CW: 190.8
I agree @carlsoda eating more than needed *does indeed* catch up with us! Sigh.
All I can do is move some more, keep my water up, guilt-trip less, and stop whingeing about what I did or didn't do.

@ashleycarole86 your thumb issue sounds like "trigger finger/thumb" which is when the tendon is inflamed. some causes: overuse, arthritis, or diabetes. Have an Orthopod check it out. Trigger fingers can be surgically released or injected with an anti-inflammatory & pain-relieving cocktail. In the interim, I highly recommend wearing a thumb splint (only at night or you'll push against it all day and make things worse). This will help the tendon relax a bit.
As far as the how to shift your thoughts about Mealime (or anything else for that matter), it sounds like you got caught in the "condemnation prior to investigation" loop. See if you can take a step to the side and try something different for 3 months. One can do *anything* for 90-days. If it doesn't live up to your hopes (or the company's promise), go back to the thing you're doing now. What's the worst that can happen? Nothing.

@PlaneMonkey A suggestion that came to mind when I read about your self-sabotage and inner critic (saying judgmental words like, "crutch") is try the "CTFD" method. It stands for "Calm the F-Down" and will reassure you that whichever path you choose, you'll be fine. This *isn't* a FOOT RACE. It's your life. I'm glad you're living it with such honesty with all of us on this team! Please, keep coming back. If you're feeling burned out, put on your Sorting Hat and ask what change you need in this chapter of your life. Focus on a solution. That always feels better than pointing fingers at that little self in the mirror, filled with self-recriminations and shame. ("Take my advice...I'm not using it!")

@jugar I used to like scapes and trout leaves...until garlic in general upset my stomach too much. It's lovely to walk around the woods and scavenge yummy edibles. Thank goodness the sun is out in force today! I'm going outside now to repot some pansies, sweep the porch, and generally tidy up some of this living space. If only I could find my magic wand for the *indoor* areas at the same time! It didn't help that OH was out sick for the past 2 days. Not covid, fortunately, but still an annoying cough. My sleep will improve once they're back at work (6 p.m.-2:30 a.m.). Off I go!

Have a great day everyone. Let's set up a zoom soon!

MoonlitMuse wrote: »

@DD265 What are your feelings on being discharged from your RD? How many appointments did you have with her? I'm kind of sitting here scratching my head because you're motivated and absorbing what she's teaching. I really only discharge people if they consistently miss appointments. I definitely don't get rid of the ones who actually WANT to work on things

It was a bit of a surprise but the more we discussed it, the more sense it made. We had 6 appointments (on a monthly basis) and I basically haven't lost any weight in that 6 months, not that weight loss is the only goal. If I'd asked to stay on she would've kept going, but I agree with her that I need support in other areas, namely mental health so that it's easier to follow our healthy nutrition protocol most of the time. I was paying £80 a session, so the cost does stack up and I think that was part of her motivation; to not be charging people unnecessarily.

Sunday weigh in

PW - 184.7
CW - 185.6

So sorry to hear about your brother passing away @jugar and @EvMakesChanges . Sincere, heartfelt condolences to you and your family.

I'll be back later with some more updates.

The last 24 hours have been the strangest in my life. I suppose losing a sibling does that to everyone. I’m sure I can speak for the two of us remaining (@jugar) that your kind thoughts and prayers are much appreciated. Although he and I weren’t as close as our amazing sister (@jugar), it’s still unsettling to be left so suddenly.
I ate small amounts of comfort food today but managed to have reasonable quantities. I baked sweet potatoes but will probably save one for tomorrow, since they don’t go particularly well with homemade spinach-pita-pizzas!
We’ve had a nice time outside feeding a small bonfire while we ate. My OH and younger daughter were here to keep me company, which was lovely. Oh, for desert I made a quick version of banana cream pie complete with a layer of powdered peanuts, cocoa powder, and fresh banana slices. I know - gagging coming from the house of my sister! She’s always hated bananas! Tbh, I’ve never made one before. I wonder if it was a tribute to our brother? Perhaps.
Time to go in. It’s about to rain according to my Apple Watch.
Be well.
More soon.