Confess to, analyse & learn from your binge here
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Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 6/26/13
Time of binge : Approx. 1pm-5:40pm (on and off)
Location of binge : Kitchen, computer room.
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : standing in kitchen, sitting in computer room. Body language could be described as 'blah' at the time.
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : Approx 2910.
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... Maybe 20 minutes before it actually happened. I had 'binge' on the brain a bit prior by tried to remedy those 'need to eat' feeling with carrots at first. FAIL!
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... drinking some water, at the computer.
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... tired, sore, conflicted (should I work out? Hurt knee during a fall yesterday. Went back and forth, just work out, no don't you'll make the knee worse, blah blah)
During the binge I felt ......Blah. Nothing special, but also feeling like 'here I go AGAIN'.
After the binge I felt ......angry, physically miserable (full, heavy fat stomach, if I ate more I am sure I would puke) I feel like I have ONCE AGAIN let myself down.
From this binge, I have learned ........that once again I effed up and no matter how many times it happens and how awful it ALWAYS feels, that for some reason it's still not enough to make me STOP doing it.
I deleted the last part because I won't happily move on and I WILL beat myself up over it.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 6/26
Time of binge : 6:30pm
Location of binge : home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : sitting slouched on the couch
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone with my dog
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 2,000
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ...........1.5hrs
Before I started to binge I was doing .........spent an hour and a half at the secretary of state, picked up fast food on the way home, binged when I got home
Before I started to binge I was feeling ..........bored, lonely
During the binge I felt ......nothing
After the binge I felt ......too full, disappointed (sad that I let myself do this again)
From this binge, I have learned ........my goals of being healthy are so much more important than the urge to binge. I feel happier and better when I do not cave to my cravings.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 6/28
Time of binge : 4pm
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting on the couch
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : About 3,000.
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was: 1 hr.
Before I started to binge I was doing .........Sat on my bed and couch crying.
Before I started to binge I was feeling ...Sad, lonely
During the binge I felt ......Relief.
After the binge I felt ......Guilty
From this binge, I have learned ........My goals are more important as well as my happiness for a healthy lifestyle.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 6/28
Time of binge : 4:30--10 p.m.
Location of binge : Mom's house, then my living room after 6:30
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : sitting, probably slumped
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : at Mom's house= Mom, son, brother, sister-in-law; at home=by myself
Approximate calories consumed during binge : I added up the calories and got about 1,000 calories.
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... I didn't even stop to think about it. I just started stuffing myself.
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... at Mom's house=talking to Mom and watching my son; at my house=reading/playing around on computer
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... I don't know how I felt. I guess disconnected from myself.
During the binge I felt ...... a little guilty but mostly numb.
After the binge I felt ...... even more guilty.
From this binge, I have learned ........ I binge a lot when I'm at my mom's house, for whatever reason. I probably fall back in to old habits when I'm there. I can't say no. I have also learned that I cannot buy a loaf of bread from the bakery because I will eat the whole thing. Tonight I threw away the last 1/4 of the loaf. I felt guilty for "wasting" food, but I also felt a lot better after I threw it in to the compost bin.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
I really needed to write this out today.
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : June 29 2013
Time of binge : 9:45 pm
Location of binge : Couch
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Laying down
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1300 (20 minutes)
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... About an hour. I called a friend and tried to distract myself and then ordered it while I was on the phone with her.
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Trying to zone out by watching TV and distracting myself from thinking about my problems.
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Feeling sad, alone, unattractive.
During the binge I felt ...... Distracted, comforted, disgusted
After the binge I felt ...... Hate (toward myself), unattractive, fat, disgusted, alone and deserving of being alone
From this binge, I have learned ........ Binge eating makes me feel worse than before I started. I haven't binged in a long time, and all the sad unworthy feelings I was feeling just overwhelmed my resolve not to overeat. I didn't realize that I still felt exactly the same things I felt before the binge compared to after. Binge eating doesn't solve my problems. It doesn't make me feel better. It makes me feel worse, and alone, and disgusted and disappointed in myself. But it's over. And all I can do is eat normally (not starve myself or lie to myself about how I'll eat better) but I can eat normal. I am worthy.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : July 4, 2013
Time of binge : Around 2:30
Location of binge : Home.
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting.
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone.
Approximate calories consumed during binge : ~800
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ......... I battled with myself for approximately half an hour.
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Studying.
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Bored.
During the binge I felt ...... Resignation
After the binge I felt ...... At first I felt the usual guilt and disgust with myself, but I forgave myself relatively quickly, and now I'm just kinda frustrated and discouraged.
From this binge, I have learned ........ It occurred at the usual time and overall was pretty standard. A bit better than usual, I would even say. At least this time I didn't reach the point of being so full I'm feeling sick.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
This is a great idea, you might be seeing a lot of me on here but hopefully not. I kind of have all day binges..
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 05/07/13
Time of binge : 12pm-4pm and 11pm-1am (work in between)
Location of binge : Home/Car
Body language during binge: Lying in bed, standing in kitchen, sitting in car at carpark outside kfc.
Company kept: alone.
Approximate calories consumed during binge : total: 4000 12pm-4pm: 2600 11pm-1am- 1400
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ... woke up to the delivery of candy (first mistake) couldn't stop eating after that.
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... sleeping before first binge working before second binge
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... i don't know
wasn't hungry though.
During the binge I felt ...... occupied
After the binge I felt ...... disappointed, sick but not full (i never feel full)
From this binge, I have learned ........ not to eat candy in the morning cause it all goes down hill from there.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 05/07/13
Time of binge : 9 pm
Location of binge : the bed in my apartment
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : sitting, watching tv
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : ~2000
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was very short, no more than twenty minutes.
Before I started to binge I was doing great the whole weak, today I've been trying to finish a really frustrating paper though and had called my mom, which resulted in me being super homesick.
Before I started to binge I was feeling incredibly lonely, everyone I know is out of town or has no time for me.
During the binge I felt lonely, empty, sad, trying to justify it with PMS.
After the binge I felt sick, but still empty and lonely and homesick. I cried a little.
From this binge, I have learned that I should have just cried right away. At least I could have been sad and hot. Now I'm just sad and a step behind.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.
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Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 09/07/13
Time of binge : All day
Location of binge : At home
Body language during binge: sitting/standing in kitchen
Company kept : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 4700
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was the night before.
Before I started to binge I woke up too early, couldn't get back to sleep
Before I started to binge I was feeling tired, stressed, upset, alone, sad... shall i go on?
During the binge I felt fulfilled.. my mind was too busy with food to worry about other things
After the binge I felt ...... how i felt before the binge plus fat disgusting and bloated
From this binge, I have learned ........ that i can't eat away my feeling i just feel worse afterwards.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : July 4th, 2013 and July 5th
Time of binge : 1am
Location of binge : Home kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting at kitchen table
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1,100
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... Really never thought about it. Just did it!
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... watching television
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... don't remember any feelings
During the binge I felt ...... stupid
After the binge I felt ...... stupid and over filled (today, July 9th I feel like crying over this mindless eating)
From this binge, I have learned ........ not to bring ice cream (ate the whole container all at once) into the house because I cannot control my behavior. And then the next day did the same thing. I feel like puking just thinking about it. Ugh!
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
the above confession includes july 5th also.
Sorry, added that already!0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : July 6th
Time of binge : 6pm
Location of binge : Home kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : standing at the cupboards
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1,100 in 10 minutes
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... about an hour
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... not much
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... hungry
During the binge I felt ...... daft because I was very aware of what I was doing, tasted great
After the binge I felt ...... worried about how I was ever going to get into my cocktail dress next week and that I would have to buy more food
From this binge, I have learned ........ that I have no will power
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Date of binge : The past week --but I'll analyze tonight's binge
Time of binge : 10 pm
Location of binge : living room couh.
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : laying down and sitting.
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone / mom in the other room
Approximate calories consumed during binge : i want to say nearly 2000
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... very quick
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... working
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... like i was going to binge
During the binge I felt ...... disgusting.
After the binge I felt ...... disgustin.g
From this binge, I have learned ........ that i can't keep doing this to myself and to my body. it's gross.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : July 18, 2013
Time of binge : 12:30 pm
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting, standing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : Didn't want to count but in ball park I know it's between 2000 to 3000
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... Not much as even a moment. After breakfast, I kept eating more and more food. Telling myself it's okay because I can fit it in.
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Having a coffee thinking it is a good time to have breakfast
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... So I had my three eggs, apple, few slices of honeydew... then my food intake continued. I would ask myself 'why not a little more of this, or why not this too?"
During the binge I felt ...... Confused. It's Day 3 of Binge and I thought by allowing myself to eat the foods I want I would stop eventually. But I didn't, so it started of light and soon as you know it the entire packaging is empty.
After the binge I felt ...... Uncomfortable. And wondering how long I will digest the food so I can actualyl do something today.
From this binge, I have learned ........ That I might not be able to trust myself with will power. I am worried about tomorrow after my first initial meal. I don't know why I can't control it. I don't need the food, I am not hungry but I do it like it's a job.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.
Good way to think about it! It can be really hard for me to "move on" sometimes - its awesome that you seem ready and willing to let it go and look forward!0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 7/24/13
Time of binge : 215
Location of binge : Home, in front of computer
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : sitting Indian style...feet not on ground
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1220
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 2 hours
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... on the computer, procrastinating, not doing the homework I was supposed to, trying to come up with a plan to get on track with my eating, thinking I can give myself a week of binging and get back on track
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... down on myself, guilt, embarrassment, shame, anxious, overwhelmed, helpless
During the binge I felt ......guilt, excitement, this is the last time
After the binge I felt ......uncomfortable, upset with self, mad at self, shaming self
From this binge, I have learned ........I use food to keep me from doing what I am supposed to, gluten and sugar are my triggers big time, and I use food to cope with anxiety when starting something new-it helps me feel comfort, grounded, safe, yet a bit numbing. I am wondering if I use it to sabotage myself from living the life I want to live since it keeps me stuck in my fear.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
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Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 25 July 2013
Time of binge : 5 - 9pm
Location of binge : Work
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting slumped over desk.
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone.
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1,500.
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 5 minutes
Before I started to binge I was at home procrastinationg from school work.
Before I started to binge I was feeling sad about my break up.
During the binge I felt guilty, sad.
After the binge I felt guilter and sadder!
From this binge, I have learned gluten and sugar are dangerous for me. Binges are triggered by emotions. I shouldn't try to eat my feelings.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
I've been binge eating a lot lately. Off and on . It's causing me to withdrawal from friends on this site, it causes me to not wanna see irl friends. It makes me feel alone. I don't even look forward to much in life anymore. My thoughts are always telling me I'll only have a good life once I lose these 30-40 lbs. I feel depressed but I'm not sure how serious it is, if I would go a week without binge eating I'd feel more high on life... but ultimately would not be satisfied until the rest of this weight goes away.
I feel like I'm failing all the normal people on this site who go about losing weight and posting progress pics. I've been here a year and I'm the same weight I started minus 5 lbs.. I yo yo.
F***.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm contemplating diet pills to take my hunger away because I already have cravings, the hunger while restricting at all...doesn't help at all. It's like, a small bit of hunger makes me want to eat...then I over eat, or crave high calorie stuff.
I'm so sorry for this rant I haven't even been involved in the group much this month. But today was a binge day, so I guess this is confessing and trying to analyze my behavior... 0 -
Date of binge : 7/25/13
Time of binge : 3 p.m.
Location of binge : Work and then home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : At work, sitting. At home, standing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1190
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 1 hour
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... at work, feeling frustrated because I lost a document I was working on. At home, feeling overwhelmed with the amount of school work I have to do in the next week. Also, feeling frustrated with the messy state of my home.
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... frustrated, overwhelmed. I felt like I was on autopilot and knew exactly what I was going to do, but couldn't stop it.
During the binge I felt ......guilt, knowing the whole time that I said the last time was the last time, now here I am again! Telling myself this would be the last time.
After the binge I felt ...... sick to my stomach, tired, guilty, frustrated with myself
From this binge, I have learned ........I need to find a better way of managing feelings and stress. I use binges to distract me from what I really need to be doing. I am afraid of success whether it be my weight, school work, work work, whatever.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Well here we go......
Binge #1:
Date of binge : 7/19/13
Time of binge : 7pm
Location of binge : Friend's birthday
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : At party
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : W/ friends
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1500
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... When dinner was served
Before I started to binge I was........... at the party
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... accepting of the fact that I had to eat the food they served me
During the binge I felt ...... disappointed, anxious
After the binge I felt ...... disappointed, hopeless
From this binge, I have learned ........I need to control my eating habits/sugar cravings when in an uncontrolled environment
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.
Binge #2:
Date of binge : 7/21/13
Time of binge : All day
Location of binge : Restaurant, Movie Theatre, Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Socializing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Family, friends, alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 2400
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was .......... No time at all
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... waiting in a restaurant for brunch w/ my family
Before I started to binge I was feeling ..........excited
During the binge I felt ......guilt, disappointed, hopeless
After the binge I felt ......frustrated, disappointed, hopeless
From this binge, I have learned ........ I need to control myself during outings
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.
Binge #3:
Date of binge : 7/23/13
Time of binge : 9pm
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : On couch, watching tv
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1500
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... about 45 min
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... watching tv
Before I started to binge I was......... craving sweets
During the binge I felt ......guilty, hopeless, worthless, frustrated
After the binge I felt ...... bloated, fat, frustrated at eating over my calories three times in a week
From this binge, I have learned ........that I need to control my sweet tooth!
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Aug 1, 2013
Time of binge : 10:20am-12pm
Location of binge : Metrotown mall in burnaby
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : while eating, slouched and sitting ... ordering standing, head down
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : by myself
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1665 Cals
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... about an hour to an hour and a half
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... riding on the train out to Metrotown (a mall), then walking through the mall to get to food court
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... lonely, bored, empty
During the binge I felt ...... disgusting, fat, evil, lonely, bored, empty
After the binge I felt ...... same as above
From this binge, I have learned ........ that the binge doesn't solve a single thing, it just makes you feel worse
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : July 30th
Time of binge : All dayyyy
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge : Sitting on my bed & then in the kitchen
Company kept : Alone for the majority, made pasta at night.
Approximate calories consumed during binge : Around 4,000
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 5 minutes probably. I had my day all planned out and full of healthy foods. In the morning I decided I wanted cereal and kept eating cereal. It wouldn't have been so bad, but I just decide 'might as well cheat the rest of the day'. 3 bowls of cereal led to 3 peices of toast, which led to half a jar of peanut butter, and oreos, and a bunch of pasta for dinner
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Sleeping
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Hungry, maybe deprived? Before a binge I tell myself that I'm skinny and I need to eat a bunch of food, but it's so unhealthy I just want to eat like a normal person.
During the binge I felt ...... Like I knew I was going to feel gross after, but I enjoyed eating.
After the binge I felt ...... Bloated and gross. My stomach was in so much pain because I ate gluten.
From this binge, I have learned ........ I need some self control and to stay away from cereal.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up. I'm also going to start a mission to start eating my maintenance calories by upping my daily intake 50-100 calories each week & I want to finish C25k! (:
Hopefully my last ALL day binge where I feel so out of control!0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : August 1st, 2013
Time of binge : 8:30 - 10 PM
Location of binge : kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : standing, tense
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone at first, my mom was then present watching TV
Approximate calories consumed during binge : around 900
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... throughout the day. sudden urges, but they'd pass because too many people were around.
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... cleaning up dishes after dinner
Before I started to binge I was feeling ..........tired, headache, frustrated
During the binge I felt ...... comforted
After the binge I felt ...... disgusting, uncomfortable
From this binge, I have learned ........ That I NEED HELP controlling my binging urges and saying NO to them.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up. *Even though I am relieved for confessing, I still feel bad about it, but tomorrow's another day. Must keep writing away in my Binge Diary!0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 1st August
Time of binge : around 9pm
Location of binge : my house
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : sitting
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : family
Approximate calories consumed during binge : around 600 (not as bad as some binges, but I did feel incredibly full and sick and stomach had doubled in size!)
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... I had an urge all day!
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... I had been driving all day and hardly eaten anything, then I was relaxed after dinner
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... hungry, "it doesn't matter if I binge tonight" is the usual
During the binge I felt ...... like I shouldn't be eating anymore!
After the binge I felt ...... disgusting, uncomfortable
From this binge, I have learned ........ to not go without food all day, and even low cal/fat foods can bloat you up more than pizza!
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up. (I am beating myself up oops)0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 2 August 2013
Time of binge : 11.30 pm
Location of binge : Kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Standing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1800
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was 4 mins
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... sleeping
Before I started to binge I was feeling .....tired, i woke up
During the binge I felt ...... nothing, I new i was doing something wrong, I ididnt havr a clear head
After the binge I felt ...... Bloated, like a faliure, I was doing so well.
From this binge, I have learned to try and go to sleep earlier and not allocate all my dessert food so late at night because thats when I usually binge.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : August 1st, 2013
Time of binge : throughout evening
Location of binge : bar, 24-Hour grocery store, fast food place
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : sitting, slumped, walking around, fidgety
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : at first I was around coworkers, then I was alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge :
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was: I had been thinking about and fantasizing about bingeing for days. I knew I probably would because I was going out drinking with friends/coworkers.
Before I started to binge I was doing: drinking, socializing with friends/coworkers
Before I started to binge I was feeling: excited, anxious, urgent
During the binge I felt: urgent, embarrassed
After the binge I felt: like I wanted to keep bingeing, wanting to find a way to purge, embarrassed, uncomfortable
From this binge, I have learned: fantasizing about a binge, restricting, and drinking sets me up to binge
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.
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Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 7/29/13
Time of binge : 4-5:00 PM
Location of binge : In my kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Standing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone (I'm always alone during binges)
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1200
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 5 minutes. I just thought I was getting a quick snack at first.
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... cooking a nutritious dinner for the next day.
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... anxious, upset, overtired. I was getting ready to go to a birthday party that wasn't going to include dinner, just drinks and cake. I was trying to figure out when to fit in dinner, or at least a quick snack, plus how to get everything done (cooking, cleaning) for the work week. My boyfriend was at a family gathering (which I wasn't invited to, so feeling slightly resentful), and I wasn't sure when/if he was going to show up for the party. It was stressing me out.
During the binge I felt ...... resentful and full of self-loathing, yet justified. I had a biscuit, then a handful of tortilla chips, and suddenly I'm eating a ton of crap, none of which I really wanted to eat. It didn't matter anymore, because I'd already gone over my cal limit for the day.
After the binge I felt ...... bloated and gross. I wanted to just go to bed, but because I was bringing the cake, had to drag myself to the party instead.
From this binge, I have learned ........ to try to be less anxious about everything. The party turned out to be a lot of fun, and my boyfriend made it to the party.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up. I know my triggers, after the fact. I just have to recognize them before a binge happens, and calm down long enough to keep myself from binging.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Aug 7, 13 Binge day
Time of binge : Afternoon
Location of binge : home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Walking around a lot
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Mother in Law here
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1000+-
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... I knew it almost right away but still did not stop
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... nothing ?
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... stressed!!
During the binge I felt ...... Still stressed but better
After the binge I felt ...... Horrible and guilty
From this binge, I have learned ........ I do not handle stress well
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Last night, 17 August 2013
Time of binge : 10-11pm
Location of binge : Kitchen bench and sitting on the Lounge
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Kitchen - standing; Lounge - sitting back, legs up
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone of course!! Secret!!
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 5,000 in 60-90 minutes
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 10 minutes
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Watching TV by myself
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Fine. Although looking back, I think I was lonely.
During the binge I felt ...... Nothing. I was not thinking or feeling.
After the binge I felt ...... Disgusted in myself, sick, physically sick, guilty, ashamed, self-hatred, remorse, disbelief, angry, fat
From this binge, I have learned ........ I'm not as in control of my eating as I thought I had become. I can't have junk foods around, I need to keep them out of my kitchen. I need to bring my behaviours back into my consciousness so I can get a handle on this again.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.
I wrote about it in my blog.
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/blog/SkimFlatWhite68/view/who-needs-enemies-when-you-have-self-sabotage-5670760
