Confess to, analyse & learn from your binge here
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Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 8/19/13
Time of binge : 9pm
Location of binge : my kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : standing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 500?
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was: 5 min
Before I started to binge I was doing: mindlessly scrolling through online blogs
Before I started to binge I was feeling: tired, anxious
During the binge I felt: irritable, out of control
After the binge I felt: defeated
From this binge, I have learned: I feel out of control many times in my life and this creates anxiety, binging does not make me have more control in my life and does not fill this void.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 8/20/13
Time of binge : 11pm
Location of binge : kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : standing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 500
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was: very short - about 30 secs.
Before I started to binge I was doing: browsing sites online, waiting for text response
Before I started to binge I was feeling: angry, resentful, abandoned, lonely, threatened, insecure, vulnerable, out of control
During the binge I felt: frustrated with myself, sad, angry, isolated
After the binge I felt: hopeless
From this binge, I have learned: I know that I binge when I feel lonely or like I can't control a situation. It's the way I punish myself when I feel like I'm not good enough. It becomes my comfort, my friend, my constant companion.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 8/22/13
Time of binge : about 1pm til 9 pm
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Standing and sitting
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : I haven't had the courage to even estimate...
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was very short, maybe, a few minutes
Before I started to binge I was doing house cleaning while watching tv
Before I started to binge I was feeling probably bored
During the binge I felt nothing. I don't think about anything.
After the binge I felt uncomfortable, disgusting, let down yet again, a failure
From this binge, I have learned ........ I don't know if I've learned anything. I keep binge eating. I keep failing at controlling my eating. I don't know how you're supposed to stop. Every time I feel like I've had a good streak, I lose it.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Gah... had a binge...
Date of binge: 25/08/13
Time of Binge: Pretty much all day while there was food in my room
Body language during binge: Sitting in front on my computer
Company kept: Alone
Calories consumed: 2400 (for the whole day)
Amount of time it took to realise it was a binge: Kinda just realised at the end of the day when I actually logged all I'd had.
Before I started the binge: I was looking forward to having my favourite scone style bread for breakfast after having eaten a lot the previous day but balanced out with lots of exercise.
Before I started the binge I was feeling very very tired and sleepy, but I got up anyway.
During the binge I felt: Empty, as though there was an empty space nothing could possibly fill.
After the binge I felt so stupid, as if I have to go through this every single week.
From this binge I have learned that it has become my habit for good or bad to eat large amounts of food then fast for long periods of time. If I eat a lot, I should understand that it means I won't be able to eat as much the next day.
I can now move on without beating myself up too much.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Aug 28/2013
Time of binge : Approx 12-2pm
Location of binge : Quiznos subs and Grounds for Coffee
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting, distracted by my computer
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : All by my lonesome
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1000 Cals
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... About 1 hour
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Went to the gym/to a yoga class, then riding the bus aimlessly
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Bored and lonely
During the binge I felt ...... Empty
After the binge I felt ...... Bored, lonely, guilty, ashamed, and stupid
From this binge, I have learned ........ Binging never solves anything, it always still leaves the same original emotions, and just adds more negative emotions onto it.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
I really hope getting this out in open will help me. I feel like an addict, ashamed to tell anyone and regretful of my actions...
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Friday, August 30th
Time of binge : 9:30pm - 10:30 pm
Location of binge : Starting in the car and ended in the kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : sitting down driving, then sitting at the table
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone, as usual
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1800
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... about twenty minutes
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... working out, then shopping for my binge food
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... alone, bored, deserving to eat whatever the hell I wanted since no one cared to be around me
During the binge I felt ...... euphoric, satisfied, loved
After the binge I felt ...... ashamed, worthless, bloated
From this binge, I have learned ........ being alone doesn't mean i am ultimately alone. I know I should have just picked up the phone or logged onto MFP to find someone to talk to
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Since my daughter started working until midnight, I've been having the urge to binge a lot more. Sitting at home alone. Lonely. Bored. Depressed. When I feel that way, I just want to eat everything. It's an "I don't care. I just want to be full." kind of feeling. When I feel empty, I feel the need to fill that up with something.0
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Ok, I admit it, I had a binge last night before bed.
Date of binge : Sunday, September 1st
Time of binge : 9:30pm to 11:00pm
Location of binge : My kitchen and living room
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Standing for part while preparing the food. Sitting mostly though. Wouldn't say I was tense, actually I was feeling pretty good. Yes, the binge was pleasurable (during the binge).
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : My wife was in the other room or upstairs.
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 2,000
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was 10 minutes.
Before I started to binge I was doing something I'd rather not talk about.
Before I started to binge I was feeling ashamed and anxious and hungry.
During the binge I felt really good. It's so weird how pleasurable the binge was.
After the binge I felt confused.
From this binge, I have learned that I can put this binge in a box and move on without bingeing again the next day (well halfway through the next day).
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up. I would add that having told other people not to beat themselves up and to love themselves has helped me tremendously with this binge.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 9/30/13
Time of binge : 8:30pm
Location of binge : Living room then my own bedroom
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : lying on my bed, working on a paper for class
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Friends then alone in my room
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 5K
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 30 minutes
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Homework, eating a healthy dinner
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Bored, deprived, rebellious
During the binge I felt ...... So good and so bad
After the binge I felt ...... Sick to my stomach (wanted to puke)
From this binge, I have learned ........ I can not keep bags of chocolate in my room. I should not eat more than a few pieces because it makes me feel bad, even though it did taste good, it honestly wasn't worth the bloat afterwards. I know that I am so proud of myself on days I don't binge. I love the feeling of thinking I am free from my binging behavior.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Date of binge : from October the first till October the fifth
Time of binge : 5 days
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 8000 a day
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was: a second
Before I started to binge I was doing: I was trying to avoid going to school because i was terrified to go there alone without my sister so i pretnended to be sick
Before I started to binge I was feeling: Lonely, scared, upset, confused
During the binge I felt: Fullfilled and happy
After the binge I felt : Confused
From this binge, I have learned that i am indeed compulsive overeater and need to do something to stop this behaviour.0 -
Date of binge : October 7th
Time of binge : all day, but the peak was from 7:00 pm-9:00
Location of binge : Apartment
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone, but all roommates were in the house in the living room. Went to my single room and binged.
Approximate calories consumed during binge : probably +5000
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was: immediately
Before I started to binge I was doing: I woke up and wanted to eat a lot. I ate a lot during the weekend (vacation) and because physically "chewed" a lot this weekend, I just felt the need to continue the process of eating a lot
Before I started to binge I was feeling: bored, anxious, stress
During the binge I felt: Fullfilled and happy. I binged on a whole bag of cookies and chocolate
After the binge I felt : Feeling fat, failure, wanted to purge
From this binge, I have learned that i am indeed compulsive overeater and need to do something to stop this behavior. **same
Mine has been going on for a long time, and I need to stop using food as an answer to my problems.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Oct. 8th
Time of binge : Approx 11:30am
Location of binge : In my car
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) :
Driving, almost home, said "F it" pulled over at store for junk food. So sitting at first.
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge :
No idea, best guesstimate maybe 1500-2000+
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ...........
I had binge on the brain just a little this morning, kept saying no, make it another day binge free, but as I was almost home I just blew it entirely.
Before I started to binge I was doing .........
Working, then left to drive home.
Before I started to binge I was feeling ..........
Confused, wrestling with my conscience.
During the binge I felt ......
A short escape from all the crap in life. I felt naughty, as if the food and me doing it is wrong.
After the binge I felt ......
Disgusted and mad. WHY did *I* let this happen again. Unfortunately some of my binges have since turned into binge/purges and I wasn't a purge person before. I purged this binge when I got home.
From this binge, I have learned ........
That stress is a constant in life and I need to deal with my emotions. I need to realize food has NEVER once made my problems better or disappear. I never walk away from the binge happy that I did it. I need to remind myself over and over, a million times a day if necessary that THIS IS NOT WORKING so stop it already! (I have a counselor I am seeing about my stress/food/life etc)
I'm not really pleased that I am confessing to this and I know I will beat myself up about it, well because it always happens that way. Binge brain/emotions, food, guilt, shame, disgust, sometimes panic. Ugh ...0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 10/09/13
Time of binge : Started about 8:30 p.m.
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting on the couch, multiple trips to the kitchen.
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone
[Approximate] calories consumed during binge : 1832. :sick: I logged it today.
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... it started gradually, but I actively ignored my feeling of "oh no, I should stop".
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... watching tv.
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Depressed. Lonely.
During the binge I felt ...... Numb. I was actively trying not to feel anything. I was actively repressing any thoughts/feelings.
After the binge I felt ...... Disgusting. Bloated. Defeated. I felt like I let myself down again. I let my emotions control me instead of taking control of my emotions. I felt like...what's the point.
From this binge, I have learned ........ No matter how much I try to convince myself I don't care, I really do care. Otherwise, I wouldn't have such a strong reaction to what's happening in my life. I'm taking this really hard and I'm not sure how to just let go. I also don't want to have to think about how I'm feeling. I don't want to face the sadness, anger, and disappointment. I want to forget about all the bad stuff and binging is always my go-to. I need to find a better way to cope with the recent event that's been stressing me so much. I need to find a way to deal with my emotions in a healthy way or just let it go. I can't seem to do either right now.
I am making an effort to face the facts and will try my best to not beat myself up over this.0
