Becca: 15
Binge: 7

5-23-13

Jul: 16
Binge: 7 (5/3, 5/4, 5/7, 5/8, 5/12, 5/16, 5/17)

Record: Nov. 9B, Dec. 9B, Jan. 4B, Feb. 8B, Mar. 9B, Apr. 6B

I went out to dinner last night on a date and had exactly what I had planned ahead. BUT, the restaurant did NOT prepare my food the way I asked..with the extra stuff on the side (so I didn't have to eat it at all..) but instead it was all over my entree. I didn't want to seem inflexible since I was on a first date (if I was with someone else, I completely, 100%, would have asked them to redo it : /) but I was so annoyed. As a plus, I didn't finish the meal and stopped when I was a bit full. I came home and went to bed, all in all it was a normal, healthy way to eat.
...but. the guilt is sticking with me. I am so obnoxiously annoyed since I wanted to avoid those calories but it was out of my control. How do you let go of this guilt? I keep telling myself that this is how 'normal' people eat, sometimes I feel like ortherexia is causing such extreme emotions. (sidenote: I never openly convey these emotions, it is all very internal). Sigh.
Okay, to counter all this negativity, my pros have been that I'm binge free for almost a week and I'm still feeling strong, not weak like I normally do by now. I also feel stronger about having something off my 'plan' and not going overboard. I'm looking at last night as a practice for real eating and that it IS okay to give up control...as much as I hate it.

5-23-13

Jul: 16
Binge: 7 (5/3, 5/4, 5/7, 5/8, 5/12, 5/16, 5/17)

Record: Nov. 9B, Dec. 9B, Jan. 4B, Feb. 8B, Mar. 9B, Apr. 6B

I went out to dinner last night on a date and had exactly what I had planned ahead. BUT, the restaurant did NOT prepare my food the way I asked..with the extra stuff on the side (so I didn't have to eat it at all..) but instead it was all over my entree. I didn't want to seem inflexible since I was on a first date (if I was with someone else, I completely, 100%, would have asked them to redo it : /) but I was so annoyed. As a plus, I didn't finish the meal and stopped when I was a bit full. I came home and went to bed, all in all it was a normal, healthy way to eat.
...but. the guilt is sticking with me. I am so obnoxiously annoyed since I wanted to avoid those calories but it was out of my control. How do you let go of this guilt? I keep telling myself that this is how 'normal' people eat, sometimes I feel like ortherexia is causing such extreme emotions. (sidenote: I never openly convey these emotions, it is all very internal). Sigh.
Okay, to counter all this negativity, my pros have been that I'm binge free for almost a week and I'm still feeling strong, not weak like I normally do by now. I also feel stronger about having something off my 'plan' and not going overboard. I'm looking at last night as a practice for real eating and that it IS okay to give up control...as much as I hate it.

Don't feel guilty. I get anxiety at restaurants. I like it better when I can do some research before I go and decide on a menu choice. Sometimes when we go out and just choose somewhere (or are with others) I get so nervous about ordering something healthy. I think eating out for BED people is very hard.

Me: 20
Binge: 3

Cutting up the blondies to take for work morning tea yesterday got the better of me. I did manage to have a reasonably good day for the rest of the day and beat the all or nothing mentality. I ate a little bit of cake and bisuits like a normal person and felt okay by the end of the day

Lost track -- on vacation

Restart date -- May 20

May 23

Me -- 4
Binge -- 0

23rd May.

Kate - 17.
Binge - 6.

Becca:16
Binge: 7

I went to Senior Soiree where there was free cake . . . and I didn't eat it
I came home drunkenly from Senior Soiree . . . and I did not raid the fridge
Today was a success

May 24th

Was MIA a lot last week because I was binging.. but have been on a roll 7-days binge free today

Sarah: 18
Binge: 6

5-24-13

Jul: 17
Binge: 7 (5/3, 5/4, 5/7, 5/8, 5/12, 5/16, 5/17)

Record: Nov. 9B, Dec. 9B, Jan. 4B, Feb. 8B, Mar. 9B, Apr. 6B

Tomorrow will be a week binge free! I'm feeling much better. I think since I've switched to primal from Paleo I have more options and don't go overboard. I've learned this time and time again that when I'm feeling healthy, I am so much more productive & positive in my 'non-binge' life. When I binge, everything seems to overwhelm me. Keeping this mindset, and still working on eating when I'm hungry and making sure it's enough to fuel these workouts.

**strength to all of you this weekend! Planning ahead and being prepared are KEY. Enjoy your Memorial day if you have the day off, I will be logging in : )