@19shmoo69 - Hey there leader of the pack!!! 🥳🤩 Way to go!!! thanks for the freebie. My daughter used to pick and cause sores when she was nervous. Pediatricians were no help, she had an opposite reaction to medicines than most people do, I wonder if coffee might have helped, she still does it occasionally I’ll ask her how often she drinks it and see if it might coincide. I however went through that period of burn out so I did try iced coffee and I like it but it has to be creamy and sweet to enjoy. I’m back up to 3-6 cups of straight black a day.

@Ftofit - Great loss! I know everyone is different but when I first lost down to my goal weight I was tracking and under calories goal during the week days and I would splurge on weekends. I did great with craving giving myself a bit of allowance, I was exercising daily, most days just walking but it worked for awhile. I hope you find and keep that motivation. A wedding is a great motivator!

@Katmart71 - That’s great the pen didn’t make a mess, of course you didn’t mistype I just misinterpreted for a sec. 😂 When I’m super peeved I cry too and it has thrown people often.

@askewcr - You absolutely can!!!

@TeresaW1020 - I know what you mean with the cast members!! 😂 I did have a great time with my kids Thank you!!!

@DrewsAnna - I love how much time you spend with your grand beauties, they can keep you busy!!! Y’all are all making me jealous with the leftover Halloween candy!

@Tamevv - you’re doing great!!

@trooworld - I’m sorry you’re feeling off.

Well……once we got home I went for a 4 mile walk, partly to see the fall foliage before a storm hit partially to get my workout in early on. I had every intention of completely cleaning out the truck so that that task was taken care of, I only got 75% done and my husband decided we needed to go stock up on groceries. Came home, cleaned out the fridge, cooked dinner, ate and watched a movie and although everything sounds like it was great I really felt like my husband was faking be okay. The next day we started off the day normal and super busy and although helping him work on his truck was NOT in my plans we were getting things done BUT he started drinking without eating anything for breakfast and within a couple of hours all hell broke loose.

We’ve been married for 14 years and he was an alcoholic before I met him. He actually stopped drinking for 2 years when we first got together but I’ve been learning how to deal with him for the past 12 years. I feel I’ve gotten pretty good at it. About two years ago I realized what I was also enduring was domestic abuse. Every form on some level and even with physical abuse being the least frequent, all of the other things happened so frequently and sometimes lasted so long I often felt more abused without ever being hit. I was pretty good at hiding our personal life for a long time, I’m great at posting the good times, there were absolutely good times but they don’t touch the bad. Over the past 5 years my kids have suffered too, watching it happen to me, me not being strong enough to leave bc I was scared to uproot them from the school and friends they loved, him showing himself more and more to other people. I had always held onto this hope that something would change…..it only gradually got worse, I had even thought for just a little bit that he finally understood what I needed from him this past year when my son was graduating because he was being considerate and helpful, he was the most help by leaving me alone and letting me get things done. He has since confessed he was able to leave me alone because he had started using meth. His outrage Saturday involved him throwing a brick at me. I’m really grateful his boss/best friend was there to witness his awfulness of who he truly is and help me stop him and my son from fighting. I made my son leave, I packed some stuff and had my best friend come get me. I spent the night with her and went to church the next morning spent the whole day with my kids. We hiked and went mural hunting after going out to eat. I had my daughter take me to my moms and I knocked and asked her if she wanted a roommate. 😂 I didn’t expect my son to come here too, I really thought he would stay with his friends but last night my soon to be ex husband was wreaking havoc with everyone we talk to in that area. Things have settled a bit today and I was able to go with my mom to watch my nephew and nieces play basketball then get some exercise in. I am absolutely 100% percent done. He has always made me come back by making horrific threats and I was so scared of what he was actually capable of and of what people would think but this time he put it all out there so there’s no hiding what he truly is and there’s no going back.

I have stuck to my goals except for not logging food or doing my side bends yesterday!

I got two days behind on my stretching challenge but I’m totally caught up. I could always blame him for me giving up on my goals, these past two months my mantra has been that he WILL NOT stop me from hitting every goal I set for myself!!! So far I’m doing pretty great! 😉

I will be going to NOLA and now there will be no fear of repercussions from that man!!!!

Yesterday, today, and forever I’m thankful for finally being strong enough to walk away no matter what!

🥂 To freedom and a happy life!!!