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Oh @swenson19d I have done that thing with the depression too... driving along, oh look there’s a tree, now if I just unbuckled my seat belt and floored it... it is not a good space to be in. I swear the only thing that got me through it was thinking if I tried and failed my dad would be so MAD at me. Take your pills and call your doctor and let him know what’s going on with you! Tell your husband, don’t keep it a secret and try to look okay.
Anyway as far as anniversaries are concerned I dunno, my brain is sneaky and it keeps better track of dates than I do. The other night I had the worst dream, my phone was ringing and I couldn't find it. I finally found it and it was my dad saying he thought he was having a stroke and needed help. I woke up and was relieved, my dad doesn’t need help, it was all a dream, wait, he doesn’t need help because he had a stroke and died YEARS AGO... stupid brain, stop it! And just NOW reading your post I realized that I am almost certain he had his first stroke at exactly this time of year, because I remember what flowers were blooming outside the stroke center. I had no conscious memory of that until I started thinking about it because of your post.
Anyway we love you, take care of yourself and hang in there. These things go in waves.3 -
Re: kittens. The kitten I put in for was adopted before my appointment, no other kittens available. I put out an ad and have gotten one offer for a newborn who will be weaned in a couple months, one offer for a perfectly adorable 700 dollar Turkish Angora kitten, and three attempts to scam me by asking for money up front (Western Union, MO or cash) for a “pet finder” service.
700 is really more than I was planning to spend on a long-haired kitten of not my choice of breed, but it’s starting to look like an option.3 -
@swenson19d - I have not real words... I only know from my experience with my mom and later my dad years ago. They both passed in the spring. My dad the end of April and my mom on Memorial Day. it has been more than 40 years ago for my mom and I can still feel the pain of the phone call. The pain has muted over the years but never gone away. It still hurts and I still miss her and it is worse every year at this time. Like @rheddmobile said we love you and are here for you.
@rheddmobile - I would wait until May. I think you will find there are lots of kittens then and it isn't that far away and they won't cost $700 for a long haired kitten not of your choice of breed.1 -
Thanks all. Back on the antidepressant long enough the "oh look at that deep ravine" moments have passed. I talked to DD a bit. I just admitted to the crying, sleeping and overall apathy. All is sorted in my head... that has a terrible headache today. thanks weather. thanks allergies. Everything smells awful.
@rheddmobile I swear your kitten is incubating or suckling as I type. If you have a FB account I'd put the word out. I know some batches have already arrived for the spring. Locally there was a post about a mane coon that needed adopted for 75$... I thought of you. he's in durant oklahoma..LOL! Just in case you need a cat the size of a puppy dog. Wish I could simply UPS you a sweet fur baby or two. Keep looking. I think he/she is calling to you to come get them.
is there a petco around that does adoptions? I think if you have the means, take a day trip and to get a kitten or 2 ( im a fan of two new ones- that's what wrong with beary. he was babied and now comes to me with his every need, never developing his place in the cat world. I love it though, I listen to him). My violin instructor trekked ohio (or somewhere far) to "replace" a great pyrenese (sp) she lost to the mail mans truck on a very rural road. So sometimes a trip is warranted. I do have my fingers crossed for you.
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Beanie is on the wall!!! Wow!
Cori has learned to roll in the dirt. Thanks bean
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@swenson19d Glad you got back on the antidepressants and are doing better. Also glad you talked to DD. Did you two make plans for what you are going to do on her & Alex's birthday? Hope your headache goes away today. Love the cat pictures.0
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quilteryoyo wrote: »@swenson19d Glad you got back on the antidepressants and are doing better. Also glad you talked to DD. Did you two make plans for what you are going to do on her & Alex's birthday? Hope your headache goes away today. Love the cat pictures.
No I have an exam that day. And it is her birthday too. So I don't want Alex's birthday to overshadow hers. I'll probably keep it normal. Make meal, maybe make her carrot cake, or give her shopping money.3 -
@swenson19d It has to be hard to figure out what to do since they were twins. Maybe you should ask her what she would like to do after your exam.1
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quilteryoyo wrote: »@swenson19d It has to be hard to figure out what to do since they were twins. Maybe you should ask her what she would like to do after your exam.
I will. I assume she'll want to hang out with her friends. But she might wanna hang with me, cook a meal, watch some old chick flick. like Miss Congeniality.3 -
I watched one of the Ms Congeniality movies this afternoon! They're so fun.2
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Yesterday, I noticed that I weighed less last year than I did yesterday. What does that mean? It means I have maintained my goal weight for an entire year!!!!! Since my surgery, I gained a little, but am still hovering around 140, my goal weight. I want to lose about 5 pounds so I have that buffer again. Since Feb 20, my Saturday (day I count as my weight for the week) highest weight has been 140.8 and the lowest 139.0. That's pretty close to the definition of maintenance.4
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Weigh in yesterday was good. Back down to where I was to start the year. Now just need to keep it up!
I've been focusing on better food choices but not depriving myself of snacks (just not eating ALL the snacks). Calorie goal seems doable now. Not too low but apparently some wiggle room as I went over a couple of days and still lost (by over I mean 100ish calories, not 600 or something huge).
Grocery trip today. Going to stock up on fruit & veg.
I took a nap yesterday and fell asleep at 8 pm. I didn't accomplish much yesterday but definitely needed the refresh.2 -
You are doing great @RunsOnEspresso !1
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@swenson19d - glad you are feeling a bit better other than the headache. I get them too every time to pressure changes here which seems to be way to frequent! Do you and dd ever go shopping together? That has always been something my dd and I would plan to do as a special day even if we didn't end up buying anything we would walk and talk, get a coffee, maybe some lunch and walk and talk some more. Maybe something to plan for on another day other than the actual birthday so you can focus on your exam, recognize the day with her and maybe go and visit Alex together. I am sure it will be a hard day for her too.
@quilteryoyo - that is definitely great maintaining!
Yay! @RunsOnEspresso! Great that you are back down to where you were at the start of the year and making good, healthy choices!
I am doing ok sort of food wise. I feel like I have been mostly snacking all day on too much carbs (even if home made) and then eating a pretty healthy dinner. We don't want to buy a bunch of groceries we can't consume before the 4th but I still want to go and get some veggies. I am continuing to work through all the tangerines. Most that I can reach, are off the tree now.
Weighed in yesterday and I am up a little but still under 150. Hoping I can get that down to 140, I would be happy with that even if I can't get back down to 135.3 -
@shanaber I have forgotten. What is happening on the 4th? It looks like you are doing well with your weight. You'll get there. At least you are having a healthy dinner.
Got a call this afternoon that my cousin is experiencing confusion and delusions again. They are going to send him to the VA hospital. I hope they can figure out what is going on with him. Last time, they just said cause was undetermined. It's not been 2 full months and he's back. They need to figure it out, but not sure what I can do to "make" them. Any suggestions?
Because of this, I have been eating carbs and watching "Total Recall." Nothing like carbs and fantasy mayhem to forget your troubles for a bit. LOL2 -
@quilteryoyo Interesting about your cousin. Just a few thoughts: is it possible that he needs a "medication vacation"? Rule out UTI or just treat as if he has one, perhaps a specialist (neuro) to assist with the episodes. How to get them to do it??? oh just bug the craap out of them several times a day. Swear. I have seem it motivate some nurses (even good ones) to stay on top of a patients situation just so they have answers for the family when they call.
DD and I use to shop when she was younger. I bet she'd love to go. She has lost prob 50 pounds and could use new stuff. I've gained and could use new stuff...2 -
@quilteryoyo - we are having the house fumigated and have to be out on the 4th for a few days and have anything we could ingest (foods in the fridge and freezer, spices, flour, pasta, medicines, etc.) either out of the house or bagged in these special bags they gave us.
I have no clue on what could be going on with your cousin but I agree with @swenson19d to bug them, maybe ask to meet or talk to his doctor there and ask them to explain what the treatment plan is, what tests are they considering and what they are ruling out. That is what I am going to do with Hilde's doctor. I hate that she is in pain and they don't do anything or even seem to try to figure out what is going on.
Took a pretty much full rest day today other than my PT exercises and stretches. Started going through cupboards and things throwing away out of date stuff. If nothing else our cupboards will be clean and orderly. We had a zoom call with our friends so dh had pizza and I snacked on cheese, hummus and crackers. Then made some more granola.1 -
@shanaber I do remember you telling us that. I just forgot. I'm getting old, you know. I hope they can help Hilde out. Its' so sad and upsetting when doctor's seem to dismiss symptoms, especially in older patients, it seems.
Thanks for the suggestions for my cousin. The director of the assisted living called me this morning. Turns out they sent him to the VA, who deferred him to a local civilian hospital last evening. I was never able to "find" him. All they did was some blood work, found nothing, and sent him back to the assisted living, where he proceeded to be really loud and wake up a lot of the residents. They were finally able to get him to get some rest, but he got up and was loud again, trying to take the fire extinguishers off of the wall and throwing toilet paper down the hall. So, they sent him back to the VA, who now have him. But, they say he is calm and fine there. They are going to run some more tests and the doctor is supposed to call me when she has the results.
I looked up delirium information from Mayo Clinic and I think that is what he is having. Could be lots of things...medications, low sodium or calcium, thyroid issues, etc. I will try to delicately ask if they have tested all these things - or ask "what can be causing these episodes." I am afraid that the assisted living is going to kick him out if he keeps this up....not his fault, but not what they are set up to handle. I spoke with his social worker this morning. She was aware of the situation and said that, if it came to it, she would help me find an appropriate place for him to go. I just hope it doesn't come to that.1 -
@quilteryoyo Sounds like you are on top of things. I wouldn't hesitate to ask about specific conditions, like the medications. This last clinical site likes to take people off everything and then add what is warranted. A lot of older folks are over mediated. It is a diagnosis of polypharmacy. Of course he could have dementia and they can treat that with something to calm him. Keep us update. I hope they get him sorted.
I was coming out of that rough patch and talked to dh...
He said I sound like I am classic female ADHD. I told him no, I may fit ASD. He said there is an overlap and I can be both. So I looked online for a doc and didn't fine anyone. I thought to reach out to the university. They have graduate studies in psychology and sometimes you find you can be a guinea pig for students. So. I had an appointment with student health serviced. The NP gave me a script for buspar, for the anxiety. Dr google says there is Anxiety ADHD. I find that interesting. I still don't like people. LOL.
anyway. we'll see if this helps. who knows. DH said I might consider a low dose ADHD med. I took some of his the other day an notice a big difference in engaging with violin lessons.IDK if it's warranted tho.2 -
I fell down the adhd tiktok hole & I'm pretty sure I have it.4
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Thanks @swenson19d ! Glad you are doing some better.
This thing with my cousin is a mess. Because the ER couldn't find anything physically wrong and he wasn't being combative with them, they sent him back to the assisted living. When I talked to the ER doctor, she said they did test him for all of the things that I had read could be a cause and his levels were all good. She thinks his mental status could just be getting worse and he may need to go to a nursing home or somewhere that is better equipped to take care of his needs than the assisted living is. I talked to the mental health person at the VA and she was no help, really. The social worker said, if it came to it, that she would help me find a place for him. The director at the assisted living has talked to me this afternoon and says that he is still really confused. She is trying to get in touch with a psych person who has seen him there to see if they can admit him for a psych eval. For now, unless he gets combative, he's at the assisted living. I hope this episode passes quickly and then we can discuss alternatives and I can find the right people to talk to at the VA to find out what all of his issues are.
I took mom to the cardiologist this afternoon - at the suggestion of her primary care doctor. She has low blood pressure issues. Her primary care put her on some medication to increase her BP that she just started taking Friday. The cardiologist really didn't do anything because of that, but did set her up to have a heart Echo to check the structure of her heart.
I had walked 2 miles on the treadmill this morning, while waiting on call backs from the VA. Glad I did, because I was not in the mood to do anything after I got home. I've just been eating all things salty. I did run into the grocery store to get some stuff for mom while we were out and I was proud of myself for walking through the potato chip aisle and leaving everything on the shelf. I was really tempted though.0
