May Challenge - Me vs. The Binge
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Becca: 15
Binge: 70 -
May 22
Me: 17
Binge: 50 -
5-23-13
Jul: 16
Binge: 7 (5/3, 5/4, 5/7, 5/8, 5/12, 5/16, 5/17)
Record: Nov. 9B, Dec. 9B, Jan. 4B, Feb. 8B, Mar. 9B, Apr. 6B
I went out to dinner last night on a date and had exactly what I had planned ahead. BUT, the restaurant did NOT prepare my food the way I asked..with the extra stuff on the side (so I didn't have to eat it at all..) but instead it was all over my entree. I didn't want to seem inflexible since I was on a first date (if I was with someone else, I completely, 100%, would have asked them to redo it : /) but I was so annoyed. As a plus, I didn't finish the meal and stopped when I was a bit full. I came home and went to bed, all in all it was a normal, healthy way to eat.
...but. the guilt is sticking with me. I am so obnoxiously annoyed since I wanted to avoid those calories but it was out of my control. How do you let go of this guilt? I keep telling myself that this is how 'normal' people eat, sometimes I feel like ortherexia is causing such extreme emotions. (sidenote: I never openly convey these emotions, it is all very internal). Sigh.
Okay, to counter all this negativity, my pros have been that I'm binge free for almost a week and I'm still feeling strong, not weak like I normally do by now. I also feel stronger about having something off my 'plan' and not going overboard. I'm looking at last night as a practice for real eating and that it IS okay to give up control...as much as I hate it.0 -
May 22
Karen 13
The Binge 5
Over Calories 4
Days Left 9
Binge Days
5/2 5/4 5/5
5/17 5/180 -
5-23-13
Jul: 16
Binge: 7 (5/3, 5/4, 5/7, 5/8, 5/12, 5/16, 5/17)
Record: Nov. 9B, Dec. 9B, Jan. 4B, Feb. 8B, Mar. 9B, Apr. 6B
I went out to dinner last night on a date and had exactly what I had planned ahead. BUT, the restaurant did NOT prepare my food the way I asked..with the extra stuff on the side (so I didn't have to eat it at all..) but instead it was all over my entree. I didn't want to seem inflexible since I was on a first date (if I was with someone else, I completely, 100%, would have asked them to redo it : /) but I was so annoyed. As a plus, I didn't finish the meal and stopped when I was a bit full. I came home and went to bed, all in all it was a normal, healthy way to eat.
...but. the guilt is sticking with me. I am so obnoxiously annoyed since I wanted to avoid those calories but it was out of my control. How do you let go of this guilt? I keep telling myself that this is how 'normal' people eat, sometimes I feel like ortherexia is causing such extreme emotions. (sidenote: I never openly convey these emotions, it is all very internal). Sigh.
Okay, to counter all this negativity, my pros have been that I'm binge free for almost a week and I'm still feeling strong, not weak like I normally do by now. I also feel stronger about having something off my 'plan' and not going overboard. I'm looking at last night as a practice for real eating and that it IS okay to give up control...as much as I hate it.
Don't feel guilty. I get anxiety at restaurants. I like it better when I can do some research before I go and decide on a menu choice. Sometimes when we go out and just choose somewhere (or are with others) I get so nervous about ordering something healthy. I think eating out for BED people is very hard.0 -
May 2013
Diane: 13
Binge: 100 -
Mollie - 16
Binge - 06 (4th, 5th,11th,12th, 18th, 20th)
Days did not log it all - 5 (19th)
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Jan- 4 days I did not log it ALL
Feb- 3 days I did not log it ALL
Mar- 6 days I did not log it ALL
Apr - 5 days I did not log it ALL
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I don't know if it's related to an eventful weekend coming up, but I am already starting to have strong urges and am eating a little more by about 100-200 cals every day so far this week. With this pattern, I fear I will lose control. I've beat the binge thus far but feel like I'm losing control as the weekend gets closer. I have to remind myself how terrible I feel after a full binge and hope that I can continue to kick it's butt!!
Me: 22
Binge: 00 -
Me: 20
Binge: 3
Cutting up the blondies to take for work morning tea yesterday got the better of me. I did manage to have a reasonably good day for the rest of the day and beat the all or nothing mentality. I ate a little bit of cake and bisuits like a normal person and felt okay by the end of the day0 -
May 23
Me-22
B-1
It's Friday morning here. Getting a bit anxious about the weekend. I should be fine until Sunday. I've just got to keep myself busy.0 -
Lost track -- on vacation
Restart date -- May 20
May 23
Me -- 4
Binge -- 00 -
5-23-13
Jul: 16
Binge: 7 (5/3, 5/4, 5/7, 5/8, 5/12, 5/16, 5/17)
Record: Nov. 9B, Dec. 9B, Jan. 4B, Feb. 8B, Mar. 9B, Apr. 6B
I went out to dinner last night on a date and had exactly what I had planned ahead. BUT, the restaurant did NOT prepare my food the way I asked..with the extra stuff on the side (so I didn't have to eat it at all..) but instead it was all over my entree. I didn't want to seem inflexible since I was on a first date (if I was with someone else, I completely, 100%, would have asked them to redo it : /) but I was so annoyed. As a plus, I didn't finish the meal and stopped when I was a bit full. I came home and went to bed, all in all it was a normal, healthy way to eat.
...but. the guilt is sticking with me. I am so obnoxiously annoyed since I wanted to avoid those calories but it was out of my control. How do you let go of this guilt? I keep telling myself that this is how 'normal' people eat, sometimes I feel like ortherexia is causing such extreme emotions. (sidenote: I never openly convey these emotions, it is all very internal). Sigh.
Okay, to counter all this negativity, my pros have been that I'm binge free for almost a week and I'm still feeling strong, not weak like I normally do by now. I also feel stronger about having something off my 'plan' and not going overboard. I'm looking at last night as a practice for real eating and that it IS okay to give up control...as much as I hate it.
I can relate to the control thing. I'm definitely a control freak about a lot of things and can dwell on insignificant things like that too. I'm proud of you for not letting it get the best of you and going to bed. Keep feeling strong b/c you are.
Heather: 23
Binge: 0
Good luck friends this weekend. If I can make it through this weekend I'll have this month whipped. I wanna make the Binge my b*tch!0 -
23rd May.
Kate - 17.
Binge - 6.0 -
Kim;18
Over ate like a normal person: 4
Binge: 10 -
Becca:16
Binge: 7
I went to Senior Soiree where there was free cake . . . and I didn't eat it
I came home drunkenly from Senior Soiree . . . and I did not raid the fridge
Today was a success
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May 23
Me: 18
Binge: 50 -
May 24th
Was MIA a lot last week because I was binging.. but have been on a roll 7-days binge free today
Sarah: 18
Binge: 60 -
Bad news
---I'm calling dinner last night a binge because I felt that loss of control where I kept justifying more and more bites by claiming I didn't care, and then I still when home and ate (because I "didn't care"). Of course, as I got ready for bed, I felt that overwhelming guilt.....
Good news----It was a very small binge. I didn't finish the day with a horrifying amount of calories like before. Also, this was the first binge in 40 days.
Me: 22
Binge: 10 -
5-24-13
Jul: 17
Binge: 7 (5/3, 5/4, 5/7, 5/8, 5/12, 5/16, 5/17)
Record: Nov. 9B, Dec. 9B, Jan. 4B, Feb. 8B, Mar. 9B, Apr. 6B
Tomorrow will be a week binge free! I'm feeling much better. I think since I've switched to primal from Paleo I have more options and don't go overboard. I've learned this time and time again that when I'm feeling healthy, I am so much more productive & positive in my 'non-binge' life. When I binge, everything seems to overwhelm me. Keeping this mindset, and still working on eating when I'm hungry and making sure it's enough to fuel these workouts.
**strength to all of you this weekend! Planning ahead and being prepared are KEY. Enjoy your Memorial day if you have the day off, I will be logging in : )0 -
May 23
Karen 14
The Binge 5
Over Calories 4
Days Left 8
Binge Days
5/2 5/4 5/5
5/17 5/180 -
May 2013
Diane: 14
Binge: 100 -
24th May.
Kate - 17.
Binge - 7.
Had a really bad one today. Really bad.0 -
Heather: 24
Binge: 00 -
May 24
Me-23
B-10 -
Mollie - 18
Binge - 06 (4th, 5th,11th,12th, 18th, 20th)
Days did not log it all - 5 (19th)
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Jan- 4 days I did not log it ALL
Feb- 3 days I did not log it ALL
Mar- 6 days I did not log it ALL
Apr - 5 days I did not log it ALL 0 -
May 24
Me:19
Binge:50 -
May 24
Karen 15
The Binge 5
Over Calories 4
Days Left 7
Binge Days
5/2 5/4 5/5
5/17 5/180 -
Becca: 17
Binge: 7
I went over on my calories by a ton, but I didn't go into the binge mentality. Hopefully I can keep that up today 0 -
Kim: 19
Over ate like a normal person: 4
Binge: 10 -
5-25-13
Jul: 18
Binge: 7 (5/3, 5/4, 5/7, 5/8, 5/12, 5/16, 5/17)
Record: Nov. 9B, Dec. 9B, Jan. 4B, Feb. 8B, Mar. 9B, Apr. 6B
Over a week binge free!0
