4-8-13
Jul: 6
Binge: 2 (4/4, 4/5)

Days in April: 30

I've fallen into the restricting part of this disorder, I still struggle. Today I am consciously making the effort to get my calories up so I don't fall into the binge cycle.

...I'm curious - How does everyone classify a binge to themselves? I guess it's fairly subjective

My feelings before a binge are awful. It's like I can't sit still. I want the people around me to leave so I can eat, eat, eat. I have never binged in front of anyone. Usually if my famiy is home, I sneak into the kitchen and eat. Sometimes I will stuff something into my pocket and then go up to my room and eat it. If my binging gets hampered, I will figure out a way to get the food I am wanted. It almost feels like the food is going to go away or something.

Usually I will eat around 2k - 3k calories. Sometimes my stomach hurts so badly and I want to throw up, but I don't. It's usually those times where I promise myself I will stop and that this will be the last binge.

My triggers are emotions, feeling like "Everyone can eat this but me," tiredness and if I have restricted myself too much.

Ugh. I hate it.

Me-5
Binge-2

I ate a bigger than normal breakfast this morning, but I remembered this group and pulled myself under control before I got crazy.

I'm so happy that I didn't slip.

Summer - 3
The Binge - 5

Monday still bombed. Still binged. Still nasty. Slightly better than Sunday though.

Got on the scale today and lost control.

Why do I do this? I hate my binges. I am sore from exercise and feel some pain. So I also think my pain this week has gotten me upset too.

My therapist is working on mostly anxiety. I need help with binging more.

Karen 3
The Binge 5

Days Left 22

Binge Days
4/1 4/2 4/3 4/4
4/5

Me: 8
Binge: 0

This is the first time in 8 months that I've got past the 1 week mark without a binge. Very happy. And sending out love and energy to all of you

Me - 5
Binge - 2

weekends

Kim: 8
Binge: 0

Good start of the month so far!

Heather: 7
Binge: 1

Feeling really good after this weekend and today. I upped my calories to 1400 and I feel content, but there's a little demented diet voice inside that's tormenting me ever so slightly saying I'll never lose anything eating that much. I don't care. I wanna try this b/c I'm sick of eating nothing and losing lots only to regain it right back in a second. As the saying goes, insanity is doing something over and over again the same way and expecting a different result.

As always I'm thankful to the group for being here and having me.

Just found this group and I'm so thankful.

Me: 5
Binge 3:

Summer - 4
The Binge - 5

Binge free for: 1 Day

I am pre-logging Tuesday as a win against THE BINGE because I'm determined to break this today. The earlier I break it the better I will be at beating it!! It's pressing noon here and I'm gonna get ready for my workout!!

I avoided a major urge for a binge today. I agreed to make some cookies for a friend. When I went to the grocery store I had anxiety the entire time and I wanted to buy all of the junk food I saw, go home, shut my bedroom door and have a binge. But I stopped myself and only got the package of cookie dough to make for my friend. So since my anxiety was so high at the store I came up with a game plan for while baking the cookies. I made myself a cup of hot tea and the entire baking time I kept myself busy doing laundry etc. I did not have a single cookie....

Excellent! Happy to read about your victory!

Last week: Monday - Thursday, I won, then Friday - Sunday, the binge won. Yesterday I won again (back on track, yay) & for the first time in ages it wasn't such a struggle.

So far in all;

Me : 5
Binge : 3

Here's to day 9!

April 8

me: 8

bingemonster: 0


Definitely overate today, but no binge.

April 8
Me - 8
Binge - 0

today was very hard....