WEIGHT NO MORE TEAM CHAT - MAY 2019
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Okay, let me say up front that this is not a call for help. This is just journalling, more or less. Today is a good day (the scale lied to me this morning and said -2.0 since yesterday and blood sugar was one of my best morning readings in a year at 102.) I am so prone to posting rants here when things are frustrating that on a good day like this I think it is a proper time to post an anti-rant. This same post would sound like wallowing if things were going badly, but it is coming from a calm place this time. Skip ahead if you detest the sound of one contemplating one's own belly button.
@cyndiesstuff has challenged me over the past few weeks to look at things differently than I had been: What is my relationship with food? What do I visualize my "finished me" to be? Hard questions for me. Good questions usually are. Smart lady.
I have been thinking a lot about binge eating and how I self-sabotage. It seems to me that whenever I have things going right -- scale cooperating, food impulses under control, good attitude -- I invariably find a way to *kitten* it up. It isn't accidental, it isn't beyond my control. I purposely find a way to make choices to undo progress, to self-harm even. (A diabetic has many ways to inflict damage, and many of them come in wrappers from the supermarket or six packs or with special sauce on a sesame seed bun.) And when I go this route, I do it with style -- it isn't what we here would call a little cheat. It is an all out assault on self-control that may last for weeks or months. It starts with "I deserve it!" and doesn't end until something external like an upcoming doctor appointment smacks me upside the head.
I have come to realize that, for me, there is always some stress that puts me in the mindset to binge. It isn't that I am powerless over the food, it is that I am powerless over the things that are stressing me out. Some everyday stressors are obvious -- dealing with family illnesses, job issues. But the really strong, crappy stress has been with me for a lifetime -- damage inflicted when I was a child, mistakes and choices made across a lifetime. And it's almost as if when things are going well, these stress *kitten* crawl out. And I just don't want to face the causes of the stress. If I did, I'd have to either fix the ones I can fix or admit that I am a lazy or cowardly or unfeeling person. And I'd have to face the ones that cannot fix, and confront the realities that life, providence, and the goddess have seen fit to allow. And in some few cases, I'd have to face the stresses brought on by good things and victories in my life that deep down I might not think I deserve. It's just a lot easier to react to stress with bad behavior than to deal with it. And from childhood onward I have found reinforcement that tells me that this behavior is better than dealing with the real causes of things. (For more details, please provide a couch for me to lie on and I'll give you $80/hour.) Despite being everyone else's problem solver, I don't deal well with my own. And THAT is what I am working on.
That's just a look under the hood at what makes me ME. I'm laying it out there because I have a reminder that being on MFP for me is not about losing weight. Losing weight is just a by-product. I am on MFP because I need to get HEALTHY. Fixing my relationship with food is just a brick in the wall of trying to move myself to a better place emotionally, and the physical side should follow. At my ripe old age I am trying to create new behaviors to deal with old issues.
As for what the "finished me" looks like, all I know right now is he had better be 30 years old with a head full of hair, a smaller nose, and a 32 inch waist.
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Daily Check in: Friday
Food: logged, over
Water: 80 oz
Exercise and steps: 20 minute walk, 15 min bike ride and 9749 steps
Great day yesterday. I got a lot accomplished and picked up my bike from the shop. Ate great until dinner. Had too many chips and then had dessert. None was on my plan. I didn't eat a lot but still shouldn't have had them. I also can't afford to eat them. Today is another busy day after a very relaxing morning. I am making baked ziti for dinner. I am not sure if I am going to eat it or not. I may just take 1/2 the portion I usually have since I am not doing well eating till satisfied. The desserts are downstairs where the kids are hanging. I do have halo top and a vita muffin on my plan for today. It is not something I can do all the time but I think it will help me stay away from the other desserts. Got to get going. Not sure about Kayaking today but I will be biking and walking. Hope everyone is having a great weekend!
@ljdanny I know exactly how you feel. I am creeping back up to 200. Let's do this!
@amsandos I know what a magnum ice cream bar is Lol! They are so good! I love how you waited and worked it into your plan the following day and were able to enjoy it instead of feeling guilty. Great job! I do love your profile pic-you would never know the disaster story that followed Lol! Glad you ended up ok and still like to race!
@carlsoda Thank you! I think my Daisy for me is like your Lucy to you! Lol! I like your plan for the picnic! Have fun!
@kirsten11872 Looks like you are back at it! Great job!
@Mrsbell8well You really are inspiring and have come so far! Enjoy your self defense class. I need more details about the strawberry ice cream..did you blend and freeze? Skylynn is such a cutie! What a blessing for you both that you get to spend so much time together!
@lenka1 Thank you!
@GingerPwr I like your plan for the summer. I need consistency too. Seems like I put off stuff and then rush at the end of the day. I need to create structure for myself too.
@julie8468 How about leaving the veggies and hummus in a cooler in the car but also cut up extra veggies to have with your sandwich? Then it will be more filling and the raw veggies have you chewing more so hopefully it will be more satisfying. Also, maybe when you start getting hungry at work, drink a glass of water. You can get your water in and maybe be able to hold off on lunch for a bit. Just keep trying, you will figure it out!
@DananaNanas Awesome loss!! Maintaining is a great goal! Enjoy your weekend!
@cyndiesstuff I am sorry that you had another binge. Hoping you are having a better day today. I do like the idea of listing the positives first. The past two days I was good until after dinner. So the entire day of positives were discounted because of a few wrong choices.
@Zumba_Luvah Hope all is going well. You can always check in with us if you need anything.
@eyesopennow Thank you for taking the time to write that. A lot that you wrote rang true for me too. You gave me a lot to think about.... Celebrate your wonderful morning with your good blood sugar and lower weight. You have been working hard and deserve the success you have!3 -
kirsten11872
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Weigh-in day: Saturday
Previous weight:171.4
Current weight:162.6
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Hello & happy Saturday! 😊☀️🌈
When I stepped on the scale this morning I almost crapped myself, lol. I weighed myself 3 times and thought it must be something wrong with the scale. I went to my WW meeting, got on the scale and it was the same, I’m in shock! All my exercise and healthy eating and IF really paid off. Now to keep it up and not undo it over the weekend.
Going to a BBQ today, really going to try to not overeat. I always go with good intentions, but it doesn’t always stick.
Have a great weekend! The weather is gorgeous here, really happy to see the sun!😊🥰☀️🌈7 -
Friday check in
Food - Logged & a bit over
Water 1.3 l
Exercise- 9270 steps including 26 minute run & physio
On the mend but still coughing! I tried to get to 10k steps but fell asleep in the couch before I got there. My husband and I had dinner out last night unplanned but was very careful with what & how much I ate. We have our real date night tonight & have done the planning for that.
@eyesopennow - So much of what you wrote resonates! Thank you for writing it! You may just find that your best self is standing right in front of you at your current age!
@kristen11872 - congrats, that is some loss!!
@sleepymom5 - baked ziti is one of my favorites! Hope that you have a bit!
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This is from an artist who I follow on Instagram. It was just what I needed today & am passing it on.
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The drive to California went fine but its a challenge to eat well while on the road. I’m feeling bloated and dehydrated. Way too much time sitting in the car. I didn’t anticipate how crappy I would feel when I’m not able to exercise. Physical activity has become such an ingrained part of my day. I brought my Instant Pot with me so yesterday afternoon I made some hard boiled eggs and shredded chicken breasts so I have go-to food ready when I need it and picked up some fruit & veggies.
I listened to a Podcast with Maria Schriver and Brenee Brown about setting boundaries. I’m going to try to practice some of what they discussed. Its necessary to be able to say “no” at times during this trip in order to make time for maintaining my healthy habits.
My friend is back in the hospital and having a procedure today so I won’t see her until tomorrow. She can’t catch a break. It really is true when they say when you have your health, you have it all. Having dinner with another friend tonight. I struggle with the fullness feeling so I’m working on leaving food on the plate.
I miss checking in and reading everyone’s posts each day. You all are so inspiring and this is such a great team. Each and every one of you brings something meaningful. I wish I had time to catch up on how everyone is doing. Wishing you all a wonderful weekend.4 -
I may be MIA for a few days. My Mom fell and was sent to the ER yesterday. Everything checked out normal and she was sent home. Today she is very confused, has a low grade fever and can't get up by herself. They are waiting to hear back from the doctor but I suspect they will send her back to the hospital. I am changing my plans to leave today or tomorrow morning for Florida. I will keep you posted, just wanted to let you all know incase I am not back on here. Keep us in your prayers11
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@sleepymom5 hope your mom feels better.
I spent the day out in the yard. I got all the mulch spread, moved a ton of wood and I mean tree stumps that need to be cut into wood. I also started pressure washing, I did one wall and half the fence. I am exhausted now, I had to quit for the day, but I will be back at it tomorrow after my Zumba class. Oh yes I did start my day with a walk. Felt productive overall.5 -
Hello and happy Saturday everyone. I’m not going to complain about myself so let’s just say that I’m giving it my best. It’s a day at a time and I started out my morning at my line dance class which was a total blast!!7
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sleepymom5 wrote: »I may be MIA for a few days. My Mom fell and was sent to the ER yesterday. Everything checked out normal and she was sent home. Today she is very confused, has a low grade fever and can't get up by herself. They are waiting to hear back from the doctor but I suspect they will send her back to the hospital. I am changing my plans to leave today or tomorrow morning for Florida. I will keep you posted, just wanted to let you all know incase I am not back on here. Keep us in your prayers
I hope everything is all right! I'll pick up any missing weigh-ins when I do the tallies, so do not worry about anything. Although I'm sure @cyndiesstuff has it covered - we've got your back. Relax and take care of mom.1 -
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@sleepymom5 prayers being sent you and your family.
Btw...I put the frozen fruit in the food processor, add milk to thin, some maple syrup or honey...voila you have nice cream ready to eat. I bought vegan marshmallows yesterday to make rocky road.
@eyesopennow thanks for sharing. You would make a great writer.
Yesterday we had two large pine trees taken down. Too close to the house. We have greatly expanded our gorgeous view. Molly and I made menus and went grocery shopping.
More later need to get in an hour run now before it heats up too much.
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This is Team Weight No More's weekly challenge brought to you by @cyndiesstuff and @sleepymom5. This is a team building exercise that will help you bond with you team mates. Please share bits of your personal life with your team. In doing so, you will help build a strong network of accountability partners. It is hard to be accountable with people you don't know. Let's start changing that by participating with this challenge. You will post the pictures in your own team thread. Have Fun!!
Sunday - Picture of Something your reading. Share why you are reading this. What it means to you.
Monday - Picture of something you bought. Why did you buy it? Why was it needed?
Tuesday - Picture of your favorite kitchen tool. Why is it your favorite? What do you use it for?
Wednesday - Picture of your work in progress. What is it? What will you use it for when your done?
Thursday - Picture of Exploring the outdoors. Where are you at? What did you find?
Friday - Picture of something extraordinary. What is it? Why is it extra special?
Saturday - Picture of just a smile. Who's smile is it? What is beautiful about it?4 -
Daily Check in: Saturday
Food: it wasn't pretty
Water: what water
Exercise and steps: 4941 steps
bad pain day yesterday. it happens alot when i eat like crap or i eat like crap cause it happens alot. today is a new day tho. and the new cyndie, my future self, needs me. i will help her.
@Zumba_Luvah ohhh thats ok. you just keep working your plan. you are a strong woman. this is a tough thing to do but you are tougher.
@carlsoda i love phlox as well. are you talking about creeping phlox or tall phlox? i also love peonies!! the smell so wonderful. and as for something to learn...... it has been this way now for 8 years. i wish i would hurry up and learn what i needed to learn. lol
@eyesopennow omgosh thank you for sharing. you.... you are pithy! we all have a story. and we have all learned ways to cope with the things that have happened to us along the way. i, like you, am good at helping others, i know what i should be doing. i know what would help. many times i just choose not to. the compulsion to over eat is deeply engrained in who we are. but it doesn't have to be like that forever. just like we chose the compulsive behavior in the first place we can no chose to think differently. it take practice. lots of practice. it starts with retraining our brain away from those automatic thoughts. your brain works the same as mine, and you will need to tell yourself thing that the old you will not want to believe is true. so prove to yourself today that you are going to change the way you think. the new you is waiting. giving up is not an option. no i know that the podcasts i have been talking about are geared toward women. but i truly believe that it will help you by giving you the tools you need to start changing this behavior. as for the new you... we can't go back. build the man on the outside that you are in your heart. he will do just fine. xo buddy
@sleepymom5 you are doing fantastic. you are no longer blind to what is going on. that is why it is difficult for you. your flawed thinking is showing and that is uncomfortable. be kind to yourself. work some yum into your daily plan. you diet should be 10 % joy food. that doesn't mean unplanned food. plan your joy food into your 24 hour plan. i pray that your mom is surrounded by the amazing people she needs to help her with this. and i pray that you will have the strength. do not let go of your planning. you will need your strength.
@kirsten11872 holy toledo. that is a crazy good loss this week. woooo whoo. i am doing the happy dance!!
@Cafelelia you are doing awesome. enjoy your dinner and i love that meme. it is so true.
@nstephenson01 ohhh i think i cried a little. do you know why? you have already engrained some great new things into your life that have become habit. wow. you rock lady!!
@ljdanny you sound like you had an amazing day!~! keep it up!
@lennoncpa sometimes your best is truly all anyone can expect. even yourself. go easy on her. but don't let her try to fool you into thinking you can't!! because you can.
@hope002 really have been missing you checking in with us. you seem to do better when you come here and share. what ever it is. we are here for you.
@Mrsbell8well will you plant anything in the pine trees place? maybe a beautiful flowering bush?
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As a whole we lost 32.3 LBS or 0.13% !!
THE WINNERS ARE...
TEAM % TRIMSTONES 0.23%
INDIVIDUAL % kirsten11872 5.13%
TEAM LBS LOST TRIMSTONES 8.9
INDIVIDUAL LBS LOST kirsten11872 8.80
TEAM % LOST
PLACE TEAM PERCENTAGE
1st TRIMSTONES 0.23%
2nd SHRINKING ASSETS 0.18%
3rd WAIST AWAYS 0.16%
TEAM LBS LOST
PLACE TEAM LBS LOST
1st TRIMSTONES 8.9
2nd SHRINKING ASSETS 6.6
2ND WAIST AWAYS 6.6
3RD WEIGHT NO MORE 6.0
INDIVIDUAL % LOST
PLACE INDIVIDUAL PERCENTAGE
1st kirsten11872 5.13%
2nd SaraMakingChanges 3.54%
3rd DananaNanas 2.97%
IINDIVIDUAL LBS LOST
PLACE INDIVIDUAL LBS LOST
1st kirsten11872 8.8
2nd SaraMakingChanges 7.0
3rd DreaRN15 6.4
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Just finished my 70 minute workout. I did great but it was hot and hilly. My longest distance yet. I’m ready for next Saturday 10K. I think. Lol4
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On my run I was thinking about our weight challenges. They are different for everyone but most of us have a common thread. It does get easier with practice. I am rarely out of control but it hasn’t always been like that. It’s degrees of a spectrum. One end can seem mild as we struggle to lose those last few pounds and the other spectrum can lead to death with various eating disorders. And then there is what we eat. I view some diaries that scare me. The calories are under but the choices feel like a heart attack waiting to happen. Really food is about fueling our bodies. We talk about joy food and yes there are treats that delight us if eaten or drunken in moderation. But when I think about why we eat, it’s nourishment. Especially if we say we want to be healthy.
Foods that are fresh and unprocessed give us vitality and stamina. And I personally feel so much self love when I sit down to a delicious beautiful meal full of vibrant colors and vitamins.
Just something to reflect on. We stocked our fridge yesterday with delicious fresh produce. Now the challenge is to prep them and eat them.
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Hello and happy Sunday! It’s going to be a hot one today, around 90! It’s finally feeling like the summer is here!🥰😊☀️🌈
I’m feeling really good after yesterday’s weigh-in! I did awesome at the bbq yesterday. I only had one mimosa and ate well. I tracked all my food. I’m upset, I forgot to complete my diary, we got home late. My goal this week is to continue what I did last week, IF, eating healthy and getting in exercise. I highly doubt I will have another week like yesterday, but after a week or so of no workouts and not eating well, my body responded to all the good I was doing.
I hope you all enjoy your day and the long weekend!😄😄😄
@Mrsbell8well your strawberry ice cream looks delicious and Skylynn is adorable! It’s great that she enjoys eating fruit! Also, I agree about what foods we eat to fuel our bodies! I really try to eat fresh food as often as possible, it’s not always easy, but I feel so much better when I do!😊
Thanks @cyndiess I’m feeling great!😊2 -
@sleepymom5 I’m so sorry about your mom! Please keep us posted when you can! Lots of prayers for your mom! Have a safe trip!🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻0
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@lennoncpa glad you enjoyed line dancing, sounds like fun! 😄0
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Joy food! My daughter and the kids picked 15 pounds of fresh strawberries2 -
@Cafelelia - so true! I learned that years ago, everything I worried about turned out different!
@eyesopennow - good to get it out in words. I would say 5-10 years ago it was all about losing weight. Today I am on MFP to fix my stinking thinking and become healthy.
@sleepymom5 - hope all is well with your mom. Sending prayers.
@kirsten11872 - holy cow! Epic weight loss!! Awesome job!
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Saturday check in:
Food - not as good as I wanted
Water - good
Exercise - got in my 10,000+ steps
Well yesterday didn’t go as I planned. By the time we ate lunch it was 3:00 pm and I was starving. Extra foods not on plan were: sour cream and onion chips and a piece of Costco apple pie. OMG both were delicious. We didn’t have supper since we ate late, just grabbed a hard boiled egg Stephen we got home.
Today we are hoping to go hiking at a state park. If we do, I will bring lots of healthy foods!3 -
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This is my new book I will be starting soon. I adore books that involve a mystery and Britain during the great world wars. I am always on the look out for these topics!5 -
Happy Sunday morning everyone. I’m keeping a positive attitude today. One of my friends that I went to Las Vegas with has come down with bacterial meningitis and it’s shocking that one day we were walking 20,000 steps a day in Vegas and now she just got out of the hospital and may never hear again and can’t walk more than 2 houses. It’s truly a day at a time. You just never know!!8
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Thanks for the prayers for my Mother. I am still in Orlando, I am heading out soon. I got in so late and couldn't sleep so I slept in very late. Not sure when I can check in again. Hopefully by tomorrow things settle down a bit. I still can't believe I am here.8
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