BE Support Group Conversation Thread - 2013

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  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    I had an awful weekend. I got weighed last week and realized with all my hard work I lost nothing in 3 weeks. I stayed the same. I know it can be water weight blah blah. But I was working very hard and any binges were minor this month (at the time I think I had 3) I just wanted a few days of no tracking. I also think I felt deprived. I need to learn to work in some of those less healthy yummy foods so I don't miss them so much and go crazy!

    Luckily I see my Doctor today. She is working on my BE
  • TiaTia2003
    TiaTia2003 Posts: 112 Member
    I am starting to get very anxious about my upcoming trip to the US. For those of you who don't know me, I am an American living in Beijing, China. This summer my family and I will be back in the states for 6 weeks. I've made this same trip several times and one of two things always happens..either I'm really good with sticking to my weight-loss plan and I actually lose weight, or I'm really bad and eat everything I'm unable to get here in China (read fast food, Mexican, dunkin donuts, etc.)

    I'm hoping that by posting this message I will be able to come back to it periodically while I'm there to remind myself that I'm technically not on vacation for 6 weeks. I'm just living somewhere else. Also, the last time we were there I gained 6 pounds and it's taken me 3 months to lose that again. DON'T FORGET THAT!

    Thanks for letting me vent everyone. I love the support I get from this group.
  • MistyJourney
    MistyJourney Posts: 5 Member
    Hey peeps I need support! I totally fell off the wagon yesterday and I don't want to do the same thing today. I ate horrible! I need some suggestions on how to start over today so I don't fail.
  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    I am starting to get very anxious about my upcoming trip to the US. For those of you who don't know me, I am an American living in Beijing, China. This summer my family and I will be back in the states for 6 weeks. I've made this same trip several times and one of two things always happens..either I'm really good with sticking to my weight-loss plan and I actually lose weight, or I'm really bad and eat everything I'm unable to get here in China (read fast food, Mexican, dunkin donuts, etc.)

    I'm hoping that by posting this message I will be able to come back to it periodically while I'm there to remind myself that I'm technically not on vacation for 6 weeks. I'm just living somewhere else. Also, the last time we were there I gained 6 pounds and it's taken me 3 months to lose that again. DON'T FORGET THAT!

    Thanks for letting me vent everyone. I love the support I get from this group.

    Good luck! I too take forever to lose the weight that I gain. It is so frustrating. I should put that on my mirror or by my scale. :)
  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    Hey peeps I need support! I totally fell off the wagon yesterday and I don't want to do the same thing today. I ate horrible! I need some suggestions on how to start over today so I don't fail.

    Just begin like it is a new day. Don't punish yourself with extra exercise or less calories. Just act like the binge did not happen. I try to follow my own advice but it is hard. Bingers tend to feel bad and punish ourselves.
  • DucksandOranges
    DucksandOranges Posts: 96 Member
    Hey peeps I need support! I totally fell off the wagon yesterday and I don't want to do the same thing today. I ate horrible! I need some suggestions on how to start over today so I don't fail.


    One day at a time :)

    check out: http://zenhabits.net/failed/
  • Literally just finished binging, I have no idea how I always convince myself it'll be fine and worth it. I feel awful!! Why can I not get control of this UGH
  • tsikkz
    tsikkz Posts: 404 Member
    Today Im going to try my hardest to stay under, I always fall off the wagon on weekends. My breakfast was already over 600 calories (raisin bran binge) but I know my day isn't ruined yet but its been at least 5weeks of weekend binging and I really want to do good this weekend, I just keep telling myself that I want to do well so bad and it seems to work. I'll post on Sunday night and see how I did, I think a little bit of accountability will help
  • tsikkz
    tsikkz Posts: 404 Member
    I did pretty average on saturday and horrible on sunday. I just get so bored on the weekend I mindlessly munch on things. I really need to get a hold on this and maybe try something new
  • DucksandOranges
    DucksandOranges Posts: 96 Member
    I feel ya on trying something new tsikkz. sometimes i feel like if I keep struggling at the same times and in the same situations I need to try something new... Sometimes I just completely dont care and it feels like it'll just be worth it to eat whatever i want for a bit. I can go on a walk or distract myself but may just want to come right back and eat something just to eat.
  • strongmindstrongbody
    strongmindstrongbody Posts: 315 Member
    Been feeling less binge-y the past couple of weeks. Tested my control last week by buying one of my binge triggers (not the worst of the bunch, of course - not even going to go there yet). The bag is still half full and I even shared with my kids (before, this would have been a food I hid away from everyone in the house because I was always counting on binging on it at some point). I think the key for me has been to mix this candy in with greek yogurt. Maybe the protein helps to curb the urge for a binge? Just a thought in case this could also help someone else.
  • Chibea
    Chibea Posts: 363 Member
    I started working and my eating just is all over the place. Every day I come home famished and can't seem to make myself wait until I can prepare something healthy. So I grab anything or eat fast food before I get home :( My calories aren't awful, but the healthiness of my food has gotten really bad. I've had 3 binges in two weeks and feel very out of control again....My sodium levels are always in the red in the thousands...Not sure how to get back to my good habits that I have been cultivating since I joined MFP in December.......
    I don't have the kind of time I had to hang out on here and read for hours, but if I am on, I need to be here on this forum.
  • tsikkz
    tsikkz Posts: 404 Member
    Okay im sure this is probably the placebo effect, but after being on hormonal birth control for almost 8 years I had my progesterone implant removed on wednesday.

    I have described my binges here before but for those who don't know they are like an out of body experience, just a deep animialistic need to over consume until my stomach is so stretched its painful, and even then I'm not satisfied.

    It feel like a switch has been turned off and I am no longer craving all the time, but again it might be too soon to tell and just my hopes that are giving me this effect, I am now 100% medication free and my decision to go off birth control was motivated by my insane binge episodes as I really do feel out of control and helpless.

    I'm starting a new fitness regime on monday which I'm designing in order to meet my specific goals, and my number one goal is to make it through the weekend without any binge episodes, its been a very very long time since I had a binge-free weekend.

    The other thing ive done is stop counting calories. I lost my weight before I joined MFP and I haven't lost a single pound since I joined. I think counting calories isn't healthy for me when I have such a raw obsession with food.

    Im very optimistic that overhauling my exercise, my food tracking and my medication will finally help me get out of this rut.

    Happy friday!
  • DucksandOranges
    DucksandOranges Posts: 96 Member
    Tsikkz: Good luck with the no-BC = no BE, sounds like it may be a great thing for you! I can understand about the complete obsession with food. For years it consumed my life and any effort to count calories often just led (and still sometimes does lead) to massive binges. Only you know what works for you!

    Chibea: I always try to bring apples, baby carrots, or some other kind of fresh fruit (but apples/carrots pack well) with me if I think there is even a chance I'm going to be fantasizing about anything and everything I can eat before I get home. If its the only "snack" I bring it forces me to eat that as a small snack and tide me over without being too much food/calories. Good luck getting back on the right path - I'm sure those good habits will come right back:)
  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    tsikkz
    I hope the hormonal effect helps(loss of the BC). Maybe that was making your binge cravings worse?

    Chibea
    Snacking is hard. Sometimes when I work I don't bring enough for lunch and then I get into trouble when I get home

    DucksandOrang
    I did whatever I wanted the last few days and I had binges. I am not in control yet.

    .,,,,,,

    I had a horrible last few days!! I had company that I cleaned the house for. The house was almost spotless. They are so critical. So we went out to eat and the first night I did okay. Not awesome but okay. then I screwed up from there. They bought Junk for breakfast and I had it. Even though I had healthy options. Also when we went out the next night I just ate the same as them. I ate badly. I was tired of having to order differently than others. Plus they were paying so I felt bad asking for something different. (the group was sharing this meal. Trying not to mention specific foods)
    Last night I still ate badly and they are gone. No exercise either. I just gave up. I am tired of trying at the moment. I will get back into it today the best I can.
  • strongmindstrongbody
    strongmindstrongbody Posts: 315 Member
    Karen, sounds like you were in a rough situation with those house guests. Think of it as a learning experience and know that a less-than-stellar few days don't define you or take away all you have accomplished.
  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    Karen, sounds like you were in a rough situation with those house guests. Think of it as a learning experience and know that a less-than-stellar few days don't define you or take away all you have accomplished.

    Thanks you are so sweet!

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    I changed my calorie goals yesterday. I think I was being too strict. I am now logging and eating most of my exercise calories. On my rest day I won't be able to eat that low so I may go over that day.

    I hope it works.

    I have to go out of town this weekend too. YIKES
  • misstressangel
    misstressangel Posts: 2 Member
    Hello, my name is Bre, and i binge eat only at night. I need to lose over 150 pounds, and 2 years ago underwent a double lung transplant,. Between the meds and depression, I packed the pounds on in a year. Any advice from night time eaters out there ?
    :drinker:
  • tsikkz
    tsikkz Posts: 404 Member
    Hi Bre! I think its important to keep busy and try to disassociate things like watching tv, or using the computer, with eating. I also personally have a nighttime snack before bed so if I am feeling like eating I can tell myself I have my snack when its time to have it :)
  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    Hello, my name is Bre, and i binge eat only at night. I need to lose over 150 pounds, and 2 years ago underwent a double lung transplant,. Between the meds and depression, I packed the pounds on in a year. Any advice from night time eaters out there ?
    :drinker:

    Welcome!! I think many of us have been night time eaters.

    My only advice is distraction. Also, make sure you don't starve yourself all day. I think for me that is the worst I can do. If I starve I am more likely to binge.
  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    Worst Binge in a long time yesterday!!! I ate bad food over the weekend on a vacation but never binged. Yesterday I ate until my stomach hurt. I was in pain until I went to bed.
  • strongmindstrongbody
    strongmindstrongbody Posts: 315 Member
    I did a bad binge too yesterday. Afterward I threw out the trigger foods so there'd be no more temptation later on. Thought I could have a certain type of candy in the house, but guess not. I cannot fool myself into believing I'm a normal eater, even when I have a couple of good weeks.

    Weirdest thing though, during the binge I could breathe easier. I've been doing this annoying shallow breathing for weeks, but with the binge I could finally breathe easy. It was a utopia experience until about an hour later when the sugar rush hit and the headache and sick stomach began. But I appreciate those awful sensations because it reminds me that my body deserves better.

    *sigh* Live and learn. (okay now that Joe Public song's in my head :happy: )
  • eddie8131
    eddie8131 Posts: 600 Member
    Hi my name is Ed. I am 43 days in a row binge free (starting on June 3rd), and I've lost 37 pounds since then. While that is awesome, I am starting to have the feelings creeping back, such as, it won't be long now before you mess it all up, or, you are missing out on all that life has to offer foodwise. Everything in my life has to go perfect for me not to binge it seems. My work is starting to suffer because the lack of binging is uncovering anxiety, and I feel like I spend all my time exercising and planning meals and weighing and measuring. Last night was the first time since June 3rd that I really wanted to go downstairs and nighttime binge. So I am getting concerned.

    Having said that, what I am doing is what I need to do to get healthy, so I am determined not to be ashamed or sad about it. I don't trust myself at all with food, nor do I trust myself to exercise on a regular basis, not just when I feel like it. A big part of my success is completely avoiding triggers. Another is logging every single day. And I am learning to love myself again (I know that sounds a little sappy sorry).

    I am just trying to stay on course with what I am doing, but I haven't learned yet how not to be perfect and still stay binge free. If anyone has the secret to breaking perfectionist behaviors, by all means, please share it. :)

    I so appreciate everyone sharing their stories I am glad I found this group. Thank you for listening.
  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    I did a bad binge too yesterday. Afterward I threw out the trigger foods so there'd be no more temptation later on. Thought I could have a certain type of candy in the house, but guess not. I cannot fool myself into believing I'm a normal eater, even when I have a couple of good weeks.

    Weirdest thing though, during the binge I could breathe easier. I've been doing this annoying shallow breathing for weeks, but with the binge I could finally breathe easy. It was a utopia experience until about an hour later when the sugar rush hit and the headache and sick stomach began. But I appreciate those awful sensations because it reminds me that my body deserves better.

    *sigh* Live and learn. (okay now that Joe Public song's in my head :happy: )

    I knew while I was eating it that I should stop but I did not want to yesterday. Right now I am thinking about going to the pantry cause I am hungry and we have don't have much food in the house.

    I hope you feel better today
  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    Hi my name is Ed. I am 43 days in a row binge free (starting on June 3rd), and I've lost 37 pounds since then. While that is awesome, I am starting to have the feelings creeping back, such as, it won't be long now before you mess it all up, or, you are missing out on all that life has to offer foodwise. Everything in my life has to go perfect for me not to binge it seems. My work is starting to suffer because the lack of binging is uncovering anxiety, and I feel like I spend all my time exercising and planning meals and weighing and measuring. Last night was the first time since June 3rd that I really wanted to go downstairs and nighttime binge. So I am getting concerned.

    Having said that, what I am doing is what I need to do to get healthy, so I am determined not to be ashamed or sad about it. I don't trust myself at all with food, nor do I trust myself to exercise on a regular basis, not just when I feel like it. A big part of my success is completely avoiding triggers. Another is logging every single day. And I am learning to love myself again (I know that sounds a little sappy sorry).

    I am just trying to stay on course with what I am doing, but I haven't learned yet how not to be perfect and still stay binge free. If anyone has the secret to breaking perfectionist behaviors, by all means, please share it. :)

    I so appreciate everyone sharing their stories I am glad I found this group. Thank you for listening.

    Welcome and congrats on your success so far!!
  • DucksandOranges
    DucksandOranges Posts: 96 Member
    Hi my name is Ed. I am 43 days in a row binge free (starting on June 3rd), and I've lost 37 pounds since then. While that is awesome, I am starting to have the feelings creeping back, such as, it won't be long now before you mess it all up, or, you are missing out on all that life has to offer foodwise. Everything in my life has to go perfect for me not to binge it seems. My work is starting to suffer because the lack of binging is uncovering anxiety, and I feel like I spend all my time exercising and planning meals and weighing and measuring. Last night was the first time since June 3rd that I really wanted to go downstairs and nighttime binge. So I am getting concerned.

    Having said that, what I am doing is what I need to do to get healthy, so I am determined not to be ashamed or sad about it. I don't trust myself at all with food, nor do I trust myself to exercise on a regular basis, not just when I feel like it. A big part of my success is completely avoiding triggers. Another is logging every single day. And I am learning to love myself again (I know that sounds a little sappy sorry).

    I am just trying to stay on course with what I am doing, but I haven't learned yet how not to be perfect and still stay binge free. If anyone has the secret to breaking perfectionist behaviors, by all means, please share it. :)

    I so appreciate everyone sharing their stories I am glad I found this group. Thank you for listening.

    Sounds like you've been making HUGE steps in the right direction!

    It's definitely NOT an overnight process and there will be plenty more good days and bad days to come, but the important part is that you're taking steps to get better. There was a (long) time when I could not imagine going 3 days without a) crying about my body b) bingeing or c) purging let alone your 43, but now I can even survive the toughest of days without bingeing. It has taken me years to get here and maintain a healthy weight without letting it consume my life but I am here and it feels great! Everyone is different but do remember that every day is a new day. Yesterday might have felt like crap but tomorrow could be full of personal victories - so keep at it! We're all rooting for you!
  • SilverLotusGirl
    SilverLotusGirl Posts: 537 Member
    I'm late the convo thread, but hi.

    I've been having a bit of a time the past few nights. I keep wanting to eat cookies but luckily I don't have any. I did have half a chocolate muffin my SO brought home but that's better than eating my weight in golden oreos. I just keep feeling eating disordered thoughts and panic. I exercise a lot but that's to keep the weight off and help change my body and it keeps me from just sitting around on my bum all day doing nothing. At least I can spend some of the time working towards my goals. I just have this fear of getting super fat. I keep wanting to keep trying on shirts to be sure they still fit.
  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    I'm late the convo thread, but hi.

    I've been having a bit of a time the past few nights. I keep wanting to eat cookies but luckily I don't have any. I did have half a chocolate muffin my SO brought home but that's better than eating my weight in golden oreos. I just keep feeling eating disordered thoughts and panic. I exercise a lot but that's to keep the weight off and help change my body and it keeps me from just sitting around on my bum all day doing nothing. At least I can spend some of the time working towards my goals. I just have this fear of getting super fat. I keep wanting to keep trying on shirts to be sure they still fit.

    We all have had tough times. Just keep trying and keep going. That is all we can do.

    HUGS
    Karen
  • karendee4
    karendee4 Posts: 558 Member
    What a tough start to the week for me. I am doing better now. I sure hope I can finish off July strong.
    :)
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