April Challenge - Me vs. The Binge
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Heather: 15
Binge: 1
Although this is the most in control and sane I've been with my eating probably in my whole life I miss losing the water weight on the scale. I mean in the past I didn't recognize the crazy weight fluctuations post-binge as mostly water weight and I certainly didn't enjoy seeing the pounds show up on the scale. It just felt like weight (fat) loss. Well at least that's what I wanted to believe. And I got a thrill out of seeing the scale change daily. Of course, at the time I was also eating waaaaaaaaaaay too few calories and was starving myself. I now realize that I could maintain the deprivation of calories for only so long and that's one of the main reasons I binged (not to mention all the emotional reasons and the distress of dealing with my IBS issues).
I mean don't get me wrong I love how in control I feel right now. I truly feel like I'm doing all the right things...it's just hard to shift your mind away from those crazy neurotic self-sabotaging mindsets. But it's growth right?0 -
April 2013:
Mollie - 15
The Binge - 1
Days did not log it all - 0
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Jan- 4 days I did not log it ALL
Feb- 3 days I did not log it ALL
Mar- 6 days I did not log it ALL
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I'm a bit confused, as I think I see TWO Part Twos....
Anyhoodle....
April 2013
4/16/13
Poppy: 15
the binge: 1
Gonna go ahead and call it a binge free day, even though I'll probably still be up for a couple of hours. Good shrinkage (therapy, not actual shrinking!) and was reminded to look at how far I've come in my battle with bingeing, at how I've taken charge of my health and well being for the first time in many years. Glad to have that realization again.
Thanks again to all of you for helping me keep myself on the track I want to be on!0 -
April 16
Me: 7
B: 9
Lost one pound since my last weigh-in! 6 total in 8 days! And more importantly I FEEL better. No cravings or blood sugar spikes. More energy.0 -
Late at night am stressing over an exam on Thursday. That said am planning on going to bed and really keeping my fingers crossed that I don't wake up in the middle of night and binge, if so that will be counted towards tomorrow!
That said as it is.
Kyle 9
Binge 20 -
Me : 13
Binge : 3
10 days since last binge!
Won again yesterday in spite of being exhausted (a real trigger for me).
Also, trying a new mini reward system this week - there's a new album I really want on iTunes so I'm allowing myself to download one song from it each day I don't binge.0 -
Also, trying a new mini reward system this week - there's a new album I really want on iTunes so I'm allowing myself to download one song from it each day I don't binge.
Genius!0 -
April 16
me: 14
bingemonster: 2
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April 16
Me: 12
Binge: 4
Dinner I definitely had too much to eat and started feeling out of control but I went on a walk. Then coming home I was offered
and had the control to say NO and drank water till bedtime! One small victory at a time....0 -
April 2013
Diane: 12
Binge: 40 -
I am having a really hard time right now.
April 16
Karen 8
The Binge 9
Days Left 13
Binge Days
4/1 4/2 4/3 4/4
4/5 4/8 4/10 4/14
4/16
Overate calories but did not binge day
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Angela:11
The Binge: 6
I lost this one. I tried to pull back, and the worst part is, part of me didn't want to. Something told me to just keep eating and worry about the consequences later.
I know I shouldn't "make-up" for it, but it's so hard not to plan tomorrow that way.
I'm thinking, if I can just eat 1/2 to 2/3 my normal calories, for just ONE DAY, I won't make up for it, but I might do some damage control... As long as I'm not skipping meals, or eating TOO little, this isn't terrible, right?
I know nothing can make up for it, and I just have to move forward (I used to spend WEEKS trying to right these wrongs...) but eating a little less for one is probably okay?
Ugh. I was doing so well. It was like a monster took control of me.0 -
Angela: 11
The Binge: 6
I lost this one. I tried to pull back, and the worst part is, part of me didn't want to. Something told me to just keep eating and worry about the consequences later.
I know I shouldn't "make-up" for it, but it's so hard not to plan tomorrow that way.
I'm thinking, if I can just eat 1/2 to 2/3 my normal calories, for just ONE DAY, I won't make up for it, but I might do some damage control... As long as I'm not skipping meals, or eating TOO little, this isn't terrible, right?
I know nothing can make up for it, and I just have to move forward (I used to spend WEEKS trying to right these wrongs...) but eating a little less for one is probably okay?
Ugh. I thought I was doing so well. It's like a monster took control of me!0 -
I am having a really hard time right now.
April 16
Karen 8
The Binge 9
Days Left 13
Binge Days
4/1 4/2 4/3 4/4
4/5 4/8 4/10 4/14
4/16
Overate calories but did not binge day
4/13
Karen, I hope this is okay, but I was curious about your weight loss journey, so I checked out your profile.
I'm sure you know this, but I just wanted to remind you that (from what I read) you've come a really long way, and you've worked so hard to get where you are. You said you're having a tough time right now, but it will pass. You're obviously such a strong and dedicated individual, and you clearly have a long history of being kind to yourself and overcoming obstacles!
You can do it!
Recently, things have been hard for me too. Tomorrow, as I struggle along, I will think about you and your victories, and your strength will help carry me through.0 -
So I'm game to try the reward system. I am going to reward myself with some new clothes for work if I can go a month w/o binging starting this past Monday (4/15). I'll see how this goes........
Me: 14
Binge: 2 (4/12, 4/13)0 -
Angela:11
The Binge: 6
I lost this one. I tried to pull back, and the worst part is, part of me didn't want to. Something told me to just keep eating and worry about the consequences later.
I know I shouldn't "make-up" for it, but it's so hard not to plan tomorrow that way.
I'm thinking, if I can just eat 1/2 to 2/3 my normal calories, for just ONE DAY, I won't make up for it, but I might do some damage control... As long as I'm not skipping meals, or eating TOO little, this isn't terrible, right?
I know nothing can make up for it, and I just have to move forward (I used to spend WEEKS trying to right these wrongs...) but eating a little less for one is probably okay?
Ugh. I was doing so well. It was like a monster took control of me.
Honestly, I think the best thing you can do to truly move forward is to acknowledge that this is a problem for you, forgive yourself, and move forward without restricting calories the next day. Otherwise, it's more likely to become a self-reinforcing circle--restrict, binge, restrict, binge. And accompanied by the feeling of needing to punish yourself for something that's not worthy of punishment.
Also, think of it as You lost this ONE. It's not a trend, it's not going to be like this forever. It was this one time. And if it happens again, it's still that one time.
My last binge (last Monday, I remember it well) was triggered by that same voice that told me to keep eating. My voice sounded a lot like an adolescent's, so after my therapist and I discussed it, we decided that I'd take a parenting type of approach should that voice pop up again. Kind of like, "Yes, I understand you want to eat all of the things. Here's an alternative: how about we do something else for 15 minutes? If you still want to eat all of the things after 15 minutes, we'll negotiate that." And then, should I still want to eat all of the things after 15 minutes, I'll compromise with that adolescent and say, "Well, eating ALL of the things doesn't sound like a good idea. How about you have a FEW of the things [or whatever seems a more reasonable alterative] and then move on?" Because, for me at least, it just doesn't work to completely ignore that voice. That voice just gets more obnoxious and digs its heels in, so to speak.
Anyway, these are just some thoughts.
And, YES! You are making progress!0 -
Angela: 11
The Binge: 6
I lost this one. I tried to pull back, and the worst part is, part of me didn't want to. Something told me to just keep eating and worry about the consequences later.
I know I shouldn't "make-up" for it, but it's so hard not to plan tomorrow that way.
I'm thinking, if I can just eat 1/2 to 2/3 my normal calories, for just ONE DAY, I won't make up for it, but I might do some damage control... As long as I'm not skipping meals, or eating TOO little, this isn't terrible, right?
I know nothing can make up for it, and I just have to move forward (I used to spend WEEKS trying to right these wrongs...) but eating a little less for one is probably okay?
Ugh. I thought I was doing so well. It's like a monster took control of me!
Oops--I replied to your post in the other thread. Didn't see that you had posted here.0 -
April 17
Kate: 15
Binge: 1
(4/6)
I am going to try to make it all the way to May 18 (and beyond of course) for vacation time.
I have 3 birthday parties to get through until then...0 -
Through April 17
Me 12
The Binge 5
I've been binge free for 2 days
my first goal is 16 days, or the end of April Feeling good. Being exhausted is also a trigger for me, as well as being anxious. I slowed myself down this morning despite not loving my outfit, losing my keys, and almost being late to work. I've got this... 0 -
Kim: 15
Binge: 10
