Amelia's OMAD Journal: Failure, I will succeed, support and advice needed :)
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Ha no the pinching of the posterior is TOTALLY not ok, the men here are actually very very polite, very tame (in the same way the average american is, there are always bad seeds but on the whole not at all threatening or space invading).
Yes Deb, I am glad my posts are helping you, as yours are me, you have no idea! yes, let us not worry, we go on together! Onwards and upwards, we will do it. 6 weeks together
(at the VERY least). You are stuck with me, I'm afraid 
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{{Six Weeks}}
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ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »Thus continues my poor relationship with alcohol/ food. Yesterday ended up being ANOTHER foul up. Sigh.
Guys, If this is going to work, I need to question the role of alcohol in my life. In fact Mon-Fri of not drinking made me realize I don't really need it. It is nice, but it completely diverts my goals, my energy, etc. These days also, I am unfortunate in that I get a severe hangover after just two glasses of wine. (Maybe those years of alcoholism stuffed my liver, big time). Cue then the need to eat.
It is sabotaging me, big time. Not only with OMAD, but with all my other life goals. My relationship with alcohol also means I give up on having much of a life, because I'm scared of the hangover and fallout that comes from it (no productivity, no OMAD after drinking.)
I don't want to live like this.
I am not giving up OMAD. Alcohol be damned. I will now have one, ONE glass, one drink, maximum, at any outing. (funny coincidence, that will end up being New Years, not that I am going to binge then, but nice big goal to reach).
I can say no to alcohol. I am saying no to more than one drink, at least for the next six weeks of my life. I can do this. I take full responsibility for the foul-ups so far.
Onward, lesson learnt, and upward folks. Thanks to all for the patience in my up and downs! I don't want to be a statistic, someone that joins OMAD then lets life get in the way, disappears from the forum, and never reaches the goal. I am tired of it. I am tired of myself. I don't want to be mad at myself anymore, I want to be proud.
I was going to not post today because I was ashamed. But here I am. If anyone else is struggling, or falling off the wagon, be assured you aren't the only one. And join me in making the changes necessary to get back on that horse and slay this beast.
I haven't had a drink since 1978! Yes I was only 17 then but I did drink quit frequently then. It only got me in trouble (several times) and I find I can get by just fine without it. If it is causing you problems, complete abstinence is an option. Better to not do it all all than it be controlling. Good luck!0 -
handshake accepted, and returned!
Ha Bob, I think you are on the right path. Thank you:)0 -
loved your insight into men, In sweden, no one looks at me, and all the women wants my husband only my husband but In turkey all the men liked me and none of the women wanted my husband.......it was strange lol.
I dont really have any alcohol advice since i literally cant stand the taste of any of it...but my husband used to be an alcoholic, after too many trips to the hospital to get help he finally just said enough and stopped for good. life is too short i guess.0 -
ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »handshake accepted, and returned!
Ha Bob, I think you are on the right path. Thank you:)
Okay-- 6 weeks all the way. No backing out!0 -
I've never had a drink so I can't help you but good luck!0
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another day down! Good on all of us:)
Yep, six weeks all the way, no backing out, you and me baby, (and anyone else)!1 -
ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »Thus continues my poor relationship with alcohol/ food. Yesterday ended up being ANOTHER foul up. Sigh.
Guys, If this is going to work, I need to question the role of alcohol in my life. In fact Mon-Fri of not drinking made me realize I don't really need it. It is nice, but it completely diverts my goals, my energy, etc. These days also, I am unfortunate in that I get a severe hangover after just two glasses of wine. (Maybe those years of alcoholism stuffed my liver, big time). Cue then the need to eat.
It is sabotaging me, big time. Not only with OMAD, but with all my other life goals. My relationship with alcohol also means I give up on having much of a life, because I'm scared of the hangover and fallout that comes from it (no productivity, no OMAD after drinking.)
I don't want to live like this.
I am not giving up OMAD. Alcohol be damned. I will now have one, ONE glass, one drink, maximum, at any outing. (funny coincidence, that will end up being New Years, not that I am going to binge then, but nice big goal to reach).
I can say no to alcohol. I am saying no to more than one drink, at least for the next six weeks of my life. I can do this. I take full responsibility for the foul-ups so far.
Onward, lesson learnt, and upward folks. Thanks to all for the patience in my up and downs! I don't want to be a statistic, someone that joins OMAD then lets life get in the way, disappears from the forum, and never reaches the goal. I am tired of it. I am tired of myself. I don't want to be mad at myself anymore, I want to be proud.
I was going to not post today because I was ashamed. But here I am. If anyone else is struggling, or falling off the wagon, be assured you aren't the only one. And join me in making the changes necessary to get back on that horse and slay this beast.
Amelia, I literally can see the rough and invisible chains of alcohol and more issues in your life breaking off of you bit by bit. Just by your new "language".
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Keep building each day just like OMADing posted above. You will get there.0
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ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »another day down! Good on all of us:)
Yep, six weeks all the way, no backing out, you and me baby, (and anyone else)!
We did it! I wasn't feeling as hungry today. Perhaps my body is adapting to OMAD.
I keep thinking about Joe's video about commitment. The only way to do this is power through the difficult days and enjoy the victories and breakthroughs along the way. I'm kind of proud of us that we didn't quit. "When the going gets tough, the tough get going."1 -
ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »handshake accepted, and returned!
Ha Bob, I think you are on the right path. Thank you:)
No problem. You can do whatever it is you need to do!0 -
Hey guys! Just thought I'd report in. Haven't lost any weight, in fact I feel much bigger. Been OMADing faithfully all week...Not sure what to do. Maybe I'll try cutting calories back tomorrow... aya ya ya....
I can stand being hungry during the day, but to not have the reward of a "substantial" meal at the of the day is going to be a tough mental roadblock...
I really would love to lose 6 pounds (well, I guess 5 now) by new years...
it's so frustrating, I feel I'm going to be this size forever. 0 -
How many calories do you normally eat in your one meal ?0
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ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »Hey guys! Just thought I'd report in. Haven't lost any weight, in fact I feel much bigger.Been OMADing faithfully all week...Not sure what to do. Maybe I'll try cutting calories back tomorrow... aya ya ya....
I can stand being hungry during the day, but to not have the reward of a "substantial" meal at the of the day is going to be a tough mental roadblock...
I really would love to lose 6 pounds (well, I guess 5 now) by new years... it's so frustrating, I feel I'm going to be this size forever.
I feel bigger too. I'm having a tough time as well with this process.0 -
You may be losing fat but don't know it. If you are exercising, you may gain muscle and still be losing fat. Also you might be retaining water. You may consider counting cals.0
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ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »Hey guys! Just thought I'd report in. Haven't lost any weight, in fact I feel much bigger. Been OMADing faithfully all week...Not sure what to do. Maybe I'll try cutting calories back tomorrow... aya ya ya....
I can stand being hungry during the day, but to not have the reward of a "substantial" meal at the of the day is going to be a tough mental roadblock...
I really would love to lose 6 pounds (well, I guess 5 now) by new years... it's so frustrating, I feel I'm going to be this size forever.
Feeling you are going to be that size forever is a negative thought. Negs always lie to us, so dont believe it and keep going
Ive had the week from hell, but I refuse to quit, quitting will lead to me gaining weight, which leads to hopelessness which leads to depression, self hatred etc.
I want to be a beacon of light on this journey!! I can, I will, I am.
You can, you will, you are.
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ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »Hey guys! Just thought I'd report in. Haven't lost any weight, in fact I feel much bigger.Been OMADing faithfully all week...Not sure what to do. Maybe I'll try cutting calories back tomorrow... aya ya ya....
I can stand being hungry during the day, but to not have the reward of a "substantial" meal at the of the day is going to be a tough mental roadblock...
I really would love to lose 6 pounds (well, I guess 5 now) by new years... it's so frustrating, I feel I'm going to be this size forever.
I feel bigger too. I'm having a tough time as well with this process.
the same message is for you too Deb
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kittygonzalez3511 wrote: »ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »Hey guys! Just thought I'd report in. Haven't lost any weight, in fact I feel much bigger. Been OMADing faithfully all week...Not sure what to do. Maybe I'll try cutting calories back tomorrow... aya ya ya....
I can stand being hungry during the day, but to not have the reward of a "substantial" meal at the of the day is going to be a tough mental roadblock...
I really would love to lose 6 pounds (well, I guess 5 now) by new years... it's so frustrating, I feel I'm going to be this size forever.
Feeling you are going to be that size forever is a negative thought. Negs always lie to us, so dont believe it and keep going Ive had the week from hell, but I refuse to quit, quitting will lead to me gaining weight, which leads to hopelessness which leads to depression, self hatred etc.
I want to be a beacon of light on this journey!! I can, I will, I am.
You can, you will, you are.
Wow--YES! Utter TRUTH, power-filled, I mean business, I ain't playing with this mess no more, truth you've so wonerfully spoken here...not just for Amelia, but for me too--BOOM!!
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Oh gosh you guys are fab, thanks so much!
Yes, Bob, my intake has been at around 11-1400 cals.(a little higher on the days I did some long hikes) I'm going to cut right down on the things I can't measure EXACTLY (e.g. what on earth IS the exact calorie content of roast chicken, bought from a shop? Depends on many factors), cut out the cheese, the little supplemental goodies, at least for a week and see if that makes any difference. (these were all weighed btw, I've been weighing everything, butter I cook with, etc, and always calculating on the slightly higher end of the scale).
Strangely enough I woke up feeling smaller today. May have burnt some calories off in a passionate embrace last night
Had 1 glass of wine last night
Went to an exhibition thursday and was sober the whole night:)
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Kitty I'm bummed to hear you had a rough week, if it's any consolation I did too (I don't say this to bring the attention back to me, just to commiserate and let you know you aren't alone) and to say, maybe it's something planetary, in the stars. I'm blaming it on that anyway...
If you ever need to unburden yourself, I'm here for you.0 -
ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »Kitty I'm bummed to hear you had a rough week, if it's any consolation I did too (I don't say this to bring the attention back to me, just to commiserate and let you know you aren't alone) and to say, maybe it's something planetary, in the stars. I'm blaming it on that anyway...
If you ever need to unburden yourself, I'm here for you.
Thankyou Amelia xoxox that means alot to me... and vice versa!!
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No probs Kitty, anytime!
Sunday had some neapolitan pizza. If y'all don't know what that is, Naples is the birthplace of pizza.
It's is simple, amazing, with tomatoes from the slopes of vesuvius, basil and mozzarella, cooked in a wood oven, until it's has scorched bits underneath.
Ecco:
I ate 3/4's of it, reluctantly, for it was delicious, but I didn't want to break OMAD (and wheat does it to me every time).
The man I was with then took me home later and fed me one of these: Sfogliatella
. Another Napolitani tradition, layers of pastry with a lemon ricotta filling.
When I came home, I ate again, needed some protein, tomatoes, capsicum and fruit.
I did this as the wheat throws me off and I don't get what I need (nutrients that tide me over) from it.
My point, I guess, is that I seemed to have turned a corner. These foods are delicious but I do not reach for them by myself, I do not want them. I am eating them socially, as opposed to in secret.
Also, I was not hungry yesterday. I was not hungry today. Today I am back on OMAD. (just ate- 500 calorie meal (don't be frightened guys, I haven't seen any weight move so it's kind of a 500 calorie 5 day experiment to see how tough I can be. it ain't forever). Wasn't starving all day like normal. I have plenty of energy. I am feeling really positive and looking forward to continuing, and it getting better, and conquering mind over body. (or brain over primal urges)
I'll see the fellow a bit later this week as he wants to watch a film, but told him I'm cooking: octopus scorched until a little charred, with peppers, garlic, chili and basil. He can get the wine. (1 glass for me).
Oh! also Guys! I had one glass of wine last week, full stop! Didn't want more! I feel so much stronger in my determination and promises to myself, not that kind of "convincing myself" strength, but that inner determination that I'm going to do it! I'm going to beat my eating compulsion. I'm going to beat this monster of gluttony. I'm going to win over my urges.
So come on y'all, if this former alcohol and food addicted, binge eating, depressed little lady can beat this, come and join me0 -
Sounds like OMAD is getting to you Amelia. That's a good thing! A feeling of control will come over a person once they get into the habit of eating this way. Then more benefits will surface and you will be hooked. Best wishes.0
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Also, I don't know about you guys, but I've been feeling real down lately, and I've noticed it has bled over into all areas of my life. I'm schlepping around in scungy slippers, my house cardigan, no makeup (not that I think it's necessary, but you know, not making the most of myself), crappy hair like a scarecrow, no motivation, letting things in my appearance, my attitude and my productivity slide. For many reasons, but a lot of them are at least related to feeling fat and unworthy.
I'm gonna kick the pants off this lousy attitude tomorrow: personal grooming, going to the hairdresser (first time in a million years), get dressed properly, get up early and attend to my life, dang it. I don't want to feel down on myself. Isn't it ridiculous how feeling unworthy affects your whole life.0 -
Thanks Linda!1
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ameliabatemanphotography wrote: »Also, I don't know about you guys, but I've been feeling real down lately, and I've noticed it has bled over into all areas of my life. I'm schlepping around in scungy slippers, my house cardigan, no makeup (not that I think it's necessary, but you know, not making the most of myself), crappy hair like a scarecrow, no motivation, letting things in my appearance, my attitude and my productivity slide. For many reasons, but a lot of them are at least related to feeling fat and unworthy.
I'm gonna kick the pants off this lousy attitude tomorrow: personal grooming, going to the hairdresser (first time in a million years), get dressed properly, get up early and attend to my life, dang it. I don't want to feel down on myself. Isn't it ridiculous how feeling unworthy affects your whole life.
I do know exactly what you are talking about. This morning I had planned to go out to do errands. I grabbed a pair of ribbed gray tights, top, black skirt and boots. When I squeezed on the tights a muffin top spilled over. Then the top showed the little roll on top. I put on the skirt and saw a tummy bump. Ugh. In disgust I thought the same thing as you, Amelia. I just took all the cute clothes off because I didn't feel like I had the body to carry off the outfit. So now I'm in a baggy tee shirt and stretchy pants feeling like a pudgy frumpy blob.0 -
Alright Deb, we gotta change this. It's absurd. If I were to look at you, or anyone else for that matter, all I see is light and beauty shining out and think they are infinitely worthy, of anything, love, care, compassion, a wonderful life. I always have seen this. Yet I cannot give it to myself. We deserve so much more than that.1
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yep agree with Amelia 2million percent.
I hear you about the bumps, I choose to ignore them, i just dress all in black and dominate the town hahah. my bumps are just love bits that are melting away slowly
Lol try putting on fake eyelashes with no glue hahahha (that has been my issue for 2 weeks now, trying to scrounge up glue from my drying bottle , but finally today my husband and I got a new client, so I was able to splash out on 25 sek eyelash glue today...........yay!!!! )
keep your head high and keep the posative thoughts, light and love shining through darling x0x0x0
lol i just converted 25 sek to usd....2.50 usd...wtf??? sounds stupid hey? but we were on a budget of 28bucks a week until the end of January and actually sticking to it.....we all rock when hard times try us. 0 -
AmeliaOMAD wrote: »Alright Deb, we gotta change this. It's absurd. If I were to look at you, or anyone else for that matter, all I see is light and beauty shining out and think they are infinitely worthy, of anything, love, care, compassion, a wonderful life. I always have seen this. Yet I cannot give it to myself. We deserve so much more than that.
Wow Amelia...this is so DEEP what you've written here. I can soooo, totally relate to this as well. It's amazing quite frankly and strangely humbling too.
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