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A small victory last night regarding not binge eating.
Dinner was much later than normal which was flag number one. My husband and I drove separately to park and he was significantly later getting home than I (1.5 hours) which in turn had me worried, pissed, and aggravated. When I finally sat down to eat, by myself, I wanted MORE. Sigh.
I decided to log what I had eaten and see where MFP had my calories for the day - and I had a few left. So, the victory was thinking about why I wanted to return to the kitchen and scrounge up something MORE and realizing I did have a small amount of calories to work with and then select a protein that kept me within my calorie goal.
Although I went to bed unhappy about the lack of communication thing with my husband, I decided that my victory over not eating my way through my emotions was a much better way to fall asleep.8 -
Any time I have a victory over not binging, it is a major big deal...I am proud of you for resisting the urge...
Btw I would probably have been a wreck worrying about my husband had the police looking for him!0 -
I relate so much to this discussion. My binge behavior kicks into high gear when there is a disruption to my schedule...or I end up home alone for very long. It is almost an emotional rush to start planning my secret binge.2
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I relate so much to this discussion. My binge behavior kicks into high gear when there is a disruption to my schedule...or I end up home alone for very long. It is almost an emotional rush to start planning my secret binge.
My best secret place to eat was in the car so I could get rid of the evidence before I got home!3 -
While I didn’t have a full on binge I did go over my calories for the first time in a while I had to drive to a clinic in another state today (2 hr each way). This clinic is in a town that has my favorite fast food place. I only get to eat there when I go to this state. So I inputted my calories from my favorite sandwhich and my custard. And yes it was A LOT. But as long as I was super good the rest of the day I could fit it in. Then comes the drive home. It stormed the whole way and was very stressful so when I stopped to pee I got a candy bar. Then I saw that the king size were on sale when you bought 2. So yes I bought and ate 2 king sized candy bars. What the heck was I thinking??? This only put me 500 calories over for the day and I have been way under all week so logic brain tells me that I didn’t do that much damage but still. I ate two freaking king sized candy bars! Sigh.4
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While I didn’t have a full on binge I did go over my calories for the first time in a while I had to drive to a clinic in another state today (2 hr each way). This clinic is in a town that has my favorite fast food place. I only get to eat there when I go to this state. So I inputted my calories from my favorite sandwhich and my custard. And yes it was A LOT. But as long as I was super good the rest of the day I could fit it in. Then comes the drive home. It stormed the whole way and was very stressful so when I stopped to pee I got a candy bar. Then I saw that the king size were on sale when you bought 2. So yes I bought and ate 2 king sized candy bars. What the heck was I thinking??? This only put me 500 calories over for the day and I have been way under all week so logic brain tells me that I didn’t do that much damage but still. I ate two freaking king sized candy bars! Sigh.
when I find myself craving a chocolate chip cookie, fresh baked and warm, I'll stop at McDonald's and order 1 cookie. In some stores, the cashiers will argue with me to buy 2 "its cheaper" and I tell them if I buy 2 I''m going to eat 2 and I don't want to eat 2, I want to eat 1. Many times I'll order 1 and pay for 1, but when I pull out I see I've got 2 in the bag and yup, you guessed it - 99% of the time I end up eating both.3 -
conniewilkins56 wrote: »I relate so much to this discussion. My binge behavior kicks into high gear when there is a disruption to my schedule...or I end up home alone for very long. It is almost an emotional rush to start planning my secret binge.
My best secret place to eat was in the car so I could get rid of the evidence before I got home!
I got into this horrible habit of buying a cake "as a treat" when I did the weekly shop and then eating it on the drive home so nobody knew. I haven't done that for a few weeks now as I've taken my daughter with me so hopefully I've won that battle.5 -
An amusing story of a friend who was eating some biscuits at home. Her son came home unexpectedly and she quickly hid the half eaten packet of biscuits in the washing machine. She was very embarrassed when the son went to get his washed clothes out of the machine and found they were all covered in biscuit crumbs. She had forgotten about the biscuits and offered to redo her son's washing.3
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I have not binged in a long time...I think a couple of months....that is a long time for me...I can’t ever let myself forget that I have this problem...I have been swimming a lot and I think it is making me hungry...I am not eating back a lot of the exercise calories because I don’t think I am burning as much as MFP says I am...but I seem to be in a good place right now mentally...6
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Thought about this thread driving home from work last night and counted the number of drive-through food places I pass before getting on the freeway. Too many (16+). I tried to recall the calories for each signature item, whether it was a burger, chicken, or taco for each place.
Binger-Fat-Brain thought pattern included thinking about how easy and cheap it is to utilize drive-through and then I re-framed my thoughts to include finding a different route to the freeway, praising myself for already having a plan for dinner that kept me in a calorie deficit and that, really, this is not who I am striving to be.
On my way into work this morning, using a different route, I only passed one drive-through establishment. Small changes equal larger victories.8 -
hansep0012 wrote: »Thought about this thread driving home from work last night and counted the number of drive-through food places I pass before getting on the freeway. Too many (16+). I tried to recall the calories for each signature item, whether it was a burger, chicken, or taco for each place.
Binger-Fat-Brain thought pattern included thinking about how easy and cheap it is to utilize drive-through and then I re-framed my thoughts to include finding a different route to the freeway, praising myself for already having a plan for dinner that kept me in a calorie deficit and that, really, this is not who I am striving to be.
On my way into work this morning, using a different route, I only passed one drive-through establishment. Small changes equal larger victories.
For the longest time I had a rule that I would not use a drive thru, at all. If I wanted to eat fast food I would need to park and go in. This always gave me extra time to decide not to do it. I still eat fast food but because it has a low satiety value for the calories I just can't do it often. With CV19 now they want you using the drive thru more because it is "safer" but I think that is untrue if the restaurant is basically empty, you wear a mask, and wash your hands. I don't know. I want to do what is right for society but it is sad because it was a very easy way to cut down without restricting. I just had to want it enough to get out and get it.4 -
I had a bit of an "epiphany" last night.
We decided to order pizza, which would have been fine if I kept the portions under control. But... I didn't.
Pizza is a binge trigger for me... at least that is the best way I can describe. It's like i just lost all control and just kept eating...
Now I feel guilty about it. I forced myself to track it this morning though.
It hasn't happened with any other "fast food/restaurant food" I've been able to keep portions ok and within my target calories for the day.4 -
I had a bit of an "epiphany" last night.
We decided to order pizza, which would have been fine if I kept the portions under control. But... I didn't.
Pizza is a binge trigger for me... at least that is the best way I can describe. It's like i just lost all control and just kept eating...
Now I feel guilty about it. I forced myself to track it this morning though.
It hasn't happened with any other "fast food/restaurant food" I've been able to keep portions ok and within my target calories for the day.
@tempe987
If you learned from it then it was a valuable experience. Education is needed if you intend to manage your weight for the rest of your life. Since you didn't come with a user's manual you have to learn and it often requires learning it in the manner you did.
Because this is an important goal I consider it part of my plan not a deviation. I am not sure if you can learn to view it that way but it might help you set the guilt aside, at least faster.
Now that you know pizza is a trigger you know it might be a good idea to avoid it for a time and the next time have a plan to try and change the outcome. That plan may not work either but then you will learn more.
Forgiveness is extremely important though. You will not be perfect and your binges are not a result of weakness. In the Atomic Habits book James Clear, the author, suggests that the people who seem to have the most discipline are not really special they just live lives that either naturally or intentionally keep them out of the path of temptation. So if one of them had a weakness for doughnuts their "discipline" is really that they are never around doughnuts.
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@NovusDies
I definitely think the realization helped me set the guilt aside yesterday and move forward.. otherwise based on hindsight I would have spiraled.2 -
Yesterday I had about 1900 calories and I didn’t swim...we went to lunch and I had two martinis...this morning my weight was up a couple of pounds...BUT I didn’t binge and I had two scones at bedtime, measured and weighed....it was not a perfect day but it didn’t trigger me....I think it was a win day for me!5
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conniewilkins56 wrote: »Yesterday I had about 1900 calories and I didn’t swim...we went to lunch and I had two martinis...this morning my weight was up a couple of pounds...BUT I didn’t binge and I had two scones at bedtime, measured and weighed....it was not a perfect day but it didn’t trigger me....I think it was a win day for me!
@conniewilkins56
WOOHOO!!
I am so happy right now. That is awesome! You are awesome!3 -
I was especially awesome after two martinis lol3
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conniewilkins56 wrote: »I was especially awesome after two martinis lol
lol. I imagine I am a real lightweight now since it has been so much time and so many pounds since my last drink. I am not even sure when I will have something again but I will have to be really careful.2 -
conniewilkins56 wrote: »I have not binged in a long time...I think a couple of months....that is a long time for me...I can’t ever let myself forget that I have this problem...I have been swimming a lot and I think it is making me hungry...I am not eating back a lot of the exercise calories because I don’t think I am burning as much as MFP says I am...but I seem to be in a good place right now mentally...
Three steps forward and one back is better than three steps forward and two back!...
some of you might have read my post yesterday that I took a really bad fall out of bed early Friday morning....today I have bruises on my face,shoulder and hip...my ribs are very sore to the point walking or bending makes me wince....
I was very upset with myself for falling for many reasons...I hate the feeling of being helpless and when I fall I am very vulnerable as I can not get up without help....right now my husband is very needy of my support mentally and physically...I have been taking on more of the household duties; running errands,grocery shopping,cleaning,laundry etc. without him helping as much...I can not let myself get hurt or sick at this time...I only started seriously getting more physically fit a couple of months ago....I did not need a fall or an accident to set me back in my weight loss or my exercise routine...I have been struggling with the same 3 or 4 pounds for weeks....I am trying to swim 90 min. 5 days a week...so when I fell yesterday I immediately painted the worst scenarios in my “ fat” brain...
To block this out or maybe to escape, I started eating at noon and did not stop until midnight....it doesn’t matter so much about what I ate but the amounts I consumed...and of course the sad fact that I turned to food to make me feel better....I also took some very strong pain pills that made me less mentally able to restrain myself from my own destruction...I binged...terribly....the worst I have all summer long...about 1 this morning I was violently sick which really hurt my rib cage..after being sick, crying and being so angry, I was exhausted and I slept until almost noon today...when I woke up I felt like I was on another planet...guilt and shame came flooding over me...my sweet husband had cleaned the kitchen and done laundry and my daughter had gotten the garbage out and picked up the house...they were both concerned how I was feeling....I got on the scales and I was up TEN pounds in 24 hours....that is how fast I can gain if I am not in control...TEN F@#$&**(ING pounds!....6 weeks to lose 5 lbs and 24 hours to gain 10... yes, I know it’s water,salt,stress,bloat blah blah blah but STILL.....after sulking around and beating myself up, John and I had a long talk and I admitted I had been looking for an excuse to overeat...I have felt deprived and out of sorts for a few days....I am tired...i don’t know if I am eating enough calories or if I am eating too many calories...I have had extra responsibility put on me, our daughter is teaching from home and she and the grands are at home 24/7....John and I have not had much alone time or been able to enjoy lunches out and John is not responding to his RA treatments or getting any relief from the pain he is in....I had a very light lunch and I feel better this afternoon...my body will heal and I will get back on track..I have worked too hard to get where I am to give up....I have been on MFP for 15 months and I am not going to let this setback derail me..I had an accident and it wasn’t my fault..I will recover....I will get stronger...
Sorry for the long whiney post but I needed to vent...at one time, my binges were non stop...this one was 24 hours....there could be aftershocks but I am not looking for trouble.....I will be ok...
I WILL do this!9 -
I'm so sorry Connie! The fall sounds awful and being so bruised and swollen does do horrible things for your self esteem and sense of inner strength. You turned to old habits because you were in a bad place. And it sounds like you paid the price this morning. But I am so proud that you have the self awareness today to see what happened, why it happened and the strength and resolve to gird yourself and move on from yesterday. Sending big hugs to you. You know that as soon as the swelling goes down, that weight will drop too. You are going to be okay.1