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Stall or goal?
Forgive me-this may ramble on a bit. I have lost right at 100 lbs since my first consultation with surgeon a little over a year ago. Surgery was in December. Other than in the 1st couple of weeks post-op I haven't encountered anything I would regard as a 'stall'. The loss has slowed down but really been fairly steady. At…
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Workplace struggles
Has sexually inappropriate behavior always been this prevalent in the workplace and I was just protected behind my obesity? There is flirting, there is good-natured banter that very well may be inappropriate, and then there is 'unwelcome unwanted what makes you think that is even close to appropriate'? Ugh, just ugh. It is…
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NSV!!!
Went on a cruise last week with some family and friends. Went zip lining in Puerto Rico and had a BLAST!!! Never would have done this before even if I had been within weight limit. Oh my gosh it was so much fun. Walked all over the place in heat and humidity without batting an eyelash. This is kinda fun :-)
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Head games
Ugh, will this always be my struggle? So, I am 3.5 months out-down 40 lbs since surgery and 70+ overall. Feel really good, exercising, doing really pretty well with diet, enjoying smaller sizes. However, I am struggling with excitement and joy--meaning I don't want to let myself get swept up in it and therefore have not…
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NSV!!!
Got a massage today and for the first time ever didn't feel like I was overflowing the table-arms were comfortably at my side with plenty of spare room.
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A little awkward.
So…I am 2.5 months out, down a total of almost 70 lbs (35 before 33 since), feel amazing, and feel like I'm looking pretty good too (at least most days). My medical director (not exactly my boss as I don't actually report to him but yeah, kinda) has been one of my biggest supporters in this journey. He is not someone who…
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'Quit your gritchin!'
So, had a 1 month postop appointment with my surgeon last Friday. I was talking about my mixed feelings-feel great but a little discouraged with weight loss. While he was compassionate and kind and acknowledged the frustration, he basically told me to quit my fussing and keep moving forward. Then he had me try to lift a 50…
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Excited for possibilities, but also a little discouraged right now.
I am excited for the possibilities that 2015 holds-from better health and more active lifestyle, focusing both on me and my relationships with others, to new adventures with work. If I’m honest with myself though, I am battling a little discouragement right now. I promised myself a number of things when I decided to pursue…
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Warning, this is a bit of a whine.
Ugh, when can full liquids/protein shake dependence be over? I am trying to bring myself to do evening protein and just can't bring myself to it. For the most part post-op has been great-very little pain, amazing energy-even went back to work early and have felt great. Don't think I will mind even daily protein shakes…
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Smashburger-what in THE world!
WHY is there a smashburger ad across the top of my mfp? I don't think I've ever even googled them or clicked on something related to them. This is sabotage!!! Ok, rant over. In other news, day 3 of full liquids, having to buckle up buttercup, put on my big girl panties, whatever suck it up its good training words you might…
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One week postop. Thoughts and reflections.
Surgery was last Tuesday. Everything went well and I was in recovery by a little after 10 am. At least thats what they tell me-I was basically OUT the entire day. I was not expecting to be so out of commission all day long-from everything I had read, I expected to be up and walking pretty soon after surgery-maybe not a…
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done done done!
Ok, surgery yesterday-everything went well. pain, nausea, gas all manageable. hopefully home today. Excited for the possibilities (and yes, 1st time i've felt excited about this whole journey)!.
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Surgery next week
Surgery is next Tuesday (12/2). In the last couple of days several people have asked me if I am 'excited.' No…not excited, not nervous. Been trying to figure out exactly how I have been feeling. Right now, I am at peace. I came to this process not at all sure that this was the right path or decision and have been very…
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Starting pre-op diet tuesday. Crazy weeks ahead.
Hello all-starting pre-op diet this week in preparation for surgery 12/2. The next few weeks have a MUCH greater-than-would-be-usual amount of activity and stress. Wedding/family reunion, HUGE paper/presentation for end of semester, and short-handed at work. Know I can get through this diet thing but less sure of my…
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Waiting game, only waiting isn't very productive.
So, last appointment with dietician was Friday. Now for the waiting game. I am looking to do surgery early December so Dr's office is waiting until mid-October to submit to insurance. While it is a waiting game, I don't want to think of it as such. I am glad for the additional time because I am still working on head stuff…
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Last Nut Appt this Friday
Hello all. My last appointment with the nutritionist is this Friday. This will mark the last requirement or hoop before submitting to insurance. I know that, overall, I have done well and am down a little over 20 lbs in the last few months. However, this weekend has shown me very clearly the importance of 'the process.'…
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What I'm MOST looking forward to.
Energy-just more energy! Losing weight and cute clothes and all manner of NSVs-all great. But what I most want is more energy and endurance.
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Its been a long week, psych appt this morning
Its been a long week at work. Same 5 days, same 45ish hours, just long--challenging patients, families, social, and ethical issues. Also, heading into the last week of the summer semester and trying to finish up paper/presentation for a class I truly loathe. And so, of course, today I have my psych eval/clearance…
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2nd NUT appt-the scale did WHAT?
I had my 2nd appointment with the nutritionist Friday and I’m down 13 lbs in the last month. To be honest, I don’t believe the scale-don’t see how I’ve lost that much. Anyway, after the last month of moderately low-carb eating (admittedly I didn’t commit whole hog to the low carb plan but am easing into it) I’m thinking…
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Carb-crazed!
So, I started on the super-Atkins-style 3 month supervised diet about 10 days ago. I haven't got on a scale but know I was losing weight-wastebands considerably looser. However, in the last day 1/2 I have gone carb crazy. Ugh, so incredibly frustrating! I know I've got to work through this, getting back up on the horse,…
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Thinking about VSG
Hello all. My GI doc has been after me for a couple of years to 'consider' bariatric surgery. After this past year of not much success in what is really a mandatory weight loss situation, I finally agreed that having a consultation was a reasonable thing to do. Won't go into details about why I have been so reluctant-there…
