Me Vs the Binge -- April 2017 Challenge
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Me: 6
Binge: 6
BW: 29-12
@moxie42 Thanks but look at you guys. You folks seem to have a handle on our battle right now as well. All the regulars here WOW!2 -
Me: 11
Binge: 1
DBF: 103 -
April 13
Me: 13
Binge: 0
DBF: 193 -
Me: 6
Binge: 7
BW: 29-13
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Me: 13
Binge: 0
DBF: 46
So, this is pretty personal, but hey, I tend to put it all out there when it is relevant to my binging journey.
After 4 hrs of sleep, I spent 17.5 hrs on the road w my roommate yesterday (drive should have been 14 w breaks included... So.much.traffic...) And, today, I am facing a breakup that has been a heavy part of my stress and anxiety in the last 2.5 weeks. I'm looking at that "46 days binge-free" (SIX and a half weeks!!) and I am realizing how significant it truly is...How far I've come in finding other ways to cope when every single day, I want to crumble into this (circumstantial and temporary) sadness. To be in the midst of such a *kitten* time and to still see the silverlining, I am grateful..And still pushing.
Also, @hillmike56 - what does the "BW: 29-13" mean? You do that differently and I haven't figured it out!1 -
@mae918 - Congrats on finding new coping methods. Condolences and good luck on the breakup you've been dreading/anticipating... I maintain that no matter the struggle, we're always stronger together as a group.
@hillmike56 I think the 29 days is total days running, 13 is thirteen days this month? Maybe?2 -
Me: 12
Binge: 1
DBF: 11
@mae918 - So sorry to hear about your breakup and the tough time you're going through. But thank you for sharing. It's a great reminder that no matter how crappy things might feel, that there IS a silver lining and that things can and will look up again. And congrats on over 6 weeks binge-free! THAT is absolutely incredible!2 -
Me: 14
Binge: 0
DBF: 47
Made it through another day and this one was not just avoiding the binge, but actually making healthy, balanced choices. Apparently, mfp autocorrects my mild swear into "kitten". Ha! I didn't know that was a thing...
Thank you @KnitOrMiss , @Moxie42 and @branbuds for taking the time for kind words. I definitely have found strength in me recently that I didn't know I quite had...And, I maintain that I absolutely adore this group. Thank you.4 -
@mae918, I'm sorry that you're going through so much...but inspired that you've kept the binge at bay. Although I often think of food as comfort and bingeing as a stress reliever, the truth is that the aftermath of a binge causes yet more stress. I know that well, and yet so often when feeling an urge to binge, I put my hands over my ears and refuse to listen to the wisdom of past experience. You're showing great strength during a tough time.4
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April 14
Me: 14
The B: 0
DBF: 14+4 -
April 15
Me: 14*
Binge: 1
DBF: 34 -
Me: 15
Binge: 0
DBF: 48
Thank you @Nevadaden . I'm entirely exhausted through it all so I have to figure that part out, still. Somehow it has clicked for me this time that I know the relief of binging will definitely be followed by physical discomfort, disappointment, frustration, anger, sadness... I think I just can't bare to add any more of that to my days when I know the relief piece will be so minor in comparison. So here I am, defeating the binge somehow!3 -
Me: 7
Binge: 9
BW: 30-15
@mae918 Sorry for the emotional pressure of a breakup. Even us folks married can understand that stress to our disorder. A negative time for a spouse can pull down the other.
@KnitOrMiss I'm just trying to keep a longer tally than the month. For some reason I have the 100 day number in my head. I don't want to keep hitting the reset button everytime I fail. Although as I've hit a rough patch as of late I thought about it.
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Me: 16
Binge: 0
DBF: 49
Thank you @hillmike56. This is new territory for me. I have never gone through such a rough patch without depending on food. Also, I really like your idea of not hitting reset everytime. It aligns well with what I'm always preaching about forgiving ourselves the day after a binge. Keep going!2 -
Me: 8
Binge: 9
BW: 31-15
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April 16
Me: 16
The B: 0
DBF: 16+3 -
Me: 14
Binge: 2
DBF: 2
Friday was a pretty bad binge but I took today off work and spent the weekend at my mom's (she lives almost 400 miles away). It was a desperately needed change of scenery and I think it helped me reset. Hoping I can better deal with certain situations going on now that I've had that break. It's so easy to get lost in the details and forget the bigger picture.5 -
April 17
Me: 16*
Binge: 1
DBF: 54 -
Me: 8
Binge: 10
BW: 31-162 -
April 17
Me: 17
The B: 0
DBF: 17+3 -
Me: 14
Binge: 3
DBF: 0
I spoke too soon yesterday...before the vodka sodas at happy hour...4 -
April 18
Me: 15
Binge: 3
DBF: 1
Sigh. Easter happened. I planned what I would eat and when. Each day got worse and worse over the weekend. Yesterday I binged so much that my stomach hurt. I actually wondered if my stomach could burst. Terrible day. I am back on plan today. I have to figure out what went wrong and how to prevent it next time. I have the feeling that I would be wise to put chocolate on my "never" list.2 -
Me: 18
Binge: 0
DBF: 513 -
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April 18
Me: 17
The B: 1
DBF: 0
As binges go, I've had far worse than last night's, but I'm still disappointed. I had what was for me a good streak going....and then, my downfall -- I had the house to myself. Ah, well. As @hillmike56 would say -- it's a war! And so far this month, there are more wins in my column than in the B's.4 -
April 18
Me: 15
Binge: 3
DBF: 1
Sigh. Easter happened. I planned what I would eat and when. Each day got worse and worse over the weekend. Yesterday I binged so much that my stomach hurt. I actually wondered if my stomach could burst. Terrible day. I am back on plan today. I have to figure out what went wrong and how to prevent it next time. I have the feeling that I would be wise to put chocolate on my "never" list.
@branbuds - try pushing it up the dark side of the scale until you get to tolerable and not "MUST IMMEDIATELY HAVE MORE." Also, look into higher magnesium foods... Those desires may also be indicative of magnesium deficiency - with which 90% of first world populations suffer, due to soil depletion, pesticides, GMO's, and so many more things. (more message in PM, to avoid trigger risks here)2 -
Me: 15
Binge: 3
DBF: 1
@branbuds - I know the feeling- that was me on Friday
Glad to see you're still here though! It can be hard to get back on track, especially after a big binge, but the attitude of "let's figure out what went wrong so it can prevented" is awesome!
@Nevadaden - that's my downfall too! Sometimes it helps me to buy/make something special to eat those days- something that lets me splurge a little without going overboard (like making a Hungry Girl recipe, or buying a mini dessert from the store). If I don't plan, or tell myself "I'll be perfectly fine just eating a small salad," I end up in trouble. Not saying that's the way to go for everyone but personally I find it helps
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April 19
Me: 16
Binge: 3
DBF: 2
Thank you to everyone for just being here. It helps so much to know that I am not the only one with these feelings and behaviours! And knowing that I will post here every evening is a motivation to stay on track.3 -
Me: 10
Binge: 10
BW: 33-16
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