmakeover Posts: 6,574 Member
    April 14

    Me: 14
    Binge: 0

    DBF: 111
  • hillmike56
    hillmike56 Posts: 485 Member
    April 15th

    Me: 13
    Binge: 1
    DBF: 3
  • Nevadaden
    Nevadaden Posts: 971 Member
    April 14

    Me: 12
    The B: 2
    DBF: 2